Volume 8 - CH 16

Tsugaru Madoka is Irritated

TLN: Hey, it’s Madoka’s POV.

At night, my phone starts vibrating.

The name displayed on the screen was [Akechi Hideyori].

While thinking what a pain it is, I decided to pick up because it would be bad if he had something important to talk about.

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“Hello.”

[[Ah, Hi, Madoka. It’s me, Akechi.]]

“What’s wrong? It’s rare for you to call me.”

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I know that Akechi-kun finds me difficult to deal with.

But I know that it’s my fault.

Even so, the fact that he still keeps me company despite all I put him through shows that he’s serious at heart.

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His personality is good enough that I might have fallen for him if I hadn’t known Toyotomi-kun.

It’s exactly this that made him even more irritating.

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It’s way easier to hang around Juumonji-kun whose personality is far from my type.

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“Did you establish contact with Mishima Haruka yet?”

[[No, I went to her class but she already left.]]

“I see……”

[[But a different problem just came up.]]

“A different problem!?”

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Akechi-kun’s flustered tone made me worry that something unexpected happened.

“What’s wrong? Hurry up and tell me.” I hurriedly urged him and he hesitantly continues.

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[[Eien-chan’s been teasing me……]]

“Ha?”

[[We have a [The Teasing Master Miyamura-san] situation right now……]]

“Haa…….Ha?”

[[She was touching her lips and telling me that she wants a boyfriend then just casually studying the Tale of Genji in front of me you know! ………..I mean, do you think that Eien-chan is interested in me?]]

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Far from interested, that girl has been aiming for you since middle school.

When Akechi-kun isn’t around, she’s pretty much the one who keeps the other girls in check.

She’s a smart girl so she’s quite a tactician when it comes to her approach as well.

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If I tell him something along the lines of [Miyamura Towa is in love with Akechi Hideyori] then they might even start dating by next month.

He probably called me today because he wanted to be reassured.

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“……….”

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The thought alone was already irritating.

I can let it go if it’s Juumonji-kun but it’s irritating when it’s Akechi-kun.

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“What? You’re being too conceited. There’s no way someone like Akechi-kun can go out with Towa in the first place.”

[[Y, Yeah……]]

“It’s obvious she was just teasing you. Don’t let it get to your head.”

[[Y, You don’t have to go that far right!]]

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Why did you come to me for love advice…….?

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In front of Akechi-kun, I always desperately put on a mask so that my feelings won’t leak out.

But when I can’t see his face, I’ll let my guard down and my face is probably a mess right now.

It’s a pained expression that I will never let show in front of him.

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Hey, I know that it’s impossible but are you–….?

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Delusions started ravaging my mind.

I want to ask him, I want to find out for sure.

Hey, who are you?

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Are you just similar to him?

Are you him?

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Even when I try thinking about Toyotomi-kun, my thoughts always turn to Akechi-kun…..

Hey, are you him……?

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Don’t you feel it?

Don’t you think that I’m Kurusu Yumi, Akechi-kun?

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I want to ask him.

Do you like Tsugaru Madoka?

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[[Haha…..yeah, Eien-chan likes me……as if something that ridiculous would be true.]]

“Hmph. Seriously, don’t call me for something strange like this!”

[[S, Sorry…..]]

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Still, since I have been so cold to him for 5 years already, I can’t just improve how I talk to him now……

If he’s Toyotomi-kun then he might have been disillusioned with me already.

……..when I think about it that way, I just can’t bring it up.

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[[Hey, Madoka……]]

“What is it this time?”

[[…….are you okay?]]

“Eh?”

[[It’s just a feeling but……, I feel like I’m only pushing you around…….we both reincarnated but I’ve been thinking that it must have been hard on you to work with someone you dislike right………]]

“It’s, it’s not like that! …….don’t get ahead of yourself, I don’t need someone like Akechi-kun to worry about me.”

[[Yeah, you really are that kind of person huh! You’re not cute at all!]]

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If it was Toyotomi-kun saying [You’re not cute at all!] then I’m sure that I won’t be able to recover.

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[[Well, whatever. I don’t care anymore.]]

“You’re sulking now.”

[[!?………illness can come from the mind so make sure to do some [Mental care] alright! Later!]]

“I know! Also, it’s unrelated but I didn’t expect the word [Mental care] to come from you…….eh?”

[[Yeah, foreign words are NG right. Bye!]]

“W, Wai-…….!?”

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I know we are arguing but wait.

In all my lives, there’s only one person who told me to do some [Mental care].

How could such a reply come so naturally from Akechi-kun!?

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“Hey……, are you really Toyotomi-kun……? Why didn’t you notice it…….no……, there’s no way Akechi-kun is Toyotomi-kun…….he’s already dead……..”

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Hey?

If Toyotomi-kun knows how I still drag my feelings for him with me to this life, he might feel repulsed by me.

Even so, that’s how serious I am about him.

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Have you already forgotten me……?

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What am I saying? I have no right to say that when I can’t even tell the differences between Akechi-kun and Toyotomi-kun now.

Please, Toyotomi-kun……

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Help me from Akechi-kun…….

My memory of you is being overwritten by him……..

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If it has to be this painful then I’d rather not have my memory as Kurusu Yumi…..

Living my life as a happy character like the game’s Tsugaru Madoka would be better……

The weight of the love that would never come true is too painful.

It hurts when the memory of the person I love is overwritten.

It hurts to watch someone I supposedly don’t even like flirt around with other women.

How can I make peace with my own feelings when I can’t even let them out…….?

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What kind of person was Toyotomi-kun again?

He was stronger than anyone at kendo and no one can beat him in magic.

Akechi-kun also mentioned that he can do both kendo and magic tricks but he’s definitely not as good as Toyotomi-kun right!?

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He was a gamer.

Akechi-kun said that Emi always barged in on him when he was playing Galge.

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He was the type of man that’s more interested in armpits than breasts.

Akechi-kun did say that he would rather focus on my armpits too.

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He immediately noticed that foreign words are NG for me.

Akechi-kun has been repeating that same retort to me as well.

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[I will do whatever Madoka says.]

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“Why, why does everything just link back to Akechi-kun……..”

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Ahh, how truly irritating……

TLN: Soon……..Not really, but soon…………