Although Leng Zongzheng has a place in the college, this time Zhou Wen went to a place not in the college, but in a small courtyard in the old district of Luoyang City.
The small yard is very common, because the surrounding area is very wet, the roots of the wall are covered with moss, and there are many plants like creepers on the wall.
The house inside is also a red brick structure that was often seen before. Although it was cleaned very well, it is difficult to hide the traces of the years. Some bricks on the wall have already shown signs of weathering.
"Principal Leng, this is Zhou Wen, are you at home?" Zhou Wen knocked on the door.
"Come in." Leng Zongzheng's voice came out of the house. When Zhou Wen pushed the door in, Leng Zongzheng was moving a cactus out of the house.
"Principal Leng, is this your home?" Zhou Wen looked at the inside of the room as if to see the various decorations inside were outdated, but not old, giving a mediocre and worn feeling.
This is very different from Leng Zongzheng's feelings for Zhou Wen. This person, Leng Zongzheng, has a little nobility in both appearance and behavior, and his life soul is something that looks very gassy like the throne of the magic piano. I feel that Leng Zongzheng is a person who pays great attention to the quality of life and details, and should not live in such a mediocre home.
In this yard, Zhou Wen couldn't see a special thing at all. It seemed to be some household items, and even a lot of stalls.
"I lived here when I was a kid. This is my grandfather's old mansion." Leng Zong was putting the cactus beside him, patting the dust on his hand, and continued, "I used to dislike this place in the past. I always feel that I must stand out. I must live in a big beautiful house, and I have to live like a person. But I do n’t know when I started. I suddenly felt that it was still a comfortable place to live, so I moved back. "
"You should return to the original, right?" Zhou Wen said.
Leng Zongzheng glanced at Zhou Wen and said with a lip: "What is Huipuguizhen? The straightforward point is that I have eaten too much braised pork and want to eat green vegetables. I haven't reached that step yet. I still have a lot of good things. I have n’t tasted it, and I ’m not bored yet. "
With that said, Leng Zong was sitting down on a wooden stool in the yard and basking in the sun. He continued: "I have also thought about why I would like to move back, and regarding comfort, this place is definitely not as good as the one I lived in. In any place, it ’s convenient, but it ’s also inconvenient. If the environment is good and quiet enough, it ’s not as good as the villa I bought before. If the neighbors here are good, it ’s human. Actually, it ’s not the case. By the way, the old neighbors have long disappeared. Even if they are still there, I do n’t have a good impression of them. I do n’t like them in my heart. "
"Then why do you like to live here?" Zhou Wen asked curiously.
"I have been thinking about this issue for a long time, and then I determined that the reason I like to live here is because I am afraid." Leng Zongzheng said.
"Afraid?" Zhou Wen was even more puzzled.
In terms of safety, it is far worse than the academy. There are no defensive measures at all. It is a tattered old city. If you come to a fear level, you can ruin it with one hand.
"Yes, I am afraid." Leng Zongzheng said: "Everyone is afraid of death, but the degree is different. Some people put the fear of death in the first place, and some people put the fear of death behind some things. So when it comes to certain things, it seems that it is not afraid of death. But in fact, no one is afraid of death, but he has encountered something more terrifying than death, so it is not so important to die or not. "
Leng Zongzheng said that he took out a lighter and cigarette from his arms, skillfully popped a cigarette, dang it in his mouth, lit the cigarette, then took a sip and closed his eyes, seeming to enjoy it.
Zhou Wen stared at Leng Zongzheng staringly, which was too different from the impression that Leng Zongzheng usually gave him. If he didn't know it was Leng Zongzheng, look at him, he thought it was a decadent middle-aged uncle who likes to gamble and drink.
After a while, Leng Zongzheng kept his eyes closed in the sun and continued: "Later I thought about it carefully. My fear of death should be ranked third. Before death, there are two things in death. Before, if I met those two things and had a choice, I would rather choose death. "
"The reason why you are here is that you are afraid that those two things will happen?" Zhou Wen asked.
Who knew Leng Zongzheng shook his head and said, "No, those two things have already happened."
Zhou Wen stared blankly at Leng Zongzheng, wondering what he really wanted to say.
Leng Zongzheng continued: "Before I was scared, I would become someone like my parents, but now, I am no different from them in essence. Before, I was afraid that Grandpa would leave me, then this world would be I am left alone, but that day is still here. I live here because I am afraid of loneliness, but in fact, I have always been lonely. "
Zhou Wen didn't know what to say. What Leng Zongzheng said, he occasionally had some flashing thoughts, but it was not as clear as Leng Zongzheng thought.
But looking at Leng Zongzheng, Zhou Wen felt that the principal Leng did not seem as difficult to get along with as he had imagined before.
Leng Zongzheng took another sip of cigarettes, pressed the remaining half of the cigarette on the cement flower bed next to it, pressed Mars out, and reached into the trash can.
"Living here will give me an inexplicable sense of security. I feel that this is my side. As long as I hide here, I do n’t need to worry about anything or worry about anything. Just sleep for a while, as if Anything bad will disappear by itself. "
Speaking of which, Leng Zongzheng laughed at himself: "But in fact, it's hard to solve anything, it's just deceiving yourself."
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"You are right." Leng Zongzheng said, and suddenly stretched out his palms and pressed against the wall next to it. The entire courtyard and house shattered in an instant, and they rose into fragments.
"What ... what are you doing ..." Standing in the ruins, the gravel around him kept rising, and Zhou Wen stared blankly at Leng Zongzheng, wondering why he did this.
Among the broken and rising fragments, Leng Zong was turning away and walking, and said, "As you said, everyone has a pure land of self-escape in their hearts, which is a place of fear that is closer to the heart than death. If one day , You have encountered an enemy who does not put the fear of death in the first place, then you should think about how to find the piece of pure land that belongs to him, killing the heart, sometimes the heart is more terrible than killing. You have everything Well, it is too kind. Sometimes, kindness is also a sin. "
"Killing ... Zhuxin ..." Zhou Wen stood in the ruins, looking at Leng Zongzheng's back, there seemed to be some emotion in his heart.