Chapter 257 - Her fear

Damn! He felt excited for nothing.

He slowly let go of her waist and began walking towards his room. His head hanging low in front of him.

"Are you angry with me?" Clara asked, staring at his back view.

"I'm not angry. I have no reason to be." He said as he kept walking away.

Clara took quick steps and went after him. She stood in front of him and spread her arms sideways to stop him from leaving, before looking up at him.

Leo looked at her with his lips pouted, making Clara calm that he wasn't angry for real.

All of a sudden, he started blinking his eyes shamelessly, "marry me." He said, shaking his shoulder at a fast pace like a little kid trying to make his parent do his wish by acting cute.

"Please please please." He added.

Clara bursted into laughter and hit his chest playfully. "Here I thought you were angry." She said.

"I'm not angry, I'm heart broken. See?" He said, losing the first two buttons of his shirt and placed Clara's hand to his chest, "can you feel it? It's bleeding inside." He said, feigning a pitiful expression. 

Feeling his warm chest against her palm, Clara wanted nothing more than to start roaming her hands all over it.

"What are you doing?" Leo asked and quickly held Clara's hand, that had started caressing his chest.

She retracted her hands from his own and looked seriously into his eyes.

"About what I said earlier, let's just do it." She blurted and Leo just kept staring at her.

She meant all she's saying but it felt like she's kidding around to him.

"That first time isn't fair to me, because I couldn't remember the details. I want to do it again, Leo.

I have been holding it in all this while, because each time we came back from our dates, I always wanted to ask, but worried that you are going to say that I'm naughty, but I don't care anymore.

I can't take it anymore, Leo. I couldn't sleep each time you dropped me off at my place, so let's do it." Clara pour out her heart shamelessly and started unbuttoning his shirt.

Leo felt proud of himself for stirring up those feelings in her, but he still wanted her to marry him.

He held both of her hands and she tried to resist. "You know what? this is called s.e.x.u.a.l harrasment." He said, raising his brows at her.

"What harrasment? We are together, aren't we?" Clara asked, poking out a finger from his grip, still trying to reach for his shirt.

"We aren't married yet, baby. How about you say yes, then we can do however we like, hun? It will be legal then." Leo said, hoping to trick her to say yes.

"I won't tell anyone. It will be between us." Clara said, letting out a grunt as she struggled to reach for the 2 remaining buttons, and unbutton them.

She had managed to opened 4 and could already see his chiseled chest.

Leo tried to hold back his smile and keep a straight face. "I'm the one being harassed here, so of cause you wouldn't tell anyone, but I will have to tell someone. 

My lips are lose." He said.

"No, they are tiny and s.e.xy." Clara replied.

"Haha. If you marry me, no one will even listen to me if I wanted to complain. You can harass me however you want then." Leo said and his face suddenly turn serious.

"I don't want to get married. Can't we just remain like this forever? I love how we are now." Clara said in a serious tone.

"No baby, please." Leo pleaded. That was what he noticed. She seem to want them to just go on like this.

I always told myself that I will never get married since I was 8years old, and I still don't want to now. I love you, Leo. I really do and will never love another like I do you.

I just…. I don't want to have kids. I'm scared they will go through the same hardsh.i.p.s I went through, it won't be fair to them, Leo.

Those resentment I felt toward my parents, I can't bear for my kids to feel the same toward me. It was really heart wrenching, and I'm scared.

I'm scared something might came up and make them be on their own without me, just like my mom did. I know it wasn't their fault, but Leo, I blamed them.

I blamed them for bringing me into this world when they will leave me to suffer this much. I just want you, just you and no matter what happens, I won't hold anyone anything. I won't feel bad because of anyone.

I felt relieved for Belle because she has Mick and seem like she prefer him to me, but if I really have a baby, the situation won't be same as Belle's own. I will be the one she will chose to be with and I don't think I can handle that burden.

The weight of the guardian even felt less heavier than how I imagined this to be." She added and Leo listen attentively.

He totally understood her fear.

She has gone through a lot and it's understandable that she felt this way, but she should let the past stay behind.

"Baby, that is not going to happen. We are going to make sure our kids never experience what we went through. We will try not to make the same mistakes our parents made, which leads to our harsh experiences. 

We learn from people's mistakes and I believe we've both learned a lot.

And also, we are in this together, so I believe we can do a good job. A beautiful angel like Belle and cute boy like me.

Don't you want to see them? You want us to do it, but do you know mistakes happen and you might still end up being put in a family way?." Leo spoke up.

"And also, your excuse is not so convincing because we already have one child and she's doing so well." He added.

"She's attached to Mick. The one we make would only see us and…."

Leo cuts in, "baby, we can do this. Hun?" He gave her a searching look and Clara bit down on her lower lip.

"We will love and care for them. We will be possessive parents that wouldn't allow a single hair on their heads to suffer. They will love us. Hmm….. Please." Leo tried reasoning with her.

Clara sighed and nodded her head in understanding, but Leo wanted to know if he managed to convince her.

Becaise during all this, she didn't stop her struggling to reach for his shirt and he was still holding her hands.

"So, what do you say?" Leo asked and felt Clara stopped her struggling to reach for his shirt.

"Give me a moment to think." She said, and Leo released her hands, hoping she's taking him seriously, but immediately her hands were freed, she quickly inserted both hands inside his shirt and wrapped her arm around his bare waist, pressing her face to his chest.

Leo was taking back by her sudden action and felt his entire being lose focus for that split second. He felt his body shivered at the contact and gulped as his adrenaline surgery forth. 

"Gotcha!" Clara exclaimed, and his body further stiffened as her breath hit his skin, yet she continued.

It seems like fun to her now.

"There is no escape now, so let's just do it. I will give you a reply to your proposal tomorrow because I need to think about it overnight.'' She added and looked up at him.

His face was red and you can't make out if it's due to want or their previous conversation, but one thing is sure, his body was starting to lose its control and he hoped Clara agree soon.

He didn't try to push her away, but instead placed his hands at the both sides of her neck, giving her cheeks a gentle stroke.

Clara was lost in his gaze. They both were hungry for each other's lips.

He leaned closer to her and she released her moisture lip that had been sucked in under his beauty stare.

He kissed her ear softly, letting out his tongue and tickling its hole.

She raised her shoulders and tried to get away, but he held her head still and smiled softly before grazing her ear with his teeth and heard her softly called his name.

She blinked, the familiar sensation, a combination of adrenaline that made her blood quicken and the electrifying feeling that made her skin tingle, just like the first time he sucked and licked her fold.

'Are we really going to do it?' She asked in her head. 'Why is my heart beating so fast?' She wondered again and released her hold on him as Leo pulled her back gently and stared into her eyes intensely.