Chapter 1777: Love and Affection, A Wavering Heart
Kaito has a high level of trust in Illness. She has been taking care of him in various ways as his exclusive maid since immediately after he arrived in this world, and combined with her calm and gentle personality, Kaito strongly recognized her as a gentle and mature lady.
Because of the trust she has accumulated in his heart, Kaito feels secure in the state he is now, lying on Illness' lap, and once Illness had told him that "you can sleep", drowsiness appeared exceptionally quickly.
Despite being petite, Illness is by no means lanky, and the moderately soft feel of Illness' thighs. As a hand naturally started gently stroking Kaito's head, closing his eyes for a moment, Kaito's consciousness quickly drifted away, and after a while, the sound of regular breathing became audible.
Watching this, Illness softly smiled and continued to think in a daze.
(Avoiding my own feeliiiiiings and continuously looking away can be a probleeeeem. This could probably be an opportunity to take a moment and reflect on thiiiiiings I held affection for Kaito-sama at first siiiiiiight. There's no doubting thaaaaaat, and even noooooow, my feelings haven't diminiiiiiished, and have instead grown strongeeeeeer.)
Illness loves Kaito from the bottom of her heart. There's no doubt about this, and this is something she's absolutely convinced of. While it may sound extreme, loving Kaito is a matter of course for Illness at the moment, and it can't be the cause of her confusion.
However, considering the recent movements and fluctuations in her heart, she can see that there's more to it than that.
(Come to think of iiiiiiit, this might have started because of loooooove. I suppose the way things had been with us had beeeeeeen a bit different from the usual order. There's no point in pretending now huuuuuh I am in love with Kaito-samaaaaaa. The recent fluctuations in my feelings were probably because of thaaaaaat.)
Yes, Illness didn't fall in love with Kaito; what she held for him in the beginning was affection Afterwards, as she continued to interact with Kaito, she came to know more about what he was like on the inside and fell in love. While her circumstances aren't quite impossible, the somewhat different sequence from a typical romantic relationship has brought confusion to her mind.Updated from novelbIn.(c)om
Staying close to the peacefully sleeping Kaito, Illness gently brought her face closer, and planting a light kiss on his cheek, she whispered softly.
[I'm still inexperienced in loooooove, and I do feel apologetic for thiiiiiis, but please, just wait a little moooooore. Once I can firmly organize my feeliiiiiiiings, at that tiiiiiime, I will convey them to you properlyyyyy I'm still a coward who can only convey my feelings when you're asleeeeeeep, but someday, surelyyyyy Kaito-samaaaaa I will love you from the bottoooooooom of my heart.]
<Afterword>
? ? ? : [I see, even though she's aware of her feelings of love, she hasn't sorted them out yet. Well, that girl has a logical side, so things probably won't progress until she has thoroughly thought it through to the point where she's fully convinced of it. But at this rate, it shouldn't be that far Senpai? Arehh? Hmmm Makina, do you know what happened to Serious-senpai?]
Makina : [She became delicious.]
? ? ? : [I see Well, she'll be back in the next chapter. So, what was it this time?]
Makina : [Koshi-an!]
? ? ? : [Was it that you used her body to make koshi-an or had she turned into koshi-an No, her turning into koshi-an is strange in the first place]
(T/N: Koshi-an = smooth-type red bean paste)