Chapter 105

105 iv. Always and Forever

“What are you doing?” she was packing her bags when he arrived.

His eyes immediately darted to her clothes that were laid all over the bed.

Betrayal lined his thoughts as he grabbed her by her shoulders.

“What do you think you are doing?” he shook her hard, enough for her to drop the clothes she was holding in her hands.

“What do you think am I doing? I am packing my things and getting out of here,” she said, her heart felt like it had been torn up from her chest as he continued to avoid his eyes.

“Can you hear yourself? Do you know what you are saying? You have promised to stay by my side. You can’t leave me,” he growled at her, his fangs showing as anger started to take over.

“I have no place here. Can’t you see that? I have no place here!” she shouted at him.

“Why are you saying these things? Did anyone say anything? Did anyone bully you!” his voice was edgy, filled with anger he wanted to throw anywhere else but at her.

“You, you made me feel miserable. You make me feel miserable by asking me to stay here with you. Can’t you see that? You have a family now, you don’t need me anymore. Asking me to stay here without purpose is making me even more pathetic than I already am,” she pointed out.

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“You are my family. You always have been and you always will be,” he told her in a serious voice, his eyes pleading with her.

“Then what of your wife and child? What are they then? What does it make me next to them?” she asked him, lowering her head as tears trailed her cheeks.

“That woman has never been a wife to me, she never will be. No other woman can make me feel the way I feel for you. No one can take your place in my life, my queen. You have nothing to worry about or be jealous of,” he assured her.

“Nothing to be jealous of? The last time you told me that, you got her pregnant,” she laughed bitterly.

She didn’t want this version of her. Jealous, bitter, and cruel. She didn’t want to have this conversation with him and throw these words that hurt him.

“I promise I will never even be in the same space as her alone. I’ll run far in the forest when I transform into a wolf, I’ll do everything to stop that from occurring again. I never desired her, or even liked her. You have to believe that... you have always been the only one,” he whispered, it is the truth but she never seemed to believe him, she never seemed to understand.

“You want me to believe it was your wolf that had sex with that woman! Do you even know how big your wolf is?! Are you saying you were both wolves when you did it, and you both just happened to have no control?!” she said, her anger was justified because of the impossibility of the version he wanted her to believe in.

“No, she can’t get pregnant that way. I am saying she went into the dungeon and mated with my wolf while she was in her human form,” his voice was serious, telling her exactly how he remembered it.

“Your wolf is larger than a house, how can any human girl tolerate that?! Do you think she wouldn’t have died from doing that with you while you were in your wolf form?! I am tired of your lies and of your excuses. Just let me get out of here,” she punched his chest as she cried.

He took hold of her fists and looked into her eyes, “Is it easier for you to believe then that I have committed that sin on your person? It is easier for you to believe that I have desired and touched another the way I do you?”

“Yes, that is exactly what I believe in,” she pulled out from his touch and continued packing her things.

“Let’s go away together then,” he calmly opened his closet and took his luggage as well, placing his clothes neatly inside.

She stopped and held into his arm, “What do you think you are doing?”

“What else but packing my things? If I can’t stop you, then I just have to come with you,” he said as he continued.

“Are you crazy? Stop that immediately,” she stopped packing her clothes and started unpacking his.

“I have been crazy ever since I saw you on the battlefield that day. Ever since you treated my wounds and whispered words of kindness. I loved you even then. I have been crazy for you ever since,” he confessed, wanting her to remember everything so she can stop doubting how he feels.

“You are speaking of another woman yet again! You make me sick,” she hissed as she slapped his hand away.

“I am speaking of you, my queen. Have you really forgotten the very beginning?” she felt her world spin when she heard him say it.

He immediately held her and lay her on the bed. She closed her eyes, trying to stop her world from its fast spinning.

He worriedly looked at her with panic in her eyes as she lay there motionless, closing and opening her eyes while she tried to focus.

“Are you alright, baby? Should I call the doctor?” his face was pale as if life was drained out of him.

He squeezed her hand, “Baby, please talk to me. I don’t know what to do.”

She pulled him close, “I just feel a bit dizzy. Don’t call the doctors about this. I think I just need some rest.”

“You better go get some rest, my queen, I’ll clean up after the mess. You don’t have to think about anything,” he kissed her forehead.

“You will just unpack my things and return them to my closet,” she complained.

“Of course, I’ll do that,” he smiled and kissed her forehead. “Nothing wrong with taking advantage of an opportunity.”

His joke made her smile, how can she ever hate this man? Sometimes he was just too innocent and cute.

She pouted, most times he was just a dominating jerk. She blushed as she recalled the times he has shown his dominance.

“What were you thinking, baby?” he smiled knowingly.

“Nothing,” she moved a bit to give him space because of how awkward he was sitting at the edge of the bed.

“I missed this,” his smile widened as he joined her, snuggling her close, and kissing her shoulder.

“You won’t miss it soon enough. All your time and attention will be on your family,” she bit her lower lip to stop herself from saying more.

Has she really been this selfish all along? Competing with a child now. A child she couldn’t even bear him no matter how hard they tried.

“Hey,” he kissed her nape. “You are my family. I am sorry things happened the way they did. But even this child won’t take me away from you.”

She teared up as guilt eat at her heart, was this really the kind of low life she is now? She should feel shame. How can she think of the child as her personal enemy? The child has more rights to him than she ever will have.

“I am not saying you should not spend time with your child, I am just saying, set a bit of your time for me at least. I need a bit of attention too. I have no one else in this world but you,” she felt kisses on her nape and shoulders, up to the tip of her ears then down again.

“I’ll never take my attention off you. I’ll see the child as long as you allow me. Only as long as you allow me,” he whispered.

“That will make you a terrible father to the child,” she heard her voice break.

“I know. But I’ll rather be that than lose you. I can bear everything, be anything. For as long as you stay. You are everything to me, queenie,” he professed, turning her towards him as he wiped her tears away.

“I don’t want you to be like that towards your own child. I don’t know what came over me. I have been so selfish. I couldn’t see past through my sufferings,” her tears won’t stop even while he wiped them away.

“I don’t care what you are. You can be selfish and greedy, you can be evil and menacing... I will still love you the same way. My love for you is all-encompassing, absolutely and entirely yours,” he continued.

Her lips trembled as she attempted to say something, but she can’t seem to come up with words as he traced her lips with his thumb, longing swimming in his eyes.

“Can I?” he asked. He has missed her. He missed this honesty with her and this sort of understanding.

She nodded and he claimed her lips. The kiss was as maddening as the feelings that he evoked from her. Their lips danced gently and sensually as if they were lovers courting each other for the first time.

“Don’t ever leave me, queenie. You are the only one for me. The only one I ever loved. I’ll do anything, be anything for you. Just don’t leave me. Even death is kinder than letting me suffer a life without you,” he kissed her lips again, this time it was a hungry and needy kiss. One that takes her breath away.

“The only thing I fear for in this life, is losing you. It racks my brain and tortures my soul every time I think about it. Even thinking about it makes me want to go into a rage and kill, and destroy the whole world so I can keep you safe. It is only you I needed more than life itself. Don’t leave me,” he begged her, his fingers cupping her breasts as he slid his hands inside her blouse.

“Ahhhnnnn...” she couldn’t stop her body from reacting to his touch, her back arching as she moaned softly.

“Promise me you won’t run away. I’ll rather die than lose you,” he whispered, his eyes turned into murky gold as lust took over him.

“I won’t... I won’t run away,” she promised him as he let out a soft growl and yanked her blouse, spilling the buttons.

She giggled, “You always destroy my clothes,” she complained.

“We can always buy you new ones,” he grunted as he unbuckled his belt, the urgency of his need made him unable to remove his shirt or to slide completely her panty before he started thrusting deep into her folds.

Her mind almost blanked out immediately as she felt him bottom out inside of her, the whole of him inside her all at once. She tugged on his shirt, making his buttons fly just as well.

“Fuck,” he grunted as her action made him even more hungrier. A feral need to take her made him thrust faster into her core, his movements wilder. The bed shakes as their bodies rocked, their limbs intertwined as he took her over and over.

When he finally spilled his seeds inside, her body convulsed softly as she clung to him, “I love you always, my knight.”

He smiled and hugged her even tighter, when he realized what he called her just now, “And I love you forever, my queen.”