CH 38

As soon as he got home, Cain collapsed on the bed and sulked.

“What is it? Are you sulking because you couldn’t carry Lady Dianna to her room?” Elyse said.

Diana, who had fallen asleep in the carriage and was in a soggy state, was indeed too big for seven-year-old Cain to carry her to her bedroom.

Thanks to the running he does every morning and evening, he is physically strong, but his arms are still not strong enough.

His mother, Elyse, carried Diana out of the carriage, and the butler who had been waiting for him carried him to his room.

“Sigh…”

Cain answered Ilvalino’s question with a big sigh and reflected on today.

“I was planning to beat him up, you know,” Cain said.

“Ah, the Crown Prince, isn’t it? You couldn’t do it?” Ilvalino asked.

“I couldn’t.” Cain said.

“Why not? Because of the queen and his wife’s eyes?” Ilvalino asked again.

“No…” 

He rolled over and turned his back to Ilvalino.

“It may not be an overwhelming difference between a seventeen-year-old and a twenty-year-old, or a twelve-year-old and a fifteen-year-old, but I thought that a seven-year-old and a four-year-old could show an overwhelming difference in power,” Cain said.

“Well, I guess you could say that?” Ilvalino said.

“I thought I’d beat him up while I still had the chance and give him the impression that he could never beat me,” Cain added.

“That’s what they call trauma,” Ilvalino said.

It was so cute. Cain mumbled in his mouth.

In his previous life, Cain had been an outside salesman for an educational toy manufacturer.

There were nursery schools and kindergartens among his clients, and he had many opportunities to interact with small children. He would play with the children to explain how to play with the prototypes, and he would play with them to get their reactions and opinions on the prototypes.

“I decided to eliminate them to protect Dianna.” Cain said.

Children are a mass of possibilities.

I often saw them play with the toys I provided in ways I hadn’t expected, or with more effect than I had intended.

“There is no such thing as a girl who is mean from the start… I guess,” Cain said.

“Were you bullied by a girl?” Ilvalino said.

It was a word he said earlier during the day.

He was thinking about Dianna at the time, but it could also apply to Arundilano.

The same can be said for Ilvalino, by the way. There is no such thing as a heartless and heartbroken assassin from the start.

“Don’t return meanness with meanness,” Cain said.

“That’s such naive thinking,” Ilvalino said.

This is also what he said earlier during the day. 

In the first place, it was not something that Cain could say as he tried to get back at Arundilano for pulling Dianna’s arm.

He lost his temper. Not being sure what to say and do.

Even if you try to restrain yourself, there are times when you can’t control yourself.

“The Crown Prince Arundirano, you know…,” Cain said.

“Does the Crown Prince have a name like that? I’m going to bite my tongue saying that,” Ilvalino said.[Read this novel and other amazing translated novels from the original source at the “Novel Multiverse dot com” website @ novelmultiverse.com]

“Has a bright, shimmering blond hair…,” Cain proceeded on.

“It’s the same color as yours and Dianna’s.,” Ilvalino said.

“I wonder if it’s well-kept. It’s so fluffy…,” Cain said.

“Yours and Dianna are moist, shiny, and beautiful too,” Ilvalino said.

“Their eyes are green, like young leaves…,” Cain said.

“Cain and Dianna’s deep blue eyes are like the summer sky, so mesmerizing they almost suck you in,” Ilvalino said.

“The shy smile on the cheeks was so adorable…,” Cain said.

“Your charming smile that gazes at Dianna is so captivating that it has the potential to threaten to turn the country upside down,” Ilvalino said.

Turning over with a thump, Cain turned his body to face Ilvalino. His cheeks were red.

What is it? Why are you giving me so many compliments today?

When Ilvalino finally saw that Cain’s face was no longer sulking, he raised the corner of his mouth in a grin.

“You were obviously depressed, so I was trying to cheer you up,” Ilvalino said.

After the embroidery party, Cain was plainly depressed and dejected, and just when he thought he was finally coming back to life, he was unexpectedly taken to the royal palace, and when he returned, he immediately decided to sulk away.

If Cain were to fall mope again, it would be unbearable for Ilvalino. He doesn’t want to see Dianna’s bored face while Cain is down. Even the compliments were not entirely thoughtless. Ilvalino would like to go for a run or work out with him again.

“Thank you for that. I’m embarrassed, so I hope you won’t do that again…,” Cain said.

“Are you feeling better,” Ilvalino asked.

“I am. I am,” Cain said.

“That’s good to know,” Ilvalino said.

Cain shifted his position so that his head was propped up on his elbows and stared at Ilvareno. Noticing his gaze, Ilvalino moved closer to the bed.

“What can I do for you? Would you like to change your clothes? Do you want me to make you some tea?” Ilvalino asked.

“… Why are you talking so politely?  Before when we were alone, you were just being yourself,” Cain asked.

When Cain said this, Ilvalino tilted his head with a troubled look on his face.

Then he spoke quietly into my ear and said,

“The butler, Mr. Waynes, told me to be on my guard even when I thought no one was around. He also told me to maintain a moderate attitude until I learned to do so,” Ilvalino said whispering.

When he finished, he raised himself up and stepped back.

Cain gazed at Ilvalino, who gave the “I told you?” look. 

When we are alone in my room, when I go for my morning and evening runs, when I go to the orphanage for comfort. When and where? At which time was the butler watching us?

He might have seen us playing tricks together. My parents may or may not have heard about this… I’m afraid that I don’t know anything.

If I let my guard down because of my memories of my previous life, the adults in this life might wrap around their fingers on me.

“I’ll have to be more diligent…,” Cain said.

Aristocratic adults are scary.

Cain shuddered as he hugged himself.