CH 7

The first time Qu Yiheng seriously considered the issue of love was when he was a freshman in college.

In other words, when he hid with Yao Zhan to give each other a mutual handjob followed by a blowjob, his mind was very pure, it was just a physical thing, and he didn’t think deeply about it.

He felt that it was probably because he was emotionally slower than others, so he understood it too late.

There were all kinds of new and innovative people at the Academy of Art. Everyone was open-minded, and so many topics are discussed openly.

Not long after the start of his freshman year, he was coming out of the cafeteria biting an egg-filled pancake to go to the studio, but he was stopped halfway, and was confessed for the first time in his life.

The person who confessed to him became his first love, and it was that person who told him that it was normal for men to fall in love with men, and that they could love beautifully.

Qu Yiheng believed it and talked to the other party about graduating from college. Talking about it is quite good, but the breakup was not so good.

He spent four years in college to understand the truth: love will always have an end.

So for the second time, when he broke up, he acted very simply and unrestrained, expressing his disdain for the other by the way.

He really didn’t feel much pain because he was ready to break up a long time ago.

In this way, he is quite excessive. How can someone who has just started a relationship be thinking about being divided? But he really does not believe that two men can be a lifetime, this was just a beautiful fairytale to fool innocent young people.

When Dou Yucong happily moved out, he was actually quite worried, but he was scared too. He couldn’t bad-mouth others’ feelings. He could only remind him, as a brother, that never love others more than yourself.

Dou Yucong is a smart person, at least smarter than Qu Yiheng most of the time. He knows very well how to love someone, and at that time he was very sure that the other person loved him more than he loved the other person.

This relationship lasted six years. Qu Yiheng was quite surprised, and thought it would really break his prejudice, but he didn’t expect it to end so badly. He felt sorry for Dou Yucong.

Dou Yucong said: “fucking hell man, seriously I’m telling you, the feeling of wearing someone else’s underpants is, its fucking kooky.”

Dou Yucong loves to swear when he drinks too much. He leans against the sofa and pinches the can. The expression on his face seemed to be vomiting out every minute.

“When I entered the bedroom wearing those panties, that dog bastard’s eyes were straight. I thought at first that it was because I was too sexy, but it turned out that I fucking thought too much.” Dou Yucong slapped the table, “Disgusting, very disgusting.”

Qu Yiheng couldn’t comfort people, so he could only pat him on the back, clink glasses with him, and drink.

“In fact, if he fooled me and lied about it, I wouldn’t have to take a magnifying glass to check it out.”

Qu Yiheng lowered his head and listened to Dou Yucong’s words, not knowing what to say.

Love is too tiring.

Dou Yucong had always looked young, promising and spirited in front of others, but at this moment, he was relying on his brother with a snot and a tear.

“I’m really at a loss. I spent six years in vain. In the end, I left with my luggage.”

Qu Yiheng asked him, “Do you really feel that you’re at loss?”

Dou Yucong was quiet for a while, and only after a long time did he say, “It’s okay, everyone’s at a loss.”

That night, Dou Yucong was so drunk that he couldn’t handle it, and Qu Yiheng responded to Yao Zhan while dealing with him.

Yao Zhan didn’t have work tonight, and his mobile phone never left his side, so that it almost fell into the pot while he was cooking noodles.

The two of them had been texting, but unexpectedly, Qu Yiheng suddenly sent a voice message. He was a little surprised and a little curious, and clicked on it to listen, but could only hear a drunken man babbling.

He couldn’t hear clearly what the other party was saying, but in any case, it was not something good.

Yao Zhan has a habit of replying to text when others send him text, and replying to voice when others send him voice.

This time Qu Yiheng sent a voice message, although he didn’t understand what it meant, he still replied with a voice message: Are you outside?

As soon as he sent this message, Qu Yiheng’s message came, and it was a text: Sorry, my brother drank too much and accidentally touched my phone.

So it was by mistake after a long while.

Yao Zhan was a little disappointed, but he was also disappointed for a while, and then continued to chat with a hitch.

He hadn’t heard that Qu Yiheng had a brother before, and with that person’s personality, it was rare that he would take care of an alcoholic. He shook his head and thought that, indeed, everyone had changed.

Qu Yiheng finally took the drunken Dou Yucong to the bedroom and put him to sleep. He stood by the bed and sighed.

The mobile phone in his pocket vibrated, and it was a message from Yao Zhan: ‘I just ate two bites of noodles, received a phone call, and went to the unit to work overtime.’

He looked at the words on the phone for a while, and glanced at Dou Yucong lying on the bed and went out lightly, closing the door. He did not know, Dou Yucong secretly rubbed the corners of his eyes.

The matter of Lovelorn and being betrayed by a lover is not something that can be passed by drinking a glass of wine and being crazy.

Qu Yiheng didn’t sleep all night, he wasn’t sleepy and couldn’t sleep.

After sending Yao Zhan ‘hard work’, he put the phone aside and began to draw.

These two days he hardly moved his pen, every day thinking about that problem.

A few days ago, his teacher from college called and asked him if he had any good work recently. The application for the international art exhibition at the end of this year had already started, so his teacher advised him to give it a try.

The art exhibition is only held once every five years. It is a great opportunity for everyone to become famous. Qu Yiheng, who was just a freshman, submitted his work. Although he did not participate in the exhibition in the end, he was the only one of the students in the same class who was shortlisted.

The teacher said, “You can’t lose your vigor, your talent is there, your spirit is there, don’t ruin yourself.”

Qu Yiheng just smiled and told the teacher that he had overestimated him.

The teacher said, “You are the student I brought up, I know what kind of student you are. The past is past and the future is still long. Look, didn’t five years passed in a flash?”

Qu Yiheng knew that the teacher felt sorry for him and felt pity for him, but the future was long and five years had indeed passed in a flash, but the things he had experienced during those five years had changed him.

What vigor, talent, and aura, that seems to have been a matter of a previous life.

The current Qu Yiheng is just an unknown artist, and the publishers only remember him when they suddenly find themselves in need of an artist.

In the end, he told his teacher to think about it, and that he didn’t have any work in his hands yet.

So, it took several days to consider.

Honestly, the older Qu Yiheng gets, the less courageous he becomes, and the more afraid he is of disappointment.

One night, he hid in the bedroom with a paintbrush, scribbling until dawn.

He actually had no idea, he simply wanted to paint. After one night, he painted a water lily that he didn’t even want to look at.

In the summer, the sun rose early, and it was already bright at three or four o’clock.

He took a shower and went next door to see Dou Yucong, who was sleeping soundly.

Qu Yiheng was relieved and went back to his bedroom to lie down, ready to catch up on sleep.

Before going to bed, he flipped through his mobile phone. Yao Zhan had been silent since he went to work overtime, and there were always people talking in the class group at any time.

Those people were still planning the 11th trip, and he suddenly thought that he could ask Yao Zhan if he was going.

However, whether Yao Zhan goes or not, he is not planning to go.

Qu Yiheng slept until the afternoon and was awakened by Yao Zhan’s WeChat.

His mobile phone is usually in vibrate mode, and he puts it under his pillow when he sleeps. Usually, no one is looking for him, but anyone who is looking for him is important.

But it’s different now, Yao Zhan has never had any serious business looking for him.

Yao Zhan said: The flu is so serious recently, and we are so busy that we don’t even have time to sleep.

Qu Yiheng took the phone and looked at it for a while before completely waking up, he replied: Are you a doctor?

Yao Zhan over there was eating in the cafeteria, and suddenly smiled when he saw this message.

How could he forget, the two of them can now be described as somewhat familiar strangers.

He was about to reply to Qu Yiheng’s message when the vice president called and asked Yao Zhan to go to the office to find him.

He has been avoiding the vice president all day, afraid that the leader will bring his niece to him to meet, and he will not know how to refuse when the time comes, and he can’t directly say that he is gay.

But the good thing is, this time the vice president was looking for him for this matter, but to send him to study abroad for a week, and he had to convey his spirit when he came back.

In the past, Yao Zhan would never have been willing to go, he was most annoyed by business trips, and the department was already understaffed, and if he left too, there would be a long queue of patients.

But the vice president said the name of a place, and Yao Zhan agreed without saying a word.

Because the place is the city where Qu Yiheng is now.

Originally, Yao Zhan didn’t know where he was, but it was only after Shao Wei mentioned it to him and he knew.

Since the last time the two slept together, it was impossible for Yao Zhan to not to miss it.

He was a man in his thirties, so obviously, he had a lot of needs in that area, but he had never been on a date with anyone before. First, he never had time to go out and find someone, and second, he was a bit nervous. He hadn’t been in a relationship for many years, and it’s not that he hadn’t had the idea of finding someone to solve his physical needs, but everytime he made a move, he still withdrew in the end.

He realised he’s even got standards for one-night stand partners. He has to know them well, they must be clean and disease free, and are comfortable to hug.

But this kind of person is too difficult to find. Those who know the basics are all friends. If friends do this, they simply don’t intend to be friends. Moreover, most of his friends are straight. Yang Kan and Xiao Mo are the only ones who can be in tune with him in this regard. But he doesn’t consider these two at all, not to mention that the two of them have been hooking up for so many years, and it’s not appropriate for him to get involved.

So, Yao Zhan was so picky, and the standards for finding a fuckbuddy were as high as the standards for finding a partner.

He originally thought he could only rely on his hands, but unexpectedly, met Qu Yiheng.

He knows who Qu Yiheng is, and he’s probably clean and healthy. And he is also comfy to hold.

He will always remember the scene when Qu Yiheng gave him a blowjob, it was so beautiful.

At that time, they were about to take the college entrance examination, and had just stepped into the adult world with one foot. They wanted to taste the forbidden fruit, but they didn’t dare to do it for real, so they comforted each other in this way.

In some ways, Qu Yiheng can be regarded as his sexual awakening.

At that time,Qu Yiheng was very good-looking, with a young man’s skeleton, white and slender, wearing a school uniform and kneeling in front of him. Even after so many years, he couldn’t forget it.

After fifteen years later, the two have finally reunited, and it wouldn’t do to skip out on a good session of fucking.

Yao Zhan liked the feeling when he was with Qu Yiheng. The other party was not unrestrained and let him dominate, but he didn’t tense when he should say something, which was his favorite.

There is not a better friend with benefits than Qu Yiheng, and obviously, the other party does not resist doing it with him, otherwise that time it would not have been so natural.

When he came out of the vice president’s office, he directly sent a WeChat message to Qu Yiheng. He said: ‘I am on a business trip tomorrow, I will come to your place.’