CH 2.2

The original Ninena generally didn’t get off her bed. So, there were all sorts of luxuries in the room.

New flowers and new ornaments would appear and disappear every day too, as if they wanted me to feed on them.

Among them, a sparkling golden statue stood out.

Although she couldn’t figure it out, it was secretly sent by Rubenio to wish Ninena well-being and blessing.

But to me, it was just a statue of a goddess.

‘God, what did I do so wrong?’

The goddess, with her hands and eyes shut, only showed off her splendid light with no answer.

It was only natural, but because I felt so queasy, I was so sad that I cried a little.

‘Please, I owe a little debt to the country, but it’s a student loan that everyone has. I’ll pay it back when I graduate. If you return me back to my body, I will donate a lot, do a lot of volunteer work, and live an honest life. If you remember me complaining about my body, please forget everything. Now I will love my body without any complaints or bickers. Good?’

I could see why sick people would become annoyed. Everything was resentful. Moreover, I hated the statue of the goddess which didn’t answer.

“Send me back to my body, ugh!”

I jumped up to my feet in anger but I only fell down. Pain welled up in my chest due to the sudden movement.

This body was as fragile as the feathers of a newborn baby bird, and had to be handled very gently.

‘I’d rather become a baby.’

It seemed that the body of a newborn baby could do a lot more than this now. A baby can drink milk at the very least.

This body was never going to pass down a spoonful of soup.

It’s surprising that she still can survive.

‘Aren’t there two essentials of possessing a book? Live on as the possessed character and survive by helping the original protagonist. But how am I supposed to survive?’

I couldn’t afford to think about anything else. There was only one thing that was important to me, surviving.

In the book, Ninena was destined to die in the winter when she turned 20.

According to the information I got from asking the maids, it’s the autumn of the year I turned 20.

In other words, death was only about three months away.

‘It’s right around the corner! Did you put me in this sh*t only for me to live a three-month life?’

I wanted to live, but there was a cliff ahead.

Why?

Nineina’s death was no one’s fault. It was because her body, already a miracle for surviving so long, could not overcome the freezing winter.

‘Should I go somewhere warm?’

That wasn’t a good idea either.

I’m certain that this body would die right away if I do something like travelling.

In fact, Ninena’s cause of death was not hypothermia. Sure, the cold may have weakened her body, but it was not the main cause.

Her death came from her doomed weak body.

Her body was barely induced with all kinds of medicines and nourishing food.

By the time she was 20, she couldn’t even walk alone.

She’s already reached her limits.

The winter cold may have pushed the limits, but the underlying problem lies elsewhere.

‘Then what should we do?’

Thinking about it won’t make a difference. There was only one condition required to survive.

‘What am I asking? There is only one way out! I must be healthy!’

Even if I moved my body even a little, I had to fight to get rid of my sagging posture.

There was no disease, so the method was simple. I needed to eat well, do regular rehabilitation exercises, and do my best to remain unstressed.

‘I don’t think this is a situation where I can remain calm…’

I came into this body right after Ninena had caught a terrible cold.

I was already in bad shape, and when I asked Meia about this and that, I received a huge shock, causing me to lose all strength.

I have to actively move around.

It was painful enough to be stuck in the room, and the bed. But I also had a bad temper. What I really needed was to have the persistence to do this.

‘Doctors stated that there are cases of terminal cancer patients who have not given up. Let’s go to the mountains, get some fresh air and eat healthily. Why can’t I? I wish to live.’

Staying healthy.

Although it seems difficult, it’s easy once you understand.

All we had to do was give up some of the pleasures that bring satisfaction to humans.

‘I can live. I will survive, even in a place like this, with a body like this… I’m going to survive.’

A changed environment. Precious people who I can’t meet. My previous body.

I forcibly pushed away the melancholy and sadness that came over me even when I was deep in my thoughts.

A gloomy haze filled my head.

‘Let’s not think about anything else. Eating! Just keep thinking about eating!’