CH 14

(This is Makoto’s POV)

I don’t care about others’ feelings. It doesn’t matter if anyone dies or not. However, living with that kind of mindset is “unusual”, and unusual things usually are discarded in society.

But honestly, I don’t even care if Mai is saying imprudent things about Nojima.

Rather, I was expecting her to be stabbed.

Seeing a man kill three or four people by stabbing, I thought it would be a wonderful view.

However, because the principal returned Nojima early, I was unable to see the stabbing moment. And after that, I’m even more disappointed that she didn’t even die.

“I was so worried about Mai when the criminal was still around.” I look anxious and act like a good, dignified brother. It’s all a lie though.

I was wondering if possible, she would be stabbed instead. I don’t actually want my sister to die, but I’m interested in the moment when a person is stabbed up close. When I heard that the victim’s characteristic usually was brown-haired semi-long, I felt disappointed because it was different from Mai’s characteristic.

“Ah, the station building is already built this much…”

As we walked for a while, Mai looked unpleasantly to a building that had recently begun to be built, as if she was fed up looking at it. It hasn’t even been completed yet, but it has a large monitor installed for promotional purposes. The cheesy promotion to go with family, friends, or lovers, was repeated.

It seems that humans cannot live alone. During the moral and ethnic class at elementary school, the teacher once said that if people don’t support each other, life will be painful, and they will crumble.

But is that really the case? People fall in love and have children. Even though I was taught that if humans didn’t do that, the number of people will not increase and the country will not be established, but actually I think it’s different.

At least I’ve never thought of being alone as “lonely” or “painful”.

In the first place, I don’t have any memory of being sad. Looking at books and humans, I can understand when I feel “sad” and “painful”. However, I was able to take it as knowledge, not to apply it to myself.

When I think about it, Mai often cries, gets angry, and laughs. She smiles when she eats delicious food and cries when she’s watching sad TV drama. There are also times when she’s angry while watching TV. I wonder if she’s not tired of changing emotions all the time like that.

(Why does Makoto’s thought get me thinking he’s not human…)

But I’m sure Mai will be categorized as a ‘human being’.

I thought vaguely while observing Mai who is watching the monitor about human relationships.

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T/N: it was a short chapter, and the next one will be long, I will try to not split the chap, and to post maybe tomorrow or Tues. I quit my job and now is recovering my both mental and physical health. thanks for all the words of encouragement, I’m sorry I can’t reply to all the comments.