CH 85

Episode 85

Iker grew up without shortage.

Parents’ interest, the expectations of the imperial people, overflowing jewels and entertainment.

As he was going to become the prince to lead the Empire later, everyone cared about him and brought him what he wanted.

There he excelled in every way, so people would praise him till they were thirsty.

He could easily achieve his desired goal, and he could easily have what he wanted.

It would have been better if he ordered his own limbs.

“I want it.”

In one word, everything was in his hand Even if the goods are so precious that they are hard to obtain. Even if it’s someone else’s, not his. Or even it was originally Cassius’s.

But Iker sometimes couldn’t get what he wanted.

For example, when what you want is not a thing’.

“I like it.”

Iker once said so when he saw a wild sparrow following Cassius.

Cassius knew at that moment that he had to give up his two true birds.

A long-lived affection for the sparrow followed him, but he couldn’t help it.

It was because his brother had to have what he wanted.

“……here, brother.”

He felt like he was having a hole in his mind again.

He thought he had already gotten used to it, but he didn’t think so yet.

Swallowing the lonely feeling inside, Cassius put the sparrow on Iker’s arm, which had been in his hand.

But the sparrows flew back at Cassius before their feet could even touch Iker’s arm completely.

There was a moment of silence.

“Oh, I didn’t feed them yet, brother, please wait a moment.”

The young Cassius spilt the food he had given the bird over Iker’s hand.

Iker then put on a pleasing look.

But even though he was holding food, the birds did not go toward Iker.

Again and again, the bird on Iker’s arm went back to Cassius, and Iker’s face gradually hardened.

His expression changed rapidly, and the servant who was assisting him began to fidget.

After a few attempts, the birds eventually escaped Cassius’s hand and flew into the air.

That day the servant had to search the garden all day to catch the sparrow Iker said, and one ended up in a cage and into Iker’s hand.

‘I’m glad the other one ran away.’

Cassius, who was grateful to the birds who had been looking for him until the end, secretly felt relieved.

The sparrow case seemed to end like that.

Until he accidentally stopped by Iker’s room and saw a sparrow.

The sparrow trapped in the cage could no longer fly.

He was walking on the floor, unable to spread its wings.

“What’s wrong, Cassius?”

For more,

When he recalled his childhood memories, he felt the creepy sensation of that time again.

“Ha.”

After that, Cassius invariably gave what his brother wanted. Fearing that there will be an existence that suffers the same thing as that sparrow.

But he couldn’t give up as much as Yerine.

This was the first time he didn’t want to give up something his brother wanted.

And he didn’t regret it.

When he hugged Yerine’s shoulder and saw the corners of her mouth, which had a look of surprise at herself, Cassius thought it was good to do so.

“I should have done this.”

Cassius might have been able to keep more than he thought if he had fought against his brother before.

He thought.

“Well, it doesn’t matter.”

He smiled, looking at the face of Yerine, who was fast asleep.

It didn’t matter if anything else was taken away.

He only needed Yerine, so…

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“Cassius.”

“Yes, Yerine.”

“I have a question.”

In my words, Cassius snapped over the book he had opened on his lap.

“What is it?”

When I saw Cassius smiling clearly, my mouth didn’t fall off easily.

‘I think we should still talk.’

It took me a long time to clear my voice with a useless cough before I had the courage.

“I had a dream at night.”

In fact, I was going to talk about it last time, but I got a call about the death of the Postades, so I went over it.

Since then, death has occurred within the territory of Spade, and the Housekeepers meeting has continued, making me missing the time to bring up the story.

“In fact, I dreamed about the memories we met when I was young.”

I was so frustrated that I don’t know.

Sure enough, he stared at me with his eyes wide open with astonishment.

“So my memory came back to some extent. It’s not perfect, but…….”

“Really?”

His eyes were slowly twisting.

Like a yellow flame in a dark room making a haze.

For a while, Cassius was at a loss for words.

And with his hand at the mouth, he gave a look of mixed joy and confusion.

“Are we, by any chance, the last day we broke up…….”

When I opened my mouth, Cassius looked at me again.

“Didn’t I run wild and uncontrollable?”

The moment my words fell, something flashed past me.

And when I came to my senses, Cassius held me tightly in his arms.

“You remembered.”

The mint-like cool scent spread mildly.

And his soft black hair tickled the skin between my neck and shoulders.

“I was so sorry then. I really wanted to tell you this when you remember it.”

“Cassius…….”

His arm became more powerful when he said so.

“Oh, well, wait a minute. I’m sorry, but I can’t breathe.”

As I struggled and squeezed my voice, Cassius was startled and relaxed his arms.

“Oh, I’m sorry.”

When Cassius’ arms were released and the cool air rubbed my cheeks, I felt a little bit alive.

“Well, you don’t have to be sorry. I can’t leave Cassius with a broken leg.”

Then Yerine wanted to save Cassius herself. In her dream, she had definitely thought so.

“But I hurt you badly.”

Yerine knew she was going to run wild, and she knew she was going to get hurt.

He knew that and saved Cassius.

“No, don’t say that.”

I said with an awkward smile.

There was a question in my heart.

I wasn’t the Yerine Cassius was looking for.

‘Do I deserve to say this on her behalf?’

I’m sure Yerine would have said this.

And yet, I wasn’t sure if this was right.

“I wish I’d known how to use healing magic a long time ago. I was so young back then that I didn’t know how to use it.”

Cassius said, burying himself in the chair.

“I think that’s why I’ve been yelling. Eventually, the servant found us and took you with him.”

Oh, the last person you saw was one of Spade’s employees.

“Well, I was a little awake then, and I remember the wound was all right.”

“Huh? Yeah?”

“Yes, that’s why I thought Cassius used healing magic without knowing.”

“Oh……was it?”

Cassius scratched his cheek and said.

“Well, right after I broke up with you, I could use some healing magic.”

“Did you?”

“Yes. I would have been able to heal you right away if I knew I could do it earlier, and I would have been able to heal myself even if I was attacked by Kara Carcass.”

By saying so, Cassius bent his upper body forward.

“That wasn’t the only unfortunate thing. Since that day, you’ve disappeared altogether, and I can’t even greet you.”

Not long after it happened, Yerine went on a rampage again.

Since then, Yerine has been orphaned and trapped by the Postade family, she couldn’t say hello to Cassius.

“I didn’t think about it since I was young, but I was really disappointed that I only asked for your first name and not your last name. If I knew you were Spade, I could have found it right away.”

Yerine is never a popular name, but this was quite a bit of a person with that name in the world.

Besides, Yerine had not been out of the house for a long time, so it would have been impossible to find her based on his memory of her appearance.

“Well, when I saw you during the successor appointment ceremony, I thought it was fortunate to find you even now.”

Cassius said with a big smile on his face.

Seeing that laughter made me feel more uncomfortable.

‘I’m not Yerine that Cassius was looking for.’

It was someone else.

That person at that time and I now are different people.

If your affection is towards that person as a child. If so, I might be fooling him right now.

“Cassius.”

“Huh?”

Seeing his brightly shining golden eyes make my heart heavy.

“Casius has been looking for me for a long time, right?”

“Yeah, right? ”

Cassius looked at me with an expression asking why I asked him that.

My lips seemed to dry out for nothing.

“So the person who Cassius was looking for was the person Cassius remembered from your childhood.”

At my words, Cassius’ face slowly hardened.

Before he said anything more, I spit out with a rapid speed.

“I’m sorry. I’m not confident. I was at that time and I am now a completely different person….”

It was a mess in my head.

I couldn’t figure out what to say.

Even though I knew I shouldn’t do this, my heartbeat when Cassius smiled at me.

Even though I knew that his laughter was not directed to me, but to Yerine, I couldn’t cut my relationship with him.

“I’m sorry. I don’t think I can go back to myself back then.”

I embarrassedly looked at Cassius when I spoke openly about what was in my heart.

“But, it doesn’t matter.”

Upon hearing his reply, I doubted my ears.

“What?”

“Of course, at first, when I was young, I only looked for you based on my memories…….”

He couldn’t finish what he said and stopped.

Then he took a deep breath, and he struck me with his sparkling golden eyes.

“But now, I like you right now. No matter what you were like in the past.”

So Cassius raised himself out of the chair.

“When I was a kid, I wanted to find you, and at first I showed interest in you because of that memory, but not now.”

Cassius, approaching me, bent his legs and said.

“Perhaps I didn’t meet you when I was younger, but I would have liked you.”

A large hand with the tendon exposed wrapped around my hand. It was always warm hands.

“The difference between Yerine that I was looking for at that time and Yerine now ……. I think it’s good.”

Cassius then layered my hand over his hand and placed it on his cheek.

His cheeks were so warm.

“So why don’t you just do what you want to do?”

Cassius said, squinting his golden eyes, who smiled mischievously, which kept warmth unchanged.

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