CH 92

Mob High School Student Thinks Deeply

“Wh, what are you talking about……..”

“Ah, Reika-san already told me that she confessed to Onii-chan so you can’t trick me okay.”

“S, She told you!”

I tried to pick up the cards that I accidentally dropped but my hands don’t seem to be working well.

Perhaps because of that, I was about to drop them again at Miksaki’s following words.

“By the way, Asuka-san also knows about this okay.”

“……what?”

“I said! Reika-san knows that Asuka-san confessed to Onii-chan and Asuka-san knows that Reika-san confessed to you already!”

“……WHY!?”

She said that they know but in a scenario where they both fall for me and confessed, the two should be rivals right.

Still, when I saw them talking the other day, they don’t seem to be on bad terms at all. On the contrary, I think they started calling each other by their first name too…….

Eh, is this like the plot of those dramatic mangas where they only appear to be friendly on the outside………

“I think you are imagining something weird again but……no matter who Onii-chan picks, or who you can’t see romantically, the two won’t bear any grudge you know.”

“Is , is that so……”

Yup, I’m glad that it’s peaceful.

I think that anyone has their own hidden side including me but I would be scared if that hidden side is all malicious…….

Still, when Misaki put it like that, my denial was blown away. No matter how much I tried to avert my eyes from them, what happened after the pool and at the fireworks displays did happen.

Thinking about it now, it’s such a luxurious problem to have.

One is not only the most beautiful girl in his class but his entire grade. Moreover, since she is now much more approachable than last year, her popularity soared even higher now.

The other is a popular model that appears on magazines’ covers. The number of her fans is only getting bigger and bigger.

Compared to them, what am I?

A mob that no one cares about until recently? A popular model on magazines’ covers like Suzuka?

No matter which one, they are both me.

–In the first place, how did my life get so crazy?

–what was the reason I chose to live as a mob in the first place?

Perhaps it was what happened in my elementary school. It happened when my sixth year was almost over, a brief period that shouldn’t be able to leave behind any big trauma.

Children are innocent. That’s why no matter what pranks they play, it should only end with ‘they are just playing’.

Treating someone like germs or casually saying some heartless things to others……….the children don’t know what the impact from their words or actions will cause.

In the end, only people who have power can stop them. They will stop when the top tells them to and they will turn on you if the top said that they don’t like you. Still, the impact of their action will leave a big scar on the children who have no allies.

In the world of adults, you can escape such treatment by changing your job or appeal to your superior——–even if your boss doesn’t do anything for you, you will always have the option to accept your defeat and quit.

However, elementary school is different.

I couldn’t transfer to another school by my own decision and even if I go to the teacher—they would just give the other party some warning and make us reconcile, even if it’s just on the surface.

The teacher may tell us to apologize to each other and get along but what would happen afterward would be some elaborate bullying to hide it all from the teachers. There would be no meaning in going to the teachers since there would be nothing to report.

The people who you thought as your friends would be too afraid to get involved with you and become another victim so they will avoid you.

In the end, no matter how you try to stand up for yourself it would be useless since you will be outnumbered. Even if you try to find yourself an ally, it would be almost impossible since most of the kids would be on the other side already. Moreover, they will punish you for standing up against them and the bully would only intensify.

Elementary school is only a small community where you only know your friends from the same school.

The ringleader would say that such a thing happened so long ago that they couldn’t remember but for the victim, it would be the events that cause them traumas that would last forever.

I didn’t receive any major trauma during my elementary school years myself but it did make me often think about how others view me or how I have a habit of not having close relationships with many people, to not rely on others. In the end, it molded me into someone who can understand others’ emotions but is insensitive to their feelings.

And the result(Karma) is what happened this summer.

I should have plenty enough chance to notice their feelings but I just spent my time leisurely and insensitively without noticing anything until they spelled it out for me…..

“If I have to go from the conclusion then I couldn’t turn her down and I was told to prepare myself. I know it’s disrespectful for me to say this but, I wonder why they fall for me.”

“…..I’m sure the reason is that you are you, Onii-chan. Since old time, you’ve never changed you know?”