Chapter 100. Crossing paths like an encounter.
Yulan could remember it again and again. He could see it over and over and over again in his dream.
He could remember the disgust, the rage, the hatred, and the resentment of those days, thrown at him for being born with the pair of golden eyes.
No matter how much it hurt, it was never enough, no matter how much he grinded it down until it was turned into a mess, there was no end to it. The past, which exists nowhere else in the world, will always haunt him. If this was a curse, if this was the price to pay, then he wasnt the right target. Yulan himself couldnt imagine a better way to corrode his spirit.
The days Violette was dragged into hell. The days of judgment when the fools, unaware of their own sins, forced everything on her alone. Shaming herself for unconsciously believing in God, and knowing that she was worthless and unable to do anything about it still hoped for peoples recognition.
Yulan decided not to forgive this world, which was cruel to both him and her.
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Why do I feel uncomfortable with a smile that contains self-mockery?
An outsider had no right to interfere in their affairs. She had just learned about Yulans true nature, without any evidence, she couldnt reveal it to Violette. Because Yulan was too competent in hiding himself.
(Not exactly the same as I dreaded )
He was a man with a pressure that made you back away and a weight that made you freeze up. She saw madness swirling in his eyes, and the danger as if at any moment he might force her to go over the railing and jump into the abyss.
Still, the fact that he could not be classified as an object or person to be merely feared and shuddered at was probably due to the glimpse of self-loathing behind his confidence.
He was not a person to whom Rosette could afford to offend. She supposed Yulan might have thought so too. They were wary of each other and only wanted to take care of the person they have in common from both sides. Rosette knew that without Violette, this thin thread would not have been connected between them.
But she wondered if this connection was fortunate or if it was something that would eventually get in the way.
The answer will be known in the not-too-distant future.