179 < Chapter 31 - Not yet (3) >

I don't remember when, but it became a habit.

"That's what habits are for. Or is it just me? I don't know."

Chase quietly mutters, filling an empty wine glass.

I don't know when the days of drinking on the roof of the building increased from one day to two days to three days, but it became a habit.

Tailan, who was watching Chase like that without saying anything, responded with a faint voice.

"Yes or no."

"I see."

Chase grimaces his head in a loud, meaningless voice. Under the silver moon and the blue star, a similar colored blue foot sinks together, shaking and sinking.

"I think there are many things you don't remember, unless it's a habit that you took to follow Prince Cairis' wishes."

It is a mint tea that is suddenly in your mouth like a habit.

Chase turns his head in silence and looks back at Tailan. Chase was not drunk at all because it was not that strong. So there's nothing wrong with what Tailan just said.

"Oh, you caught me."

So Chase smiled and said, I sighed deeply and sadly at the end of my smile.

The original Chase was a man who had never shown such a face.

Whoever it was always smiled. It was someone who did not have a frowny look on his face that was about to fall.

Tailan has seen him for longer than Chase's acolytes, and he knows it.

So what is it about sudden mint tea that you don't notice?

"Chase."

That's why Tailan opened his mouth instead of the polite words he always used. You grip Chase, smiling like a dried-up leaf, one by one.

After sitting on the three seats, Chase looked at Tailan with a slightly surprised or funny look.

"Maybe I was drunk. My teacher calls me by my name."

And then I made a joke out of it.

He stops asking and tries to change his mind, but Tailan shakes his head firmly and opens his mouth again.

"I'm worried about you."

Chase lets out a big laugh. Then he looked down at the roofs of the small city that followed under his feet.

"I drink like a habit, my master watches over me like a habit. I dream as a habit, my teacher worries about me as a habit."

There were so many habits that came to mind. Chase's eyes, which were reciting these habits, moved towards Tailan.

"That's enough, Master. Not mint tea."

Tell me why Chase is imitating the symbol of Khalian and that I can't even tell Master Tailan about it. Don't worry about that. Don't even ask.

"You have to tell me what's going on to help. Don't just sit there like you're about to jump down there right now."

I can't look like I'm about to jump off those things under my feet again. I felt deep in Tailan's face as he said, looking at his only disciple.

Since Tailan was treating Chase as a disciple, Chase also gave a quiet voice for a moment as a disciple.

"I've endured wanting to jump down there right now. It was a long time ago."

Oh, that was a long time ago.

Chase smiles silently again, adding this.

"So you don't have to worry about that."

"But, Chase,"

Tailan opens his mouth again, thinking he's never going to back down this time. But Chase just shakes his head and laughs again.

I knew that my dreams were difficult, but I should not forget, and that I should not stumble and fall. Now I know it's not the lightest life to put it all down like this.

A soundless laugh blows through the wind once. Chase, who was chasing the snow, opens his mouth again, as if following the end.

"I'm really okay."

* * *

The Bible says we will raise our swords and defend them.

Do what you want.

Defend or defend, try something.

If you do.

I'll get him back to my seat.

Whatever you want.

* * *

I didn't get annoyed or close my eyes.

I just sat still and protected the smile of the one sitting in front of me.

Stop laughing or something. Until you look at those bright red eyes, those bright green eyes.

"· · · · · · At first."

After smiling for a long time, Calian smiles again, barely breathing again.

"I was wondering if it was a dream. that the day would come when everything would become a dream."

Lost an arm, bled out, punctured the chest. I don't think I'll go back to the moment I was dying of cold, losing more than that.

"Though it was more of a craving than an idea."

Did he hear what was hidden between the horses or didn't he?

Plants quietly turns his head away from Calian's gaze.

"Unfortunately, it wasn't a dream."

I met an old Khalian in a dream, and Chase in a dream.

That's how I met those who are no longer there. I met those who passed me so that I wouldn't be caught by them and lost them in my dreams.

Callian no longer has any dreams.

How can he who does not dream wake up in it?

So for Callian, it wasn't a dream, it was an end.

- Cheers.

After a sip of the cold tea, Calian looks at Plants.

"· · · · · Just now, I heard that half of the Cecretina Sezark who lived here died."

Talking about the dream, I put someone's death in my mouth.

Still, all of a sudden, like that.

"I'm not surprised. And I immediately understood why he had made that decision, because I would have done it. However, I was not able to do it, but now I know I have to do it. It should have been a little unfamiliar."

Calian confidently said that he didn't want to hear the other emotions of Plants.

"You may have noticed a vacancy between the past and the present. And now you know you have to fill that vacancy yourself, and I think that's why you made that decision."

Chase was still wise.

It was only wise. There was a rift here and there because it was a problem.

So Chase must have realized what Bern had done in his memory. I would feel like there was no one else to do the work for me.

You would have learned what Bern did to leave Chase in the light of the holy army, and where he lived to leave Chase alone.

I wonder how big that vacancy will look.

How hard it must be to fill the seat alone. If you wake up from an endless dream, how terrible will the nightmare be?

"I don't know, I don't know."

Kalian also knows that Bern's vacancy will be a crack in Chase.

Callian, nonetheless, picks up another sip of tea instead of telling you that finding Chase is your fault.

"I'm asking you because I know."

Nevertheless, finding Chase knowing that Chase is now several times harder than Chase was before.

Things will be worse than when Bern was around. It must have been hard for you to realize how awful Bern's blood smelled on Chase's behalf. I'm sure it will fill that vacancy eventually.

- You have to walk mine first to get your opponent's Hand. Didn't I tell you that? You have to have a bet to get what you want. So give it a try. It is your dream to protect him.

Bern, who walked in the shadows on Chase's behalf, was younger than Chase is now, younger than Plants is now. Nevertheless, it was fine.

It may have been crazy, but it didn't collapse.

Because.

"He's strong enough to have lived as a son."

Chase and Bern are very much alike.

That damned Devil.

It was the same with Bern and leaving without him.

"So, I know you may be shaken, but you're not going to settle down."

- Cheers.

Plants raises his cup without an answer.

Immediately, Calian reaches out and hands down the cup like it was taken away from him.

I felt that the sweet smell of the apple that was too generous in the cold tea was coming in as strong as the flower aroma, only after the tea cup was removed.

"· · · · · · Besides, he's not as handy as anyone else."

Should I tell him not to bark? Should I tell him not to bark?

Plants takes something out of his arms and puts it on the table while he ponders it for a moment.

"As Jeonseo-gu, please do one more time."

The plant sees you on the table, sighing silently once.

It was on Alan's wrist, handing a similar ring to Callian leaving Roselita, a silver bracelet with no pattern.

Plants opens his mouth quietly, watching it convey his voice no matter how far away it is from each other while inside the palace.

"You'll need a falcon."

He said he had to carry something heavier than a letter, so he couldn't do it with pigeons.

Plants sighs a little when he gives you his answer, meaning that you'll do him a favor.

It was because it was hard to fathom how often my younger brother was able to escape out of the palace. If we're going to have a conversation, we need to get out of the palace.

When Calian notices it, he shakes his head.

"You have nothing to worry about."

It was because we didn't have enough time to talk to each other.

So, the bracelet was also Calian's promise to make the day as relaxing as possible, and it also meant that we should stay alert and help make the day. It was also a selfish request that I would always talk to her and ask her for help whenever I needed it.

"I'm not just a rotten little brother."

The person who stopped dreaming gave him a voice that would call out those who were lost between nightmare reality and reality, and smiled as a habit.

Seeing someone who wants to dream a little better than having a cat.