Chapter 105: The Direction Where The Heart Rests (4)

Chapter 105: The Direction Where The Heart Rests (4)

I left Arwin and, after checking the training grounds, went in search of Adam Hyungs house.

Today, as always, he looked up at me from a mountain of paperwork.

He blinked his eyes, which seemed dry, for quite a while before asking,

What happened?

Why?

...

He let out an ambiguous grunt and quickly dismissed the matter.

I didnt press the topic either.

Instead, I sat down in a chair and said,

Now that the meeting is over, give me the next request.

I was actually sifting through a few.

He handed me several documents.

Choose.

I looked over the papers that he handed me.

I couldnt read them properly, but there were some characters I had become familiar with.

...Sa...ran...

While I muttered to myself, recalling what Arwin had taught me, Adam Hyung asked,

Whats this, Berg? Are you studying letters lately?

...

It was embarrassingly evident how insufficient my knowledge still was.

Since there were few characters I could read, I put down the papers.

Then I replied to him,

Im trying.

Adam Hyung smiled and asked,

What brought this on? You never bothered when I told you to learn before.

..

Explaining everything that happened with Arwin seemed too bothersome, so I changed the subject.

Anyway, Ill head here.

Sarik Village.

A Dwarf Village?

As I asked, he nodded. Scratching his nose, Adam Hyung said,

But why the rush? You could rest a bit before leaving.

I couldnt give him a clear answer either.

I might have been acting this way because I wanted to mend the awkward relationship with Ner.

Of course, last nights drinking session had eased the atmosphere a bit... I had built many memories in the last time in the Dems Village.

I was hoping for such a break again.

Hyung watched me in silence and then nodded.

Yeah, go ahead. Last time, it seemed like you got along better with your wives, which was nice to see.

...

I sighed softly, unbeknownst to Hyung.

I thought that was the case too.

But having heard that Ner might have someone else... it felt like I was facing a new obstacle.

She had no intention of giving her heart to me.

She even mentioned having a predestined partner.

Of course, marrying me had put an end to that issue.

I would have normally not bothered about it.

But perhaps because the person involved was my wife, it made me think again.

Maybe I was worried because I had harbored feelings for someone.

...

Come to think of it, Arwin too, being of a long-lived species, said she couldnt love me.

We had become closer, but it wasnt love.

Even though I expected it... why?

Was it because I felt an exchange of hearts?

Unlike in the past, this topic didnt feel light anymore.

Maybe that was why I wanted to take on the next request quickly.

I sighed.

Then I said to Hyung,

...Ill leave tomorrow.

...

At my words, Hyung frowned again.

...Do you really have something going on?

...Sort of.

I dodged the question.

...

Ill go.

****

As I was returning home, I spotted Ner bustling around in the center of the village.

Her white tail and perky ears, along with her stunning beauty, were striking.

Usually shy about her tail and not one to wander outdoors, it was curious to see her alone there, doing something.

As I approached her, Ner noticed me.

Her face brightened beautifully. Her tail began to wag.

Berg!

Her voice sounded happy.

...

I couldnt help but smile slightly. Lately, just seeing her face made me react this way.

She bounced over to me from a distance, coming right up to me.

The closer she got, the more beautiful her smile became.

What are you doing here?

Shes my wife.

...

Ner?

As I asked, Ner looked up at me.

Her pupils seemed a bit sharper.

...Berg.

Hmm?

...

She parted her lips. The atmosphere turned heavy in an instant.

...Haa.

Then Ner let out a sigh.

...Its nothing.

After swallowing her words, she resumed walking with a stiff expression.

...What is it?

But I stopped her.

I pulled on our joined hands to turn her towards me.

This was not a moment I wanted to gloss over uncomfortably.

Sometimes I feel like you forget.

As I halted Ner, she seemed unable to hold back anymore, as if she had been waiting to be asked this.

Forget what?

That Arwin-nim is of a long-lived race.

I replied in confusion.

I havent forgotten. Thats why I was just talking about the dwarf village with me-

-Its not about that, Berg.

Ner stepped closer to me.

She pulled out the World Tree leaf that hung around my neck from inside of my top and started fiddling with it.

As she observed the leaf, Ner spoke.

...Are you really thinking of getting close to Arwin-nim?

...What?

...The criteria for life are different for them. They are beings we can never fully understand no matter how hard we try.

She looked at me with those sharp eyes, devoid of any smile, and said,

...Do we, the short-lived, seem like mere flies to them? Thats why you dont need to worry so much. Even if shes your wife. Arwin-nim doesnt worry about you, so why do you worry about her so much?

...

I was taken aback by Ners aggressive words.

I hadnt expected her to say something like this.

It made me wonder if their relationship wasnt as good as I thought.

And even though Arwin was an elf, she was now my wife and friend.

The claim that she didnt worry about me at all seemed flawed.

So, I made it clear to Ner.

...I dont know why youre saying this suddenly, but dont box Arwin into stereotypes. Even if other elves are like that, Arwin is-

-Arwin-nim is a Celebrien, right? From the most elf-like lineage?

...

She has a much longer lifespan than other elves, I heard. She boasts about living over a thousand years after parting with you. Dont you see the possibility that she values short life less than any other elf?

Following Ner, now Arwin too.

I couldnt understand why suddenly there were these unpleasant stories emerging about each other.

The more I tried, the more it felt like sinking deeper into quicksand.

...Im worried that you dont understand elves enough.

I wanted to dismiss Ners words.

...Thats okay. Stop it. I dont want to hear baseless slander about Arwin all of a sudden.

.....Not.

What?

...Its not without basis.

While I was frozen, Ner quietly approached.

She moved closer to me.

She tugged at the World Tree leaf hanging around my neck.

I naturally bowed my head.

...Its a story I intended to keep hidden.

Ner looked at me from a distance no more than an arms length.

Gone was the fearful look she used to have when our eyes met.

Ner spoke to me.

...I still remember, Berg. The day you were hunting the boss monster outside Celebriens territory.

...

Arwin-nim and I were together then. While I stayed quiet... Arwin-nim...

I had a bad feeling.

Frowning, I tried to lift my upper body in rejection.

But the more I tried, the tighter Ner held onto Arwins World Tree leaf.

If I pulled too hard, the necklace might break.

Her tail was also wrapped around my waist.

...Arwin-nim...

Was it a defense mechanism?

I remembered what Arwin said to me that day, sheltering under the tree from the rain.

I like you... as a friend.

And at the same time, Ner whispered.

Just loud enough for only me to hear.

...Arwin-nim wished for your death, Berg.

The End of The Chapter

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