Zhong Miao Yi understood, but she had already made her decision, there was no turning back.
"Thank you for your concern." Zhong Miao Yi lowered her eyes, "But I will not abandon this child. As long as I am alive, he will have something to rely on.
Zhong Miao Yi was a person who had no one to rely on.
She followed Su Zeyi since she was young, but was sent to the palace by Su Zeyi as a pawn. Currently, she should also be a handful of dried bones in the loess.
"He can only rely on himself, how can you protect him for the rest of your life?" Zhou Ji sighed, his tone filled with the feeling that the Zhong Miao Yi had made a very bad decision.
Zhong Miao Yi did not seem to feel that there was anything wrong with this decision.
Zhou Ji couldn't persuade her otherwise, so he could only look at her in silence.
Zhong Miao Yi did not want to continue with the topic, she took a glance at the carriage, there were already many of them, and would probably be able to start soon.
Zhong Miao Yi did not see Ban Qiu's figure, she only saw a figure within the crowd that she could remember no matter how long it had been without him.
He had his back to himself, and was giving orders and helping at the same time. As expected, in a little while, he would arrive the carriage in front of Zhong Miao Yi.
Zhou Ji followed Zhong Miao Yi's line of sight and softly sighed. "You have to be careful in a while. This place is where the Emperor's spies are. I'll go take a look at Yitian first."
Zhou Ji left first, knowing that the Zhong Miao Yi would wait for him.
The Zhong Miao Yi nodded her head, expressing her gratitude for the kind reminder.
Su Zeyi stared at her and also stared at Tang Yao. Even after such a long time, Su Zeyi still didn't relax the slightest bit.
The Zhong Miao Yi touched her belly and the light in her eyes dimmed. Tang Yao had never married in all these years, so Su Zeyi definitely understood that it was because of Zhong Miao Yi.
It wasn't that Su Zeyi had never thought of bestowing a marriage before, but Tang Yao always had all sorts of excuses to decline, and this had never been settled. It had always been a barrier in Su Zeyi's heart.
Tang Yao had seen the Zhong Miao Yi from far away, but he wasn't in a rush. His youthful impulse had already been sharpened.
The Zhong Miao Yi was not his, not in the past, not in the present, and not in the future. This kind of knowledge already made Tang Yao deeply understand.
Su Zeyi treated the Zhong Miao Yi very well, he had heard many rumours around the palace.
As long as she was fine, that was enough. This was already the outcome that Tang Yao wanted the most.
As the two of them drew closer and closer, there was nowhere for him to hide. Tang Yao knew that Zhong Miao Yi had been standing there the entire time, probably waiting for him. Even if she didn't say anything, she would still greet them courteously.
Tang Yao walked up to Zhong Miao Yi and greeted, "Greetings, Lady Yunpin."
The Zhong Miao Yi smiled, her heart. Finally, she stopped trembling and could finally smile at him.
This was a blessing for both of them, as long as they had enough time, they would be able to embrace their new lives.
"We. "When can you start?" Zhong Miao Yi wanted to give the embroidered handkerchief to him to wipe away her perspiration, but she suddenly remembered that she no longer had the qualifications and stance. She promptly placed her hand on Ah Jiu's hand.
Tang Yao turned around and glanced at Nie Yan. "We'll be arriving soon. Once we pick up these two carriages, we'll be able to start afresh."
Zhong Miao Yi nodded and lowered her eyes, "You. Are you all right? "
Tang Yao began to laugh. "Since you're safe and sound, I'll be safe and sound. Didn't we already discuss this earlier?"
Zhong Miao Yi squinted: "You are not young anymore, you have already established yourself, it is about time you get married."
Tang Yao slightly raised an eyebrow. "Empress, are you that concerned about my marriage?"
Zhong Miao Yi raised her eyebrows, concealing her disappointment. "The Tang Family has to have a descendant. Your mother only has a son like you, so don't make her sad."
Madam Qing Xiu had treated her very well. How could she bear to have Madam Qing Xiu not have a grandson?
Zhong Miao Yi could not be this selfish. She could not be that selfish, to want to protect the Tang Family. This was also the best way.
It made Su Zeyi think that they had already let it go, and it also made Tang Yao think that he was letting it go himself. Life had to go on, and there was no one who should give up a lifetime just for someone else.
Tang Yao smiled and replied, "Empress, you're right. If there's anything suitable, I'll definitely ask the Emperor to grant me a marriage."
"That's good." Without raising his head to look at Tang Yao, the Zhong Miao Yi tightly held onto Ah Jiu's hand. He said, "Go back and busy yourself first. The wind has started blowing. It's still small and bright, so there's no wind."
After speaking, the Zhong Miao Yi turned around and prepared to return to her carriage. She had personally confirmed that Tang Yao was doing very well and that they were both doing very well. It was enough for them to keep their promises.
Zhong Miao Yi crawled into the carriage and hugged Zhong Jiming. Only Zhong Jiming was able to make Zhong Miao Yi feel slightly at ease, as well as a sense of responsibility and belonging.
She can't turn her head, so don't look back.
Since Tang Yao had yet to leave, the Zhong Miao Yi didn't know anything about him. She didn't want to think too much about his sadness and depression, nor did she want to think about whether what she had done was heartless enough.
She only wanted to hug Zhong Jiming, holding onto her only hope.
Inside her stomach was another dying child, an existence that she could not protect. It was her guilt, and it was also Su Zeyi's guilt.
She didn't have the qualifications to choose between them, nor did she have the qualifications to implicate Tang Yao.
The three words "Zhong Miao Yi" were like a spell, pulling everyone who was close into the abyss step by step.
Except Su Zeyi.
Because Su Zeyi was her abyss, the abyss that she could not escape from.
"Empress." Seeing that Zhong Miao Yi's expression was unnatural, Li Ling grabbed onto her hand, "Is there something wrong?"
Zhong Miao Yi came to her senses, and stared at the bell for a long time before looking away, "No. I just. "She's just thinking about something."
did not look at her. She only poured some medicine from the thermos bottle for Zhong Miao Yi to drink.
Zhong Miao Yi could not take such a long journey. If she wanted to stay alive, she had to drink some medicine, but she had no objections. She was not afraid of hardships, she just wanted to bring this child out for a walk.
Unfortunately, this child was unable to see the scenery of the mountains and rivers.
It was as Tang Yao and Zhou Ji had said, the carriage quickly started moving again. Zhong Miao Yi did not see Ban Qiu coming over, and for some reason, the carriage moved very slowly this time, probably to avoid the mud. Zhong Miao Yi did not want to sleep anymore with Zhong Jiming in his arms, but the bells had already started to yawn, so Zhong Miao Yi let her lie down and rest for a while.
This time, they would need to sacrifice the heavens for at least half a month before being able to return to the palace. There would probably be no chance for them to leave the palace like this in the future, so the Zhong Miao Yi made the Ah Jiu move aside the curtains at a good place to enjoy the scenery. She wanted to bring Zhong Jiming along to have a look.