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Before I could understand what Bo Lengqing meant by those words, he had already took the storage ring and left.

I was left alone in my room. For a moment, the feeling of being alone enveloped me. I couldn't help but to hold onto the notebook my mother had left me. I cried and cried. Then I fell asleep again.

For a long time, my entire being was shrouded in sadness, until the afternoon when the Black Hawk knocked on my door with a gift box.

"Madam, the CEO asked me to prepare this for you. Tonight …"

"I won't go! I won't go! "You go and tell him that I don't want to go anywhere, I just want to stay here alone!" The moment I think about how Bo Lengqing snatched Mu Chen's ring away, my anger and hatred for him enveloped me.

"Madam, the CEO wanted me to tell you that this set of clothes is your favorite sky blue. It was chosen for you by Mister Mu."

I was stunned and immediately stood up. I stared at Black Hawk with wide eyes: "Mister Mu?! "Which Teacher Mu?"

Black Hawk shook his head: "The CEO said, you'll know when you get there tonight."

After saying that, he left the box and left.

I stared at the box for a long time before I slowly opened it.

Inside the box was a blue dress that I hadn't touched for a long time.

I suddenly recalled the past, when I was with Mu Chen, he loved to see me wearing blue the most. It's just that at that time, I didn't even have a good skirt, because Su Ya wouldn't give me any opportunities to look good.

I reached out my hand. Although I didn't know what Bo Lengqing was really up to, if I really could see Mu Chen once, it would be worth it even if I had to use my life as the price.

In the evening, I changed into that dress. When it was time, Black Hawk came to pick me up.

He drove me to a courtyard by the lake, and the surroundings were dots of light that had been prepared beforehand. It was strange that I didn't see Bo Lengqing.

"Madam, go in."

I glanced at him, lifted my skirt, and walked in carefully.

Directly in front of me were two rows of small candles, which illuminated the road ahead. I followed the directions of the surrounding lights and walked to the center.

I saw a familiar back. I suddenly felt my breathing quicken. He was right in front of me!

I walked towards him step by step, afraid that I would disturb the dream.

When I was only half a meter away from him, I stopped and tried to reach out, but I didn't dare.

He was close to her, but far away from her.

"Mu Chen..."

I gently call out his name. He turns around slowly and I hold my breath …

It really was him!

On his hand is a ring with our names engraved on it. He has a familiar face and a gentle smile …

"Mu, Mu Chen..." I reached out to touch his face, but he grabbed my hand.

"Tea, I'm back."

When I said "I'm back", my eyes immediately reddened.

God knows how long I waited for him to say that!

"Mu Chen, you didn't die, you really didn't die!" At this moment, I threw myself into his embrace without a care. A faint scent of wood came from his body. However, at that time, I was so overjoyed that I lost my rationality and did not care about anything else.

"Do you know how I've been through these past five years? Ever since I learned the news of your death, I have lived every day and night in endless guilt. I have no way to forgive myself, and I know that you will never forgive me … Mu Chen, I don't need you to forgive me, I only want you to live! "

"Tea, I'm back. I'll never leave you again. Let's start over, okay?"

I bit my lips. God knows how many times this happened in my dreams. I wished that he would forgive me and never blame me again …

But I don't expect to be with him anymore.

I grabbed his hand, and shook my head with a bitter smile: "Mu Chen, you are still exactly the same as you were five years ago, but I am no longer the same as you were five years ago."

He didn't say anything, just looked at me quietly.

"The current me isn't worthy of you at all. I just need to know that you are still alive. I have already … I don't expect to be with you anymore. "

"It's not a dream. Tea, as long as you're willing!"

I could only push him away. "It's already impossible for the two of us, Mu Chen, I, I'm already married …"

I shed tears as I looked at the face that I had been thinking about for five years. "I have already married someone else. My dirty body is no longer worthy of you."

"Tea …"

Mu Chen had a very complicated expression on his face as he hugged me tightly. That warm embrace caused my nose to feel sore, and I couldn't help but cry out loud.

We missed each other's lives by five years.

"Mu Chen, knowing that you are still alive, I am already very satisfied. In the future, you must take good care of yourself, even without me … I love you. "

This is what I said to him before I had a chance to say it. Even though I knew that it would be impossible in the future, I still wanted him to know my feelings.

"Tea …" He hugged me. "I won't let go of your hand. I said I'll always be by your side."

I took a deep breath and pushed him away.

Now that my mood had calmed down, a lot of my sense of reason had returned.

I clearly understood Bo Lengqing's motive. The reason he spent so much effort to arrange such a meeting between me and Mu Chen, to allow me and Mu Chen the chance to be together alone, was definitely not to let me die and rekindle the flame with him.

He wanted me to make a decision for myself, make a decision for the past, and make a decision for Mu Chen.

But I don't hate him. I'm even kind of grateful to him.

If not for him, I'm afraid that I would never be able to see Mu Chen again in this lifetime.

"Mu Chen, I'm married, I can't betray my husband", even if I don't love him.

I didn't say that, but no one knew which corner Bo Lengqing was hiding in as he secretly observed us. I can't let him hurt Mu Chen.

"Su Cha, I..."

"Don't say anything, just listen to what I have to say!" I interrupted Mu Chen and stared into his eyes. I just wanted to remember his appearance, even though I have never forgotten him in these five years.

"This is our last meeting, so treat it as us saying our goodbyes to the past. Mu Chen, no matter how much I love you and how much you love me, we will not be able to return. "So, in the future, you must be fine. You must stay far away from me. I don't want anyone to use me to hurt you anymore …"

Mu Chen looked at me, but his eyes were unshakeable grief.

"Do you think he treats you well?" He suddenly spoke.

I bit my lower lip, unable to give a good answer. I didn't want him to worry about me, so I took a deep breath and smiled. "Okay, of course. He is just like you, and is very good to me …"

As I spoke, I fought back tears.

"Su Cha!" His eyes revealed pain and patience, I took a deep breath and turned around, "It's getting late, I have to go …" Mu Chen, it's good to see you again.

"Su Cha!"

As he called out my name loudly from behind me, I forced myself not to look back because I knew that as long as I looked back, I wouldn't be able to bear it.

When I got home, I sat alone in my room and cried for a long time. Until Bo Lengqing returned.

His eyes were red and he looked tired.

"Why are you crying?" He looked at me, his voice hoarse.

I bit my lower lip. I didn't want to tell him.

"You have achieved your goal. I will not see him again. I will never see him again!" Then, with a hint of pleading in my voice, I grabbed his sleeve. "I don't have anything to do with him anymore. Can you let him go and stop making things difficult for him and hurting him?"

He looked at me with a complicated expression. He wanted to say something, but in the end he just nodded.

He took me in his arms and hugged me so tightly that he buried the tip of his nose in my fever and greedily sucked in the smell.

"Su Cha, I can agree to all your demands, but must you also agree to one of mine?" His voice was suddenly very soft, like my humble plea.

"Go ahead." I suddenly felt sorry for him.

"Never leave me."

I didn't answer him, because even I couldn't guarantee it.

Who can stay with someone they don't love for the rest of their life as if nothing had happened?

I don't know.