CH 4

(This is Makoto’s POV)

My sister who is one year younger than me, had become stupid.

Her grades were good. I don’t think she’s smart because she has to study twice than normal people do. But she seems had become crazy after she collapse due to heat stroke.

From the next day after she collapsed, she started diving into the pond. She’s originally the daughter of my father’s remarried partner, so we don’t share any blood. And because I met her for first time when I was ten years old, I didn’t know all about her real personality. Was she originally like this?

There is another change. Until a while ago, she always followed me while asking, “Where are you going, Onii-chan?” Even when we became a junior high school student, she still clings into me. I feel like I made a mistake, but if I take good care of her, the people around me would look at me as a “gentle and ordinary brother”. It’s for my own convenient. But now when she saw me, she avoided my eyes and she no longer cling to me.

When I saw her jumped into the pond in the park, I always thought she wanted to die, but she seemed to be careful not to die. Is she crazy, or is this a new type of self-harm?

I’m not sure if she jumped in for another reason, but I don’t want to know. I have no interest.

When my sister was small, I was wondering what would happen if I pushed her down when I saw her looking into the pond in the park.

But when I actually saw my sister fall, I didn’t think of anything. Maybe it was partly because she has become second year of junior high school and the death rate is lower than in her childhood. But somehow, I was disappointed.

I was hoping it would be a little more interesting. Was it because she still alive?

After thinking about my sister’s eccentricity, I went down to the garden. It’s a full moon tonight, so I don’t need a flashlight. Relying on the moonlight, I took out the box hidden behind the porch and pinched it with the tweezers I had in my pocket.

I pull out the legs as if I’m pulling a thread. The insects were wriggling and eventually stopped moving. If I poke it with tweezers a little, its legs will move weakly, and I will feel refreshed.

I haven’t been interested in anything since I was a kindergarten. But one time I tried to kill insects and realized that it was very pleasant to see what had been alive and moving until a while ago, being hurt and died after some struggling.

So, every time Mai brought insects that she had caught in kindergarten to me, I stored them in a box and killed them. But lately Mai just jumps into the pond, and I don’t have time to catch any creatures. It’s unpleasant.

I was thinking to make it look like an accident for a moment, but I failed once, so I decided not to, and went to a family meeting. Because of that, Mai is grounded and I’m free for a week until the end of summer vacation.

“I want to kill something bigger…”

Something like dog, or a cat.

For now, I only handle palm-sized things, so I would like to touch something that fits in both hands.

How about Mai? If I drown her in the pond, I can make it looks like an accident. I wonder if it would be difficult to break her apart.

While feeling disappointed, I played with the insects for a while, put them back, and closed the box.

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T/N: It’s really short, not even 1k words. I will post 2 chapters at once if the chapters are short (like this).

As I have a full time job and my only time to translate is Saturday, so I decided to update every Sunday at 12pm UTC+9, I can’t promise the time, but I will always make sure to update once a week (Sunday or if I’m really late, Sunday evening), sorry.

Hope you enjoy and see you next week!