CH 33

(This is Makoto’s POV)

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Even though I realised my love for Mai, I didn’t immediately confess it to her.

I was sure that I wasn’t normal and have a higher ability than any normal human, but I still lack the empathy that humans normally have.

I never considered that fact until now. Even if I don’t have any empathy I can gloss it over by faking it. After all, humans were easily deceived, so it was convenient for me, and I had no intention to make my true self understood.

But after I became aware of my feelings for Mai, my shortcomings made me concerned.

Despite her eccentricities, Mai has the ability to empathise with others, the minimum ethics and morals required as a human being. On the other hand, even when I pretended as an obedient child, I didn’t have any of those thoughts.

Will Mai fall in love with such a person? To have her is like dragging Mai down towards hell. I thought it will be good if I could change for Mai, but I don’t want to change. If I could deceive her, I would. And once everything is exposed, there is only one thing to do.

But even if I must drag Mai down towards hell, as long as she didn’t aware it was hell, it will be fine.

That’s why I played the role of a gentle brother who always cares about his sister. As I acted, I tried to gradually change Mai’s normality. Little by little, as if encroaching.

To begin with, holding hands inside the house has already crossed a sibling relationship’s boundary. However, I explained to the two parents that Mai had been playing with sharp objects dangerously and she was almost bathed in boiling water too. I influenced them so it wouldn’t sound unnatural.

This time too, I will use the same method. I will make them think that having me beside Mai is granted and they will feel uneasy when I’m not around. After all, we’ve been together for a long time, so it shouldn’t take much time.

“By the way, have Mai decided on her high school?”

While Mai was doing something with a saw amidst the noise in her room, I spoke to both of the parents who were having a good time together in the living room on the first floor. I thought the mother would have some kind of hope for Mai’s future choice because they were blood-related, but it doesn’t seem the case. “She hasn’t decided yet…” she smiled awkwardly.

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“I think it’s better for her to go to the same school as me.”

“Same as Makoto? Why?”

The father tilted his head. The reason I chose high school is that it has the highest deviation in the prefecture. I went on to school just as my parents and teachers wanted me to, but Mai isn’t highly talented. My high school was supposed to be excluded from Mai’s choice of schools, so it was a natural reaction for the father who couldn’t accept it.

“She can just walk to the middle school, but she must take trains or buses to go to high school, right? Back then she would jump into the pond, so it’s scary thinking she would also do the same thing at the station platform.”

I purposely avoided using the ‘run over’ words. Let them imagine it themselves. Both of them didn’t have any special intelligence to immediately get the idea, but if presented with hints, they seemed to be able to guess the answer. Realizing what I meant, their faces turned pale.

“Right now she seemed calm, but it isn’t some kind of physical sickness, so there’s no way she has been treated, right? There is a probability she might suddenly jump from the school building. Right now, there’s the temple girl… Yukari-chan…? Who can keep eyes on her, but things will be different once she enters high school.” I explained.

“But isn’t it hard to aim for Onii-chan’s high school with Mai’s current grade?” The mother asked.

“I will help too, I will teach her and have her study with me as much as I can. Mai taking the exam is pretty worrying, isn’t it? It would be good if she can overcome her stress, but she doesn’t know what to do. Right now she talked to us normally, but when that moment kick… that…” I deliberately slurred my sentences.

The two parents face each other. After pondering about it together, they said, “Please take care of Mai…” to me.