CH 63

Chapter 63: According to a Young Girl. Part 2

“. . . I’m at a loss.”

I was wondering what was the trigger for Aoi to go onto the “Koharu” route, it ended up being her choice in choosing her club. It can’t be helped now. Aoi is already the center of the art club. Even the other day Koharu, who was already away from Aoi, was just alone. I don’t think Koharu will change in this environment where she is only praised by her love rival.

And above all, that dark smile she had at the end.

“Why is she yandering even the happy ending!? Isn’t that the scene where you give a radiant smile! ! “

Honestly I still don’t understand. It should be the climax, gaining her self-esteem and getting the girl. Happiness with no complaints. Then why the lightless eyes?

From Aoi’s point of view. . .Ah, the kissing scene was after that, and their eyes were closed. After seeing that Yandere smile, that beautiful still from the god artist became terrifying. Goodbye beautiful memories.

However, it’s not that I had no info. The bed scene in the “Koharu” route has new meaning. The way Koharu embraces Aoi is. . . rather clingy. Hugging and embracing her closely many times over and over again, pushing her down and more.

(Hey, do you like me?)

(I’ll make you only think of me.)

(Drown in more pleasure. . .So you can’t live without me.)

That dialogue has completely new meaning after finding out about this new darkside to Koharu. Even though it was such classic lines, it now had a hint of madness.

The way she was embracing and hugging was probably just a reaction to her complex up to that point. When I played the game I just thought it was because her love was heavy after holding onto her crush for so many years!

“It’s impossible. It’s beyond my control. . .”

The opportunity to restore Koharu’s self-confidence is already gone. In other words, it was not tied to Aoi. It’s a straight route to the bad end. The bad end in the “Koharu” route occurs when Aoi- – -or rather the player tries to capture another heroine halfheartedly, where the likeability isn’t enough raised in time. The current situation now is where Aoi is interested in me, but she hasn’t increased my likability for her. Keeping it low was what I was purposely doing!

“Or rather, it’s her parents. . ! This is the Pygmalion effect, but negatively! This is what it really is! Damnit! !”

The psychological phenomenon where high expectations lead to improved performance. In my past life when I was a cram school teacher, It was one of the psychology things I was conscious of in order to improve the academic ability of my students.

However it is the opposite of it. This is called the Golem effect. If you are branded a failure, that will impact how you think about yourself and how you act. It will lead to stagnation, which impacts how other people believe and enforce your own belief. It is a vicious circle, and you won’t be able to get out of it.

For Koharu, she was treated as useless since adolescence, so of course she wouldn’t gain confidence. Rather than that, it would’ve been best if she recovered in the happy ending.

“Hah- – -, this is tough. I don’t want to deal with this. I just wanted to ensure Sara and my safety and have Aoi and Koharu look away. . !”

I don’t think that can be done anymore. The situation is so different between the games now. I should be fine if I shake Aoi off. The question is how to get them off. If possible, I just want to spend my life in peace. Urgently.

Besides, there is another thing I wanted to look away from for some time. Beyond the film I watched, “Koharu” had begun another route. I haven’t awakened from this dream yet, so that means I have to see something else following this. It was a happy ending. So what more is it going to show me? Will it stop this time and continue tomorrow? I wish there was a pause button.

Although similar to before, it started in the middle. After enrolling in the cooking club, she gradually regained her self-confidence. And- – –

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“Hey, Koharu. I have a favorite person.”

A childhood friend with never before seen lightly dyed cheeks said to her. Moreover, Koharu was told that it was a girl from Tsubakigaoka and they were already dating.

Recently it felt like something was wrong. She was oddly excited, looking at her smartphone more often during her spare time, and went out somewhere she didn’t say on her days off. She knew that something was going on.

“She’s a very beautiful girl. At first she couldn’t deal with me at all, but I pushed and pushed and we got on good terms. I threw caution to the wind and confessed yesterday, and it worked out. . .”

Koharu wanted to close her ears as Aoi ecstatically retells the story of their love, how they met and all the details. If her favorite person is happy, that’s fine. But that’s a fantasy. It’s lip service. It was her failure behind that bluff.

That self-confidence that was recovering and the self-affirmation was shattered and crumbled. Due to the fact that the person who she thought about never acknowledged her. It all fell into pieces.

“Yeah. . .That’s wonderful.”

The congratulation spilled coldly from her mouth. She didn’t skillfully break into laughter, but it wasn’t reflected in the eyes of the excited Aoi.

Beautiful appearance, excellent academic skills, and Aoi.

This girl named “Sara Fujioka” had everything Koharu wanted. She was jealous and resentful. God was so unfair! Why is this kid so blessed, while Koharu didn’t get anything? If she already had that many at least Aoi could be handed over to her.

Since then, Aoi has almost always spent her holidays with Sara. She didn’t even seem to tell her other friends about Sara, and all her sweet interactions with her first lover were shared with Koharu. Even though she didn’t normally treat her like that, why did she only go to her to talk about her love life? She didn’t want that special interaction.

Everytime Aoi said Sara’s name, it felt like muddy coal tar was thrown at her heart. Every Time she saw that happy smile, she felt her love bleed.

“If you have someone you like, I’ll support you!”

Although she could read the air so much, she never noticed my love at all, and now she had to say such a cruel thing? How long do I have to feel like this?

Gradually the time with Aoi became painful for Koharu, but sure enough she loved being with her.

She didn’t need to meet Aoi, so Koharu’s days off were free. One day she was relaxing in her room not doing anything, when a light knock tapped her door. It was her sister two years older than her. 

“Koharu, is right now a good time?”

Koiharu is closer to the second daughter than the eldest. Partly because they are closer in age, and because the oldest daughter is strict with others. The middle sister has an open hearted personality that is easy to get along with.

The oldest went from elementary school to college via an escalator system, the middle sister simply went to Tsubakigaoka.

“I got these movie tickets in advance, but I thought I could go with Koharu.”

“Eh, why? Onee-chan could just go. Go with your boyfriend or friends.”

“I broke up with my boyfriend, and I’m afraid to go with my friends, so let’s just go together.”

“Eh, why did you break up!?”

She’s only seen them in pictures, but she thought he was a good young man who looked nice and looked good with her. Koharu was shocked and instinctively listened, but her sister simply explained with a slightly bitter look.

“There is this ridiculous beautiful girl in the first year. He fell in love with her and wanted to break up. Through and through it was about looks.”

“. . .But Onee-chan is also beautiful.”

“Thank you, but Sara Fujioka is frustratingly exceptional. Rather, I feel like my ex-boyfriend forgot what league he is in. No way he is on her level. But It’s my defeat.”

The unforgettable name quickly made her pale.

First grader at Tsubakigaoka. A beautiful girl. Sara Fujioka. It has to be her. Stealing Aoi’s heart and now robbing her sister’s boyfriend. . .It’s unforgivable.

She wasn’t interested in her sister’s boyfriend, but it’s apparent that she is once again taking another thing from around her, this further increased her hatred for Sara.

“It must be difficult to be so beautiful but. . . I wonder what kind of person she would go out with?”

Despite having her boyfriend stolen, her older sister said in a sympathetic voice. That echoed in Koharu’s ears.