When Qin Fanxing was in the second grade, he was selected as a young pioneer and wore a red scarf.
When she came home from school, she couldn't wait to share the news with her dearest brother, but only got one bad news. Qin Yousheng's mother and her family wanted to take him away.
Qin Fanxing cried a lot.
She clings to his thigh, cries and refuses to let him go. Qin Yousheng's face is full of tears, but he still goes.
Every night after that, she would cry for her brother.
Li Xiangsi and Qin Yinian's husband and wife are afraid of her sadness. They deliberately stop mentioning Qin Yousheng, as if he had never been to this family.
After that, she never asked again.
Because she had a hunch that he would never come back in this life.
The couple thought that with the passage of time, their daughter's memory would be blurred and forgotten, but Qin Fanxing always remembered.
How can we forget that they are the closest people!
She remembered that she cried so bitterly that she begged him not to leave, but he left her.
She hates him!
Mood is like cotton wool soaked in ice lake, wet and heavy.
Qin Fanxing clenched his hands and turned to look out of the window, trying to calm his ups and downs.
All the trains leaving the Tibetan area need to travel for more than ten hours. They need to stay overnight in the train. They can arrive at the terminal at about 9 o'clock tomorrow morning.
In the night, it was dark outside.
There was no scenery outside the window to enjoy. The soldiers in the car gave them the sleeping berth.
Qin Fanxing is the last one to pass. She was taken to a soft sleeper by a young soldier. Although it was an upper and lower bunk, she did not see anyone else.
She was surprised. "Am I alone?"
"Well!" The soldier nodded.
Qin Fanxing understood that before their medical team came up, the whole train was full of Iron-blooded and masculine soldiers, and the women in the volunteers were odd. Maybe when they finally came to her, they were alone.
She smiled gratefully and said, "thank you. I'm so lucky!"
Although Qin Fanxing didn't inherit the two little pear vortexes of his mother, Li Xiangsi, when she laughed, her eyes were curved into crescent shaped, especially delicate and simple.
The soldier was embarrassed by her smile and said shyly, "Miss Qin, you should have a rest earlier!"
"Thank you!" Qin Fanxing thanks again.
The door closed and the soldier shook his head.
Where there are so many lucky people in the world? It's clear that they gave her their own sleeping room!
Qin Fanxing didn't know the reason behind it. She was lying on the bed with her arms and legs outstretched.
The medical students always have a little habit of cleanliness. I used to think that the sleeper on the train would not be clean. After all, many people are lying on it. But at this time, she is lying on it. It's strange. I feel that she smells a fresh smell of trees. It's very good.
It's much softer than she thought. It doesn't hurt when she turns over.
Qin Fanxing can't sleep.
It may be the first time to sleep in a train sleeper, or it may be that the mood fluctuates too much during the day.
After lying for two hours, still not sleepy, Qin Fanxing got up, put on a coat, and wanted to go out for a walk.
By this time, the whole train had turned out the lights, quietly.
Qin Fanxing wanders around like a wandering soul.
The next car is a dining car, only the one with the light on, so there is light to see the figure standing at the junction of the two cars, she can see clearly.
The man leaned against the door, one leg slightly bent in front, smoking.
His back is bare. At the moment, he is not wearing a military cap. His hair is short and black. He pokes hard like a steel needle. There is no oil paint. His facial features can be seen clearly. With the shaking of the train, there is a sculptural shadow on the bridge of his nose.
Qin Fanxing wants to turn around and go.
But she didn't move. After standing there for a long time, she walked to him step by step.
There are things she needs to prove.
Although in the daytime bathroom, she could not only see his facial features, but also a small mole under the corner of his eyes. It was so small that she could not see it at all. But she found it at a glance.
When she was a child, she often touched it with her little hands, and then said happily: brother, you are a mole of beauty!
Ninety nine percent of them have confirmed it is him, but Qin Fanxing still asked him, "are you really Qin Yousheng?"
A man spits out a cigarette ring from his mouth.
Surrounded by the clouds, he has profound and three-dimensional features.
He said, "little star, it's me!"
“……” Qin Fanxing was shocked.
When he called her little star, she knew the answer.
Only the closest people would call her that.
Qin Fanxing's eyes were red, and her full of emotion gushed out. She stared at him bitterly and asked, "why did you go at first! Why don't you come back to see us and contact us all these years! "
"Sorry, little star!" Qin Yousheng sighs.
His eyebrows and eyes seemed to be covered with a dark cloud, and water drops would fall down at any time.
He pinched his cigarette and said slowly, "I was born in the children's welfare home. When I was four years old, my parents brought me back to the Qin family. Before that, I always knew that my own father was a great soldier. After he died, my own mother gave birth to me and ran away!"!
But I didn't expect that my biological mother didn't leave me behind. She was caught by the family.
It turns out that my father once went to Tibet for a mission. They fell in love at first sight, but my mother's family disagreed. They thought that my father was a poor soldier and had no future. They were forced to elope!
There are many good sceneries. My father died and my mother was pregnant. She never wanted to leave me. Just after I was born, the family found her and forced her to go away and send me to the welfare home... "
Qin Fanxing holds his breath.
Her hands clenched quietly, which was the first time she heard of his life experience.
When she was very young, she knew that they were not related by blood. Her brother was adopted from the welfare home, but Qin Yousheng was very sunny since he was young, and there was no haze on him.
Now she felt his loneliness.
The shadow cast by the back light on the carriage is like a continuous sad mountain.
Qin Yousheng said, "later that year, my mother suddenly came to Qin's house and found me, told me the truth, and wanted to take me back! Because of the death of my grandfather, my family was in a mess. As a single mother, she wanted to inherit the family business, but was opposed by others in the family.
Because there is an unwritten tradition in the family, just like the concubines with princes in ancient times, women can't be in charge of the family at will, they must have sons to stand on their feet.
My mother has a deep love for my father. She wants to keep this love for him. She will never marry another person or have another child in her life. So she keeps looking for me. Later, she finally finds me! "