94 iv. Broken Vows
She blinked back tears as she watched him kiss another. It happened as she had asked him to do. He has taken another luna. He has taken another as his wife, rather than her the human girl the pack despised.
The pack erupted in celebratory howls as the two kissed, while she stood there staring at them. It wasn’t a simple kiss, it was ravishing and deep, much like the kiss they have shared so many times before.
When the kiss finished, Dominus looked straight at her, his eyes glimmering with hatred. She had forced this upon him, threatened to run away or hurt herself if he didn’t do as the council wished.
They haven’t talked since her last attempt to take her life, she looked down at her wrists still covered by bandages hiding evidence of the slashed wounds that adorned them just a week ago.
He never visited her in the hospital once she woke. But she was informed he was the one who found her in the bath as her blood mixed with the cold water that run on her skin.
She nearly died, that was how it was phrased by the doctors who looked after her. She has been unconscious for days and with no one else besides her except their grandmother.
When she woke, she immediately looked for him but he wouldn’t even speak to her over the phone. And just two days ago she has been informed that he has chosen a luna to wed.
She was very pretty, but what is striking is that she had blue eyes and dark auburn hair much like her. It was almost as if the luna is a fitting replica of her.
Even a blind man can spot their similarities, but no one from the pack seems to have the courage to speak about it. Everyone kept their mouth shut except in so far as to praise their new luna.
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She came from a powerful bloodline, the only daughter of the alpha of the silver moon pack, the second most powerful pack aside from theirs. With this union, the other packs have decided likewise to merge into one dynasty, much like during the age of the legendary black rose.
They have appointed Dominus as alpha and guardian of all the other wolf packs across the country. If that isn’t enough, they have brought back the name of the pack as the legendary and all-powerful black rose.
She turned away from his piercing gaze and started to walk away. She couldn’t stay anymore. She fears her heart will burst and cause her to die on the spot.
She began to take the direction going to the woods, planning to spend the rest of the night in their cabin. She would drink herself to a stupor as she will try to forget the image of him kissing another, that sounded like a perfectly good plan.
He has built a new house for his wife, which was twice as grand as the one they have inherited from their parents. She felt a pang of jealousy in her heart but she chose to ignore it, she is the luna- that by itself made her deserve it, she reminded herself.
She froze when she heard footsteps coming after her. She turned around and found him standing close behind her.
He pulled her into a kiss and roughly ravished her with his tongue. She sighed as she pulled on his shirt’s collar.
He removed his tie and discarded his shirt on the ground as he hurriedly pinned her against a tree. They were both panting as if they were about to run out of air.
“You were all I could think of, damn it all. You were all I could think of,” he murmured.
“Then take me. I am yours, I remain to be yours,” she whispered.
He hurriedly unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants then pinned her back into the tree. She heard something being ripped and realized it was her panty when his calloused fingers scissored into her slit.
She moaned as he pleased her with his touch, her voice only interrupted as he devoured her lips, his tongue exploring her sweet mouth as he continued to explore her body with his fingers.
She sighed when his fingers dug inside her walls, digging in and out of her then scissoring lasciviously as her juices coated his fingers. The lascivious sounds of her juices and her walls being stretched can be heard as he continued to punish her so pleasantly.
“More,” she begged him, holding into his shoulders as he plunged deep inside of her.
Her knees trembled as her toes left the ground, her small body impaled against his thick cock. “Fuck,” he grunted as he slammed his cock inside her cunt.
Her walls tightened immediately around his shaft as her feet were lifted off the ground with each thrust. “Damn it all, you are mine,” he grunted and panted hard as their bodies moved lasciviously.
Her body felt like it will be split into two, but she didn’t mind it. She felt like she needed it to be like this.
Rough, wanton, raw. Sex without any sophistication so that her mind can stop overthinking even for a second.
This is exactly what she had to do, to forget the pain even momentarily. To forget he now belongs to someone else entirely. This is what she needed to survive in her suffering.
Her body trembled as multiple orgasms hit her, she felt her mind blanking out but he didn’t relent. Instead, he carried her and laid her on the ground.
Her head was protected by his hand as she felt the ground against her back. Soon the inconvenience was forgotten as he continued to plunge deep inside her.
Soon he was laying her on her side and thrusting his shaft inside her core as his legs scissored with hers, his lips pressing kisses on her cheek as she moaned loudly, not caring about any possible passerbys.
“Fuck, you drive me wild. You drive me mad, noona,” he grunted and took her again, not stopping despite her pleas even when her body became too sensitive. He continued taking her over and over making her lose her mind as well.
Soon he was pressing her cheek onto the ground as his hand choked on her neck, using her neck as the anchor to drive himself madly inside her core. She cried out and sobbed his name into the night. Dominus.
Dominus pinched her nipples as he came hard on top of her, spilling his seeds inside her core as he grunted and held her close. It took them a while before they both came back to their reality.
She picked up her clothes and started dressing herself, he did the same too, his eyes still focused on her. Mud and dirt covered their bodies, staining their clothing.
Her panty remained ripped and forgotten somewhere in the bushes. He took his handkerchief and started cleaning her muddied legs, making her tear up.
She did this. She did this to them. The situation that has already become difficult from the start now became even more impossible.
She felt horrible seeing him like this, committing sins of the flesh with her, all the while married to someone else. It hurt her to have given him away, and to think she now only have these moments with him.
Moments that belong hidden in the dark. They don’t deserve this. At least he didn’t. She forced him to do this. And now they are both bound to suffer for it.
He wiped her tears away and hugged her tight, crushing her in his arms like he never wanted to let her go. He breathed in her scent, feeling his heart constrict at the familiar feeling of peace only she brings.
He wanted to take away all the pain the circumstance has inflicted on both of them. He wanted to run away with her, be anywhere else with her, trapped in their own reality for all eternity.
He kissed her forehead and whispered, “I am sorry for everything. Tell me to run away with you and I will do it. It is not yet too late. I can have my union annulled. We can turn our back from it all and start anew.”
She shook her head and burrowed her cheeks in his chest, “No, we can’t run away. The pack needs you. You are the alpha and you can’t turn your back on your people. Besides, it is all my fault this time... let me bear it.”
“I will find a way to marry you. I will not stop until I have given you the world that you deserve,” he promised her as he held her lovingly.
She nodded desperately, unable to say anything. She felt guilt run through her, here he is spending his first night with her instead of with his wife.
She felt jealousy resurface thinking about how he and his wife will share a bed later when he is home. How he will never again be sleeping beside her like he usually does. No matter how he says it, he will never fully belong to her now.
He tilted her chin and inspected her tear-streaked face, “Do you regret it? Do you regret giving me away?” he asked solemnly.
“No, I can never regret a choice that saved you from losing your birthright. I will never regret a choice that will make you the greatest alpha the history will ever know. I do not regret any of it,” she said bravely, meeting his golden eyes that lit up even more in the dark.
“Remember your words because it will not be easy. It will be harder for you than it ever was. You will have to bear it and remember your words just now. Do not attempt to take your life again or to run away from me, you promised me this, bargained with me with these two things. You have to keep your word, my queen, I can not tolerate losing you,” he said the words with emphasis.
“I promise, I will bear it all... because even I cannot take it if I were to lose you. I will keep my word and never leave your side again no matter how difficult everything becomes. I swear this all,” she answered him, truthfully, fully, and solemnly... every word she intends to keep. It is her vow to him, a vow that ties her very soul to him.
He claimed her lips as the moon shone upon their dirt-covered bodies, their lips strung with each other again as their bodies intertwined.
She knew they have sinned against all the gods and the laws of men and of his species. But even the knowledge of that is not enough for her to loosen her hold on him.
She knew she will be condemned by her choices, and yet even that pales in comparison to having him beside her like this. Trapped in a precious moment that is just theirs.
Because despite all the heartaches that are to come... everything else she can bear except losing him.