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I feel that Zhang Xiaokang is about to loosen his mouth.

"Zhang Xiaokang, you don't fit in with everything around you. You feel lonely, and think that no one can understand you, and no one can be your friend, and you can't get along with anyone. In fact, have you ever thought that not everyone has problems, and the person who has problems are you?!" I added another fire.

He shook his head, sighed, and said, "You don't understand. It's not me who's in trouble. It's someone else."

"What's wrong with the others?"

"Stupid …"

When he said the word, my heart raced.

That night in the neighborhood where Han Chunsheng's house was located, Lao Xiao stuck a bottle of mineral water behind my back and said the same two words.

Stupid!

This Zhang Xiaokang in front of him, what did he have to do with Old Chou?

Seeing that I had lost my composure, Li Fengyun continued, "Zhang Xiaokang, what do you mean by saying others are stupid?"

Zhang Xiaokang shook his head again, "Forget it, you won't understand, because like them, you are all a bunch of idiots!"

From him calling others stupid to calling us idiots, his mood has hardly changed. From this, can it be possible that what he just said about "idiocy" is not the same thing as what Old Freak said about "stupidity" that night?

Xu Haoqing's phone rang …

He went out to answer the phone, then opened the door and called me and Li Fengyun out.

"What's wrong, Captain Xu?" I asked.

Xu Haoqing: "It was Zhang Xiaokang's ex-girlfriend who called just now."

"What did he say?"

She said that Zhang Xiaokang is smarter than ordinary people, his memory is very good, and the word 'stupid' is almost his catchphrase. In the past, when the two of them were together, Zhang Xiaokang would complain every day, saying that the people around him were stupid, saying that his colleagues were all idiots.

"Huh?"

Zhang Xiaokang is smarter than ordinary people?

However, from his resume, this kid's results were quite average. Whether it was in his studies or his career, he didn't seem like a smart person.

Xu Haoqing said, "Yes, but his intelligence is only reflected in his excellent memory. It's not used in his life or his studies."

"His memory is good? What's the best way? " I asked, not understanding. At the same time, he had a feeling that this Zhang Xiaokang was not simple.

He seemed to have a kind of pride of "the whole world is drunk I wake up alone, the whole world is murky I clear" …

He didn't want to be in the company of others because everyone was a fool in his eyes.

Xu Haoqing: "His ex-girlfriend didn't explain it clearly. She just said that he can clearly remember what happened in the past. Let's go in and ask."

When we entered the interrogation room again, Zhang Xiaokang looked at us impatiently. "What else do you want?"

Xu Haoqing: "I heard that you have a good memory, right?"

Zhang Xiaokang laughed out loud, "What, is it illegal to have a good memory as well?"

"Be more honest, just say whatever I ask you."

"What if I don't say anything? Can you give me more punishment? I'll spend the rest of my life with you. " Zhang Xiaokang refused to cooperate.

"Hey bro, are you feeling lonely because your memory is too good?" I asked.

Zhang Xiaokang did not say anything, keeping a smile on his face.

If you don't use oil and salt, you won't use force... This guy was a bit tricky.

Li Fengyun suddenly said, "I understand."

Xu Haoqing and I stared at him, not understanding what he was trying to say.

Unexpectedly, Zhang Xiaokang, who was previously a mischievous stone, became interested.

"What do you know?"

Li Fengyun: "You are out of place with the outside world, you look down on your classmates and colleagues because your memory is better than theirs. You can remember more things, but it is this kind of memory that causes you to fall into trouble. What worries you is that you can remember more unpleasant experiences, right?"

The calm Zhang Xiaokang finally had a change. He stared at Li Fengyun, and after a few seconds of silence, he said, "What's your name? You don't look as stupid as the two of them. "

Oh? In other words, what Li Fengyun said just now had the approval of Zhang Xiaokang?

This Zhang Xiaokang was indeed troubled because his memory was too good and he could remember more unpleasant experiences?

Li Fengyun: "You don't need to know my name. You only need to know that you're not the only one with a good memory. I'm the same as you."

Hearing Li Fengyun's words, Zhang Xiaokang's eyes lit up …

"You are like me? You have a memory like mine? Can you remember what happened before? Good or bad? "Really?"

Li Fengyun nodded, "Indeed, I am the same as you. It's just that my memory may not be as good as yours, so I'm less troubled than you are, but I can understand you. Zhang Xiaokang, be honest. It might not be a good thing to keep some words to yourself. "

I don't know if Li Fengyun's memory is really that good, but it's obvious that he has persuaded Zhang Xiaokang to do so.

"Ai," Zhang Xiaokang sighed, "I am not alone. I still have companions. This world is not fair to us …"

I don't quite understand. His memory is good, so why would he say that the world is unfair?

Li Fengyun took out his cigarette and glanced at Xu Haoqing. Xu Haoqing nodded, and then he passed the cigarette to Zhang Xiaokang.

After lighting up the cigarette, Zhang Xiaokang took a few deep breaths and said, "Let me tell you all about your troubles."

"Do you know that people with good memory can be very painful? "For people like me, living is torture. I'm too tired …"

A deep sense of fatigue emerged on Zhang Xiaokang's face. All of his previous calmness and smile had disappeared.

I felt his pain and helplessness...

"From a very young age, I knew that my memory was far beyond ordinary people. "I can easily remember the Tang poem my parents once recited. I can very easily remember the children's songs they sang, and I can also clearly remember the knowledge they taught me."

"At that time, I felt very good. My parents all praised me for being smart, and they all thought that I was the so-called prodigy. I was also very pleased with myself and enjoyed the praise of my parents and relatives."

"But it didn't take long before the drawbacks of good memory were revealed." Zhang Xiaokang said in pain.

"What's wrong with having a good memory?" I asked, puzzled.

"If you don't have my memory, you might think I'm being unreasonable, but to be honest, it really isn't. "Perhaps this disheveled little brother can understand me …"

The first time I experienced the drawback of having a good memory was when my dad went out for a drink and drank too much when he came back. It was as if he had become a different person, irritable, irritable, and full of obscenities. At that time, I did not know the meaning behind my father's curses, nor did I understand why he would turn into someone else after drinking.

"He woke up from his sleep and played with me as usual, but to me, he was so scary. I was afraid of him, afraid that he would scold me and my mother for no reason at all. I kept my distance from him and dared not speak to him, and at the same time, I was afraid of my mother and the two of them fighting. I was two years old that year."

That was the first time. Once there was a first time, there would be a second time, and a third time … Once, I accidentally broke my father's new BP machine. My father flew into a rage, calling me a loser, calling me a prodigal, calling me not his own, calling me someone else's bastard with my mother. "That year, I was only four years old.

"Other than my dad, my mom sometimes lost her temper. That time, she couldn't find the wrong place for the cosmetics she bought. She insisted that I had lost it and scolded me thoroughly, as if I really wasn't their son but was a burden."

"It's not just my parents, but also those relatives. They clearly did something wrong and had to blame it on my head who was only a few years old. Did they think I didn't remember anything? Hehe, on the contrary, those scenes will never go away in my mind. I clearly remember their insults, their bullying! "

"Perhaps you all feel that I was a child back then, and the adults were just casually saying that. That's because you all don't have a good memory like me, so you can't remember others treating you badly."

"It's the same for the children who play by my side. They often do some weird things and refuse to admit it even after I'm done. But I remember, which child took my toy, which child stole my snack, which child fought with me …" I remember all of it clearly. How can such a person be friends with them? "

"A little bit bigger, and so are those other students. They didn't do well in the exam, so they just said that I affected their studies and copied down questions that they don't know how to do. In the end, they even had to blame me. It was the same in high school and college, when they did things in their lives that hurt me and pretended they didn't know it, but I remember them all! "

"Even Little Lian is the same. When Little Lian was with me, she wasn't as happy and happy as when she was with her previous boyfriend. Although she didn't say it, I could tell that the movie theater we went to together was the one her previous boyfriend went to frequently. The place we ate and dated together was also the place she went with her previous boyfriend … She pretends that nothing has happened, but I know that in her heart, there is no one like me! "

The Xiao Lian that Zhang Xiaokang spoke of was his ex-girlfriend.

Zhang Xiaokang was no longer calm. He was a little agitated.

"Do you know, just because I have a better memory than others, they hurt me so much that I can never forget them? As soon as I close my eyes, I remember someone saying something to hurt me in a certain scene in a certain year, and I think about the malice those guys had towards me, and I remember it all the time, I can't forget it at all. Everyone I know treats me like that, and they say bad things in certain situations, and they pretend to be innocent after the fact, and they make fun out of me, and how do they get along with each other? I don't want to be friends with them, I hate hypocritical them, hate my family, hate my colleagues, hate my classmates, hate everyone I meet! "

Obviously, Zhang Xiaokang's thoughts were extreme.

Perhaps it really was just as he said, his memory was much better than that of an ordinary person's. He could remember a joke from many years ago, could remember some details about Xiao Lian's previous boyfriend, and could also remember his parents' criticism and education when he was a child …

Whether or not what others did to him was truly malicious, at least he said so much, and never mentioned the kindness of others to him.

If his parents really didn't love him and hated him, how could he grow up like this?

From this, I think of other relatives, classmates, colleagues, I think, Zhang Xiaokang only selectively memorized the bad things that others treat him, and did not take into account their little benefits.

On the other hand, I sympathized with him a little, and I felt sorry for him.