CH 14

“Because Hisch was much better suited to me than you.”

“…….”

“Do you need more reasons?”

Miller opened his mouth at my simple answer, which I just said back.

“It’s not because you love him, is it?”

Unknowingly, I opened my eyes wide at those words, and coincidentally, the man also raised his head, which was slightly lowered, and our eyes met.

The moment I received that curious look, the man in front of me seemed very naive for some reason.

Maybe that’s why.

“Is love something that special?”

The kind of love where we promise to be together for the rest of our lives?

A story where they lived happily ever after after many twists and turns?

Is only good to read, but in reality is not.

I chose a man I could live with and who could be with me. It’s not like there’s no affection at all in our relationship.

I like Hisch. But, well, that wouldn’t have been enough to swear on eternal love.

“Even if you and I were married, was love the reason for it? I just chose the person who I need the most.”

The moment I first heard the confession from Hisch, my thoughts naturally traveled to what my future with him would be ten years later, even to twenty years later.

Of course, many things will happen in the future, and there will be a lot of things to overcome together.

Even though it is a future that has not yet come, I thought that if it were Hisch, we could get along well for a long time just like now.

That’s why I chose him, and I haven’t regretted that choice yet.

Miller’s eyes widened at my words and he lowered his head. The sun was slowly setting, and I could see the red sunset tilting through the window behind his back.

We’ve been wasting all our time with useless chatter, let alone talking about the deal. I sighed and got up.

“Today, an acquaintance came to visit me after a long time, and I am satisfied with the conversation. I hope tomorrow we can talk about a more productive topic.”

Miller was speechless and didn’t move, so I just walked and left the room.

Phew…… It’s so hard to sell things to children.

But wasn’t I okay today? Having said this much, Miller would no longer come up with the same subject.

I hope it was something like that because he’ll realize something that he couldn’t refute to.

For some reason, I was about to take a step with a calm mind that had solved one thing, but a maid, who was restless next to me, called me carefully.

“Well, my lord…….”

“Yes?”

“Well, this. I don’t know if I should tell you this. That….. Just now, Mr. Hisch…… As I was about to enter the drawing room…… He ran away in a hurry.….”

“…….”

Although many explanations were omitted, I could realize only one truth from the look of her helpless face.

I fucked up.

In novels, there is often a thing called a flag.

For example,

‘After this fight is over, I will confess to the girl who is left in my hometown…….’ The guy who says it is sure to die.

If you ask, ‘Did I get him?’, the enemy will come back to life.

To talk about a more realistic flag, if you tell a story that no one else should hear, a person will pass by and hear it.

This time, Hisch’s case was no different.

“…….”

With my dead eyes, I suddenly saw Sir Roelich’s strong back.

And in front of that stocky, brown-haired man, three knights were seen squatting, holding their ears.

“Today, the Lord has personally walked up to here, so I want to show her how you train diligently.”

Teddius, or Sir Ted, spoke like that. For reference, the name ‘Ted’ is a nickname allowed only to his family.

I did call him so because he asked me with a serious face, saying he wanted me to call him that, too. Well, maybe we’ll see each other for the rest of our lives. That’s not much to ask.

Sir Ted’s grim voice made Sir Jane and Sir Bethel look equally stiff, and Gran, who was squatting next to them, looked up at Sir Ted with an expression that said ‘Where is this? Who am I?’.

“Standing on one, say ‘long live’, ‘the lord’ while sitting on two. Do it 30 times.”

“Yes?”

“Yes, sir!”

“Now, start. One!”

I looked at it with a brooding expression.

After that day, Hisch has not faced me properly. He seemed to be sleeping in another place, but it was lamentable that he was already using another room several months after we got married. Those days have already been going on for several days.

“Long live!”

On the bed where only the pillow wall he had piled up was lying on the bed, I swallowed my tears and spent many nights alone, without even thinking of removing them.

I want to talk to Hisch, who must have been hurt by what I said to Miller that day, but he strongly avoids me…… To be honest, I’m a little hurt.

Hisch is a dodgy type. This older sister* is the type of person who faces the problem and solves it quickly……

“Two!”

“The Lord!”

Even if it’s something that Hisch would be shocked to hear, it would be a part of love. When I think about it, there was a corner that was a bit stinging.

For me, Hisch…… If I were to divide it into a degree of goodwill, I didn’t love him, but I liked him, and I thought he was a good match for me, so I pushed for marriage.

Hisch was acting with the attitude that he really liked me, so maybe I could use a man’s innocence for my own personal reasons?

“One!”

“Long live!”

No, but Hisch. Think about it. It’s not that I don’t love you. There’s burning love, but there’s also growing love.

I really think of Hish as a lifelong companion. This is by no means lighthearted.

“Two!”

“The Lord!”

“…… Yes, I guess that’s enough.”

I’ve been thinking about that person, but it’s too noisy around me. At my word, Sir Ted quickly put his hands behind his back.

On the other hand, the men who had been jumping to his chant gasped for breath and fell down, having done a lot more jumps.

But what the hell is Sir Ted doing with these people? What’s long live, the lord? Are you teaching that as a battle cry? Isn’t that brainwashing?

……Let’s stop thinking.

“The sirs are working hard. Sir Oswald, too.”

Gran thought he was going to get kicked out, so he decided to let Sir Ted take the lead.

Sir Ted’s grand plan was to hone the resources and make them usable, since even if they recruit to fill the ranks of the knights, they won’t be filled any time soon.

Well, in the first place, I told Gran he can stay here if he wanted to, so I allowed him to do whatever he wanted. The swordsmanship taught by the second son of the Roelich family would be useful anywhere.

Anyway, aside from Gran, why would Sir Jane and Sir Bethel have to go through hard work here……?

Did you admire Sir Roelich so much that you ended up doing something you weren’t told to do? Everyone must be crazy.

“Sir Ted worked hard, too. That…… Well. Today was great…… Still, just do brainwashing, no, education enough not to get hurt.”

“I accept your order.”

Sir Ted said so with a serious look on his face.

Okay, keep up the good work.

My heart was still on the bean field[1], and after that, I heard the loud greetings of men shouting, ‘Lord, take care!’

When I slowly returned to the office while also taking a walk, I simply greeted Sein, asking me if I had been there.

It was also Sein who kicked me out to take a walk because I was too restless to concentrate on my work.

I sighed and sat down. Instead of handing out a mountain of documents as usual, Sein opened his mouth first.

“It looks like you haven’t been able to get along well with Mr. Hisch.”

“…….”

I also have my own private life, but I can’t protect it!

I’m a newlywed, do I also have to let my vassal worry about my married life? Hisch Riot, no, Hisch Ensis. You’ll see. No. No. I am wrong, so let me see your face. Sob sob.

I sighed and swept up my hair.

“To be honest, I did something wrong.”

“Then you can apologize.”

“…… So I’m trying to apologize, but I can’t even see his face.”

I have a schedule and Hisch also has a schedule.

Although it was a small territory, there were a pile of pending issues that the owner could just not look over.

Although Albert had managed the estate, he did not have the authority to start a new business or suggest a major direction for the territory, so I had to put a lot of effort into solving the fundamental problems.

Therefore I’m busy with the delayed work. Hisch is also bound to be busy because I entrusted him with the part that I couldn’t keep an eye on.

But if we match our schedule, we can see each other as much as we want, and in fact, it has always been that way.

After that day, this husband of mine is deliberately changing the schedule so that he doesn’t meet me by chance.

“I checked, and I found out that Mr. Hisch is staying in the far right room of the corridor on the 3rd floor.”

“…….”

We’re using separate rooms.