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"So, you hid this from me and didn't let me know anything …" I lowered my head and continued speaking.

"I didn't mean to hide it from you. I was worried that you'd be unable to accept it if you found out …"

"So, what Qin Sang just said was for me to decide earlier whether or not I want to take the child away, right?"

He was silent, not saying anything, and I knew that he had accepted it.

"Husband, I want to give birth to him." I touched my belly.

I'm not a very kind person, but I know that if I don't keep this child, I'll feel guilty later on.

Just like how I would never be able to forget the child that had flowed away because of my selfishness.

"I knew you would think that, so I'd rather you didn't!"

"That is our child, he is still so young, he is also a life form …"

"You don't want to lose your child, but I also don't want to lose you." As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and gently caressed my face.

"When I found out about this child's existence, I was also very happy. I was happier than anyone else! I finally have a chance to make it up to you … "But when I found out that you were the one who donated the organs to me and you suffered so much, I knew that I would never be able to repay what I owe you in my entire life …"

"Hubby …"

"Alright, let's stop talking. Drink this cup of water and rest well." He brought me a glass of water.

I closed my eyes and drank the water.

A wave of sleepiness hit me, and my eyelids twitched.

"You might think I'm selfish, but I just want to be selfish for once." he whispered in my ear.

"No... "Absolutely not …" I struggled to open my eyes, but I couldn't resist the overwhelming pressure.

Pain... A strange pain came from my lower abdomen, and I felt as if all my strength had been drained from me.

"Hubby …" "Husband, I'm in so much pain …"

Subconsciously, he reached out his hand to grab the person beside him, but a familiar voice sounded in his ears. Next, he didn't want his hand to be wrapped by another pair of powerful hands.

"Just hold it for a while longer, just for a moment …"

I don't know if it was my imagination, but I felt a tear fall on my arm.

I looked up feebly at the ceiling, the emptiness that filled me from inside to outside.

"Eat a bit, this is the chicken soup you've just made, it's to mend your body …"

The man beside me kept talking to me, but I couldn't hear a word of it.

My child is gone. I just found out about him, and he's gone.

I don't even know how many months he's been, how old...

"Open your mouth, wife, you open your mouth …"

I just stare at the ceiling, trying to pretend I can't hear,

He put the spoon to my mouth, and I tilted my head.

"Go on, I don't want to see you."

His hands shook, but he kept them there.

"Your body is currently very weak. You didn't eat anything today. Drink this chicken soup and I'll leave immediately."

I brush my hands impatiently and push him away. What follows is a crisp sound as the porcelain bowl of chicken soup falls to the ground and splits into pieces. His hands are also scalded red from the boiling chicken soup.

My heart ached when I looked at that patch of red, but he kept staring at me as if he had no consciousness.

"There's more in the thermos. It's okay, I'll bring it back for you."

"I don't want soup, and I don't want to see you! Get lost! "

I bit my lower lip. How could he be so cruel? This was my child, and it was his! I know he made this choice because of me, but I can't forgive him!

I love him, love can give up everything for him, including my life, the child is our love continuation, I really can't bear to part with...

Just then, Ye Xing walked into the sickroom. Seeing this mess, he more or less understood a little.

"Brother-in-law, you should go back first. You haven't rested for the entire night, I'm fine here." Ye Xing said as he pushed Bo Lengqing away.

"Then I'll come back later. Help me take good care of her."

"Don't worry."

When the two of them were done handing over, I still couldn't hold back my tears as I watched him leave.

"Sis, the reason why brother-in-law did that was also for you. Grandfather and Grandmother told me to advise you. Don't blame him, he's already done his best …"

Ye Xing carefully comforted me.

"You know, all of you know …" I'm the only one who doesn't know that I'm pregnant … " I suddenly laughed. "You've hidden everything from me. What about me? Have you considered my feelings? "

"Sis, don't cry …" We have no other choice! Grandpa and grandma know how you're doing, and they don't approve of you giving birth to a baby in your womb... Moreover, in this kind of situation, if you really gave birth to your child, those people from Bo Family would all focus their gazes on you and that newborn baby … This child might cause you to lose your life. It might even cause you to lose your brother-in-law! Have you thought about all of this? "

"Yes, you all think more than me! But I am the mother of the child. No matter what happens to the adults, the child is innocent. The moment I found out about his existence, he had already left me … I don't even have the right to choose on my own, what's the point of living like this?! What's the point of telling me! "

"Sis …" I know you are sad, and so is Brother-in-law! He knew that you were pregnant and told us immediately that he knew you were in poor health. He also wanted to keep your child, so he looked around for a suitable gynecologist … After you get pregnant, you have become very drowsy. Every night, after you fall asleep, brother-in-law will stay up late to consult the doctor, trying to find a solution to both problems … "Sis, we have all seen what he has done for you …"

My eyes were red. I wanted to hate him, but I couldn't even hate him.

"If you insist on blaming us, then blame us! We made the decision for you! " Ye Xing looked at me and said resolutely, "Even if you don't forgive us for the rest of your life, we can't lose you!"

As he spoke, his voice also softened, "Grandfather and Grandmother are already so old. How can they bear the pain of losing you again after losing their aunt? "Even if you don't think for others, at least think for them …"

I held the pillow and cried.

They're all doing it for my own good, I know, and everyone has their reasons, but I can't help feeling sad.

"Sis, drink the chicken soup, it was personally made by brother-in-law. He didn't sleep last night and has been guarding you all this time …"

I looked at the thermos on the bedside table.

I thought he had betrayed me, that there was no greater pain in the world than this.

However, when I realized that all of this was just a misunderstanding, I suddenly felt very fortunate. But, before I could wake up for long, I once again fell into the grief of losing a child …

Such ups and downs were also a form of torture.

Just then, someone knocked on my ward's door again. Qin Sang walked in with the medicine, and the moment she saw Ye Xing's face, her expression changed, but she quickly recovered.

"It's time to change the hanging water." As she spoke, she started to move. I noticed that Ye Xing's gaze was always on her body.

After doing all this, Qin Sang looked at me and asked gently, "Do you feel uncomfortable anywhere?"

I shook my head, but Ye Xing took the initiative to come over and say, "About that, Doctor Qin, can my sister drink chicken soup?"

Qin Sang did not look at him, but instead smiled and nodded at me: "I need to drink some medicine to recuperate my body, I have prepared some for you. You have to follow the instructions for a month, a woman's Xiao Yue Zi also has to be prepared, if not, her illness will easily cause."

"You really have married a good husband. Half a month ago, he had already started researching body nourishing medicinal food. Now, there aren't many good men like you anymore."

As she spoke, she glanced at Ye Xing, and then walked out.

Ye Xing's eyes had been glued to the other person's body, to the point that he didn't even know how to look around.

"If you like it, then go chase it. There's no use staying here to watch." I said, expressionless.

However, he forced a smile. "Sis, please don't tease me again, okay? I'm already miserable enough …"

"You can leave. I'll drink chicken soup. I want to be alone for a while now …"