Volume 1 - CH 8.2

[Ayana PoV]

[Unforgivable. I will never forgive them]

I had never hated someone so intensely before.

I will never forgive them for hurting the person I love, and I will deny the very world they want.

When I got home, I took a picture of Towa and Shu-kun and painted Shu-kun’s face black with a pen.

[This one too,…… and this one too,…… and this one too!]

I was a little hesitant …… to do this, not only with Shu-kun, but also with his family, but I also got rid of the photo that had my mother in it.

In the pitch black room, I made up my mind —– I’m going to make sure those people regret it.

I will repay them dozens …… or even hundreds of times over for hurting the person I love so much.

[That’s what …… is all about, making their lives a mess and a bitter mess.]

I can’t tell Towa about this, because he’s very kind.

[I’m going to make them despair for sure.]

I will make them despair with everything I have.

Hey Shu-kun, if you want me so badly, then be prepared, okay? I will never become yours. On the contrary, I will use all of your thoughts and feelings towards me to sink you into the depths of sorrow.

I will give you everything until then —- happiness and joy.

But after that, you know what?

[I will rob you of everything.]

This was my decision, and I was firmly prepared to set in motion the scenario that would lead to their demise.

However, I didn’t spend the rest of my days just being motivated by hatred.

[Towa-kun!]

[Ayana, what’s wrong?]

I was enjoying, from the bottom of my heart, the days with Towa-kun, who had been discharged from the hospital and was now in good health.

The hospital stay lasted a bit longer, and after he was discharged from the hospital, he was told that he should not do too much exercise, so inevitably, Towa-kun left soccer behind.

It was regrettable, and Akemi and I had talked about it.

[Towa-kun, is there anything you want me to do for you? I’ll do anything for you, Towa-kun.]

[…… I]

If there is one thing I need to apologize to Towa-kun for a little, it is that I took advantage of his sadness a little bit.

Towa-kun has become healthy and reassured me and Akemi, but I often saw his listless appearance at a moment’s notice.

This is why I wanted Towa-kun to rely on me when his heart was weak, and that’s why I sought Towa-kun’s heart in an easy-to-understand way.

[Why …… why are you not resisting?]

[The reason is that there is no need for it. After all, I am the one who wants it.]

It is unthinkable for me to resist having a relationship with Towa-kun.

Although I felt like a bad woman, I was able to forget everything by having a relationship with Towa-kun and soaking up the happiness I felt for a time.

[…… Ayana]

Towa-kun sleeping on my chest was adorable. I even pressed my face against his sleeping head and sniffed him.

[Suu…… haa♪]

I feel like if Towa-kun saw me, he would certainly pull a face, but I am conversely proud of myself for getting excited by Towa-kun’s scent, because I basically think that girls are like that when they are with someone they like.

[Towa-kun, please leave everything to me, okay? I will clean up all the people who said terrible and awful things to Towa-kun. I’ll make sure to use all of them. ……]

[……Ayana]

[…..Well, at least for now, I can enjoy this sleeping face …… Ufufufu~♪]

This might not be a good idea.

I must have had a really difficult and terrible expression on my face just now…but one thing I can say for sure is that I’m happy right now.

[………..]

But at the same time, I feel like something is spilling out of my heart.

I sometimes dream of a future that I no longer desire or dream of, but that I might have had.

I have a dream of a future that I no longer desire or dream about, but that I might have had. And Towa-kun!

[Wait, Shu-kun! Towa too!]

[Crap! Run away, Shu-kun!]

[Yes! Run, Towa-kun!]

[Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaait]

If there was such a future without hatred and sorrow, would I have wanted it?

The answer to this question was not likely to come out no matter how much time passed.

[Towa PoV]

“Hey Ayana, when we get to school, can you show me your homework assignment?”

“Again? You’ve got to learn to do your own homework, you know?”

I was watching them from behind as they were about to arrive at school.

I thought about it earlier, but despite what happened yesterday, Ayana is still talking to me and to Shu in the same way she always does.

(……I guess I’m a little relieved.)

To tell the truth, I was a little relieved to see her like that.

My mind has certainly changed, and I’m ready to accept and live in this newborn life.

But I was also sure that I was still a little nervous.

“I’m going to do what I can do. So that I can walk out as me, in the true sense of the word.”

To do that, I will always remember what’s stuck in my throat.

That’s because it must be the core of the mystery that I still hold in this world.

“Towa-kun.”

“Hmm? Where’s Shu?”

I was lost in my thoughts and seemed to be in a daze until I was approached by Ayana.

The only person beside me was Ayana, and I couldn’t see Shu. I looked for him to see where he had gone, and I saw the moment he was caught by Iori and was taken away.

“She took him away.”

“It looks like it …….”

Although he gave us a look like he wanted us to help him, Ayana and I waved our hands and looked away from Shu’s appearance.

Ayana and I were walking along with the other students, blending in with the crowd of students around us.

Ayana murmured to me in a whisper.

“Yesterday was great, wasn’t it, Master?”

“…..”

The moment Shu is gone, Ayana whispers in a bewitching tone.

The students walking nearby would never have heard her, but my ears clearly picked up her words and I was thrilled.

“How was it, Towa-kun? Was my body satisfying you?”

Ayana looks like a girl who has been turned into a boy while the girl is being dyed, a look that is far removed from her usual dignity and beauty.

Still, even such a sexy expression suits her, whether it’s because she’s an erotic heroine or simply because she has a sex appeal. …… Either way, I chuckled at Ayana’s charm, and I thought that was also her attractiveness.

“Right. It was great …… and most of all you were cute.”

“…….Thank you”

Ayana smiled, her cheeks flushed red.

“……………”

I almost fell in love with Ayana’s adorable face, but seeing her like this gave me a lot to think about.

My current relationship with Ayana is nothing more than a halfway relationship.

And I, who am almost satisfied with our current relationship, am also nothing but a half-hearted b*****d.

(…… I remember a lot of things and what I found out is similar. I have a dim sense that Ayana has something going on. That’s why I want to do something about it.)

I think that is what I must do.

This is not something that I feel obligated to do or forced to do,……, but I will definitely reach a goal that I can be satisfied with, both for Towa and for myself.

I hope to find the meaning of what I have come to this world, and that I will not regret what I have done in this world.

“Ayana.”

“What is it?”

“……Ah~uhm, I’m looking forward to working with you?”

“Fufu, you’re so weird, Towa. Yes! Same to you♪”

Well, I was still thrilled by her cute smile and averted my gaze.

I have a feeling that a lot of hard things are about to happen, and moreover, I might learn more about the dark side hidden in this world.

But I would not give up. Her smile made me vow to do so.

(I will definitely grab a better future. That is my goal.)

No matter what the outcome may be, no matter if this world cannot escape from the fate of the game, I will surely grasp in my hands an ending that will make me glad I took action.

End of volume 1