Chapter 184 182. Duality Of Emotions
"Yes, I could not sense it, But I am sure it is because of this spiritual power turbulence here."
Parashurama was taken aback by the questioning of Durvasa but come to realisation that what he said match the description that is happening with him, He quickly answered.
He still believe the disruption in the spiritual power here that is why he can't sense his Parshu, That can be the only explanation there can be, There is no other way to break his connection from his axe.
Yes there is no way his connection with his axe can be broken, As long as that axe exists in this time and space, No matter where it is, That is still connected to him.
And the moment he would recall the axe it would come back to obeying the order of its master, which means he is the sage warrior of the Bhargava clan.
It's just he can't wrap his mind around where the axe could have gone. The blast did not happen and so the axe should be around somewhere but he can't see it.
"....Did you see the child who appeared out of nowhere in the middle of the blast centre?"
Durvasa did not answer him directly as even he didn't fully understand how Karna did that, But he was sure that if the axe is not here and Karna was involved then there is a very high chance that the axe was with Karna.
If that is the case then it is his responsibility as guru to make sure Karna be safe. Weapons like that have a it's own consciousness, If Karna touches it without its permission, there would be retaliation from the weapon.
Which is the more of the reason why Durvasa wants to make sure Parasurama get the situation as inky it's matter can prevent weapon from harming other beings or order lessen the impact if weapon is already retaliated.
So Parasurama being in the side of Karna is a key, If he didn't follow through it in anger then Karna would suffer.
"....I seen him, What about it?"
Parashurama was hesitate to answer that question, He didn't know why but when he first saw Karna appear front of him there was immense guilt occupied his heart.
He don't understand why he felt guilty about it, It's an irrational guilt that just could not go away, At first he thought the fact the kid would get but by his axe causing him to feel this way.
But even after seeing the kid somehow able to avoid damage that guilt not go away, Because the moment he got close to see his face clearly his thought process has stopped and he felt like a huge stone was put on his heart.
He felt they share the bond that can't be put in the words but also felt like he had broken that bond.n--o).v..e(-l-.B-)I.-n
This were the thoughts occupying mind when he jumped up making him unable to react before the blast set off, He know that the child was in the centre of the blast and yet he didn't feel panic once he saw his face.
For some strange reason he was confident that kid would survive the blast without much trouble other than a few wounds here and there. It's an unreasonable thing but that is the case, Parashurama knows that they share some cause and effect but he doesn't want to admit it.
He didn't want to face that child. The guilt and shame the thought of facing him come in his mind was overwhelming as if he had betrayed that child. He did not feel it would be right of him to face that child.
That is why even though he was very concerned about if Karna getting injured, He didn't ask about him, Hoping someone would bring it up.
But now that someone indeed brought it up, He suddenly became panicked, for the first time his lion-like heart felt the emotion of fear, Fear of getting the news he did not want to hear.
And yet wants to know, That curiosity and the fear of hearing something he does not wants to hear was tearing him apart, It's strange duality of emotions he feeling or for the first time in his life.
He was the man who was so straight forward that he say whatever he felt honestly to any one who was in front of him without thinking about it, be it the king of Deva's Indra or his lord Shiva.
In his mind, There is nothing wrong with expressing what he was feeling not doing so would consider deception which he is not very fond of rather hate it.
So it was very hard time manage his emotions trying to figure out what he really wanted but could not come up with an answer and so he put it on Durvasa to get the answer for him.
"That child's name is Karna, I am his Guru, So I request you to hear me out before reacting."
Durvasa sensed the changes in the emotion of Parashurama but did not think much about it. After all, they know what kinda man he is. If he has something in mind they would have been informed by him long ago.
So he just ignored that and put what is important matter first, He quickly revealed the identity of Karna as his student so even if Parashurama got angry after knowing it might be Karna who took his axe away, He can contain his anger.
"Guru?!"
But Parashurama here was flabbergasted. He didn't understand what's happening to him. The moment Durvasa said that child was his student, Hhefelt like someone just stabbed him in his heart.
It's like someone took away something precious like his own son away. Yeah it's a weird analogy for a Brahmachari (Celibacy) man but this is how he is feeling at this moment.
"For now, Soon I too will be his Guru."
Shukracharya who was just a silent listener of the conversation had to chip in when this topic came up.
He gets why Durvasa brought this topic here and so he too decided to put his thoughts here. This way not only he can make sure his side can also be heard but also add more weight for Karna's safety.
Durvasa just gave Sukracharya a side-eye but did not say anything to refute his claim. He proved he is indeed as if not more worthy to be Karna's Guru than he thought but there has to be some ground rules before he can allow him to accept Karna as his student.
Parashurama hearing Sukracharya once again felt that panic that something precious and important was taken away from him, He so desperately wanted to stretch out and prevent that from happening.
But somehow his heart was not into it, One side of him wanted to let it go even though it was inexplicably hurting him, As that whatever he was trying to hold on has better fate being away from him.
This realisation nearly broke him down. He even at some point thought that Sukracbarya put him into some kinda forbidden array as to why would he feel this strong and yet unexplainable emotions?
He is not that emotionally weak man, If he knows you are then you are wrong there is no explanation necessary as at best explanation earns you his sympathy not forgiveness.
This is him, who was so quick on judgement, Who held and abided by his code of ethics, And now he was the one who was acting contrary to it.
"So I think your Parshu is with Karna, Which he definitely might have taken by mistake."
Durvasa lowered his voice, though others after Durvasa realised it was about Karna could not hear the conversation as he sealed off the space but he still did not risk it and told off in a secretive tone.
Hearing what Durvasa said Sukracharya looked at him in a doubtful look, He can understand Durvasa before acting like this to protect Karna from being blamed for the fight.
But after hearing this, Didn't this would put Karna in the hit list of Parashurama by making matter personal to him? And a child can take away the axe of Parasurama? It is not a thing a child is able to carry and take away.
He even doubt the intention of Durvasa being a hint Karna but discard it knowing to which extent he can go for that child, and so to some degree he believes Karna might really have took away his axe.
Which if someone told him before today's event he ignored it as being a stupid joke but not now, Especially after seeing what Karna is capable of when his life is threatened.
Here Parashurama got one more shock. He too first thought this is some stupid joke but the way he appeared in front of him out of nowhere and also possessed the element of chaos which even though they gloss over know-how it made his existence terrifying had to agree he believed to some degree.
And so he just looked at Durvasa thinking he would say more but none of them spoke anymore falling into the awkward silence, As Durvasa didn't know what to say now as he thought Parashurama would ask questions if something was not just stand there silent.
"So where is Karna?"
Sukracharya could not take it anymore and broke out the question, breaking that awkward silence.
(A/N : Like always thank you for reading and have a good day ????.)