She remembered four years ago when she was at school, a male classmate had a good feeling for her. When she didn't pay attention, she forcibly hugged her. She took the vase and smashed it on the other side's head, causing the other side to leave a lot of blood. She was also sent in and forcibly imprisoned for two days. When she learned that she was a pregnant woman, she was released.
Later, the boy walked away from her.
And she just dropped out of school and stayed in the small apartment she rented.
"Do you know what causes this instinctive resistance?"
"Yes!" Tang youyou's face turned red again. When the doctor saw her hesitation, she seemed reluctant to say it. She immediately smiled and said: "Miss Tang, take it easy. In fact, about what happened to you and Ji five years ago, Ji told me in detail. He thought that it was the night you two met five years ago that caused these difficulties to you It's a wonderful memory. "
"Ah What did he say? " Tang youyou is still wondering how to describe this matter. But now, according to the doctor, Ji Xiaohan has described it again. I'm fine! Doctor Liu pushed the frame and said gently, "don't be shy. We are all women. I can understand what you have experienced. President Ji said that you had a close contact five years ago because of an accidental chance. At that time, he was given a very aggressive and fierce drug.
he would do that to you only when he had no choice As I said, he really regrets hurting you like that. "
At the moment, Tang youYou can't tell what it's like. It's complicated. He's also a little pale because of the old things.
"He didn't describe anything in detail." This kind of thing that Tang youyou really felt was taboo.
"Yes!" Liu nodded: "he said that he may have hurt you and left a lot of blood. He actually went to that room the next day and saw the scene with his own eyes."
Tang youyou suddenly pressed his head hard, inexplicably resisting to recall those things.
"Dr. Liu, I May I have a rest first? "
"Miss Tang, you have to open your heart to it. Don't run away from it any more. Now tell me how you felt at that time." "I was scared, I didn't have a chance. I felt that my life was gray and I couldn't find a way out. That night, my father forced me to take the plane. I stayed in the plane with my eyes open for more than ten hours, and I didn't dare to sleep. I also had to endure the pain of my body. In short, I was desperate
!" Don youyou in the doctor's gentle eyes, began to touch those things in the past.
"Do you hate the one who hurt you?" "I hate killing him, but I feel that I hate myself even more. It's useless and I can't protect myself. Besides, I hate those people who knocked me out and sent me to the room. No matter what, that night, I may not be able to hide, no matter who that person is." When Tang youyou said that
here, he was cold and shivering, because it really took courage to open the old wound again.
In the past, she selectively forgot everything and adjusted her life to the moment when the child was born.
All the joys have accumulated little by little since we had children.
Dr. Liu looked at her pale face and cold sweat on her forehead. Maybe her nightmare was caused by long-term suppression.
"Miss Tang, relax a little. Can you tell me what your nightmare looks like?" Dr Liu can only ask her in a gentle voice.
Tang youyou nodded his head. There were some hollowness, confusion and fear in the beautiful eyes.
"Sometimes I feel like I'm torn by wild animals, sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in a dark room."
"To be more specific, have you ever dreamed of something between men and women?"
"Yes, yes!"
"Can you see the face of the man in the dream?"
"It's fuzzy, I can't see it clearly!"
Dr. Liu recorded her symptoms and after thinking about it, she suddenly said, "now you know that the man is Ji Zong, do you hate him?"
Tang youyou's body is stiff, and his expression is dull for a long time.
"Do you hate him?" Dr Liu asked her again.
Tang youyou lowers his head. He is very weak and has no power.
"Hate before, not now!" Tang youyou clenched his lips and answered lightly.
"Why don't you hate him?"
Tang youyou didn't really think about it carefully. Then, she had to face up to it and open her mouth to answer: "because he didn't mean to hurt me, he was forced to do it. Moreover, I had a child with him, he was very good to the child, and always good to me."
"Are you in love with him?" Dr Liu smiled.
Tang youyou's empty eyes, which gradually got the focus, she looked at Dr. Liu, and then shook her head: "I don't know if that's love, I'm still relaxed and happy with him now."
"Well, we'll be here today. Thank you for sharing your experience. Go back first."
"That's it? Don't you need another treatment? " Tang youyou suddenly stands up and feels that it's not a treatment yet □ the doctor immediately smiles and says: "psychotherapy is to find out the root cause of the problem and solve it. It's not the same as physical treatment. An operation and some medicine can make the wound heal. Let's slow down. Besides, I don't think your situation is too serious. The only thing you lack is that you can't Face your heart. After you go back, you can communicate with Mr. Ji more. It's better to have communication in your heart. Of course, you can also try to make physical contact with him. For example, you can hug each other every day, hold each other's hands more, and feel the warmth of each other, which is not helpful for your treatment
"Hug every day?" Tang youyou's beautiful eyes widened in surprise.
"It's better to do so. For example, further actions can be taken step by step." Doctor Liu said with a chuckle.
Tang youyou breathed out a sigh: "I'll try my best. Thank you, Dr. Liu. Suddenly I found that after talking with you, I was in a much better mood. Before, I never told anyone about these things, and I didn't dare to say them." "It's because you've been holding on to your inner fear for a long time that your body now appears the rejection instinct. Miss Tang, I think your personality is also quite bright. You're not the kind of person who doesn't have to eat and shut down. I believe that your condition should get better in a period of time." Dr. Liu told her very definitely.
"Come on, thank you, Dr. Liu. Let me go first!" "Slow down!"