C36

I sat in the bathroom and watched the bright red ball of flesh fall off me. It was an unformed baby.

A great sadness welled up in me.

Perhaps it was a huge mistake for me from the moment I was born. I kept hurting the people around me, forcing those close to me, those I loved to the point of no return, even my own flesh and blood.

The pain made me unable to straighten up, and I could feel the blood leaving my body in waves of weakness.

It was a familiar feeling. I had almost paid with my life for someone else.

Even so, I was still unable to save that person's life …

When I was about to lose consciousness, I heard a loud crashing sound. Then, a person rushed towards me …

"Mu Chen, is that you..."

I tried to reach out my hand to touch his face, but the warmth of his touch was too much for me to believe.

"You …" Forgive me?

However, I didn't even have the strength to say it afterwards.

I don't know how long this silence lasted, but I almost thought I was doomed this time.

But I survived.

"You're awake?"

The cold voice came from my ears, and my eyes, which I had just closed, slowly opened.

Looking at Bo Lengqing's face that made me afraid, I would rather I never wake up again.

"Explain."

I could hear him trying to control his anger.

But what was he angry about? Hadn't I done all this as he wished?

I said nothing and turned my face away.

"Give me an explanation!" he growled in a calm voice.

Explain? How should I explain?! Wasn't he the cruelest person in the world? He clearly knew that Lin Ran was pregnant, but he still wanted me to give birth to the child.

What would Lin Ran think? Even if I really leave in the future, would Lin Ran treat my child well?

"I don't want my child to have a father like you." I said, choking.

"Heh." He sneered, "A father like me? Su Cha, should I be glad that my child left such a vicious mother like you? "

His words touched my weakest nerve.

It is said that the tigers don't eat the tigers, and I killed my children with my own hands, so I am not fit to be a mother.

"Bo Lengqing, you took great pains to keep me by your side. If you only want to humiliate me, then I have suffered enough in the past few years to let go of me and the child, okay? "

"You're torturing me like this just because you're with me?"

I slowly closed my eyes. "Yes."

If I can go back in time, I will tell myself that I must remember to keep my distance from him.

I suddenly remembered the first time I'd met him that day.

It was a snowy winter day, and I was working at an adult club to make up for my mother's medical expenses.

The money in that place was not clean, but it came quickly, so I had no choice.

That day was the deadline given by the hospital. I once kneeled on the ground and begged Su Jianguo to lend me the money to save my mother, but he asked me to drive to accompany his former competitor, a middle-aged man who was five years older than him, for one night.

Without guessing, it had to be the mother and daughter again.

I don't want to.

I might as well have left this body to myself, rather than let it fall into the hands of the mother and daughter.

So that day when I clearly set the price and sent myself into the private room, I coincidentally met Bo Lengqing there.

When he saw me, his eyes were filled with disdain and disgust, but his body was honest, so that night he got what he despised but yearned for, and I got what I wanted.

That was my first time.

It was the first time he felt no pity.

From that point on, he discovered the secret of my lack of money and offered to be his secret lover on the condition that he would pay for my mother's medical expenses.

It was only later that I found out that he was actually the newly rich and powerful second young master who returned with great difficulty from the Bo Family.

Seeing Su Jianguo's face, I knew what those rich people looked like. I believed that his interest in me wouldn't last for long, that he needed me to vent his anger, and that I needed to rely on his money to live a peaceful life with my mother.

It's fair to go back and forth and pay for both.

Only, I never would have thought that he would actually be engaged to, and the target is actually Su Ya.

What happened afterwards was too magical. Before he even mentioned that he wanted to marry me, I felt that all of this was a trap set up by him. The purpose was to lure me into an urn, and I rubbed off all the sharp edges of my body, shaming and trampling me to my heart's content.

"Bo Lengqing, have I ever done anything to let you down?"

There was no reply from him for a long time. Finally, unable to endure any longer, I opened my mouth and spoke softly.

He was still silent. I lowered my eyes, "I already know about you and Miss Lin, I can give up my position of wife to her at any time. Bo Lengqing will be honest with you, let me go, also let you go."

"Su Cha, why are you so cruel?"

After a while, he suddenly asked, "You once said that you loved me. Is this how you love me?"

I didn't know how to answer his question at the moment. I had never loved him, and even if there had been a few undeserved waves in my heart, I knew it was because of my possessiveness.

What I mean by love is to seek self-preservation in front of him.

"Su Cha, I will hate you. I will hate you all my life, and I will never forgive you again."

As he said that, I suddenly felt a strong sense of relief in my heart, until …

The nurse came in and gave me the IV. Then, as if she'd seen something, she bent down and picked up a wallet from the bench.

She opened her purse and looked at the photo inside, then back at me.

"Is this something your family left behind?" It's hard to find again. This photo seems to have been here for quite some time, so it should be very precious, right? "

I took the purse and saw the portrait in the picture the nurse had given me. It was clearly me.

What kind of man puts a picture of a woman in his wallet? It must be someone he loved very much.

There's no doubt that this wallet belongs to Bo Lengqing. I look at that somewhat aged picture, which was my favorite photo, because Mu Chen helped me take it.

I took a deep breath.'s picture should be here, not mine, what does it mean for Bo Lengqing to do all this? Was he trying to tell me that the person he loved in his heart was me?

My heart throbbed, but reason told me that was impossible!

If he really loved me, how could he have children with Lin Ran?

I tried my best to think back to what Bo Lengqing had told me before. He said that he hated me, and he said that he would never forgive me.