Chapter 251

Episode 251: Does it have meaning? (5)

I don’t particularly want to leave my mark on this world. Because I’m not so attached to this world that I want to be remembered as myself and not as an ‘evil knight.’

In the same vein, I don’t want to gain unnecessary sympathy by revealing my situation. This was all the more so because I knew that it would be very easy for them to have empathy for me and become lighter than their desire for profit.

What if the enemy ship I bought by telling my situation brings valuable clues?

What if I could sway the heart of someone who has no intention of killing me, but who might know something?

If so, you can say it. Enough can be said.

I was a person whose desire to return home was greater than my pride.

[So... Isn’t this really crazy!? No matter what, you brought a soul from another world with you?! Even if there is a devil involved, this has clearly crossed the line!]

Aside from that... aren’t you really getting angry? I’m just... I’m just moderately shocked or like, ‘I feel sorry for you, tsk.’ I thought they would just give me a sympathy vote.

“...I thought you hated me.”

[That was when I mistook you for the first devil’s vessel!]

“It won’t be any different now.”

[different! It’s different! Anyway, it’s different!]

That’s right, the appearance that Yukgui showed in the past could be defined as blunt, harsh, undesirable, and hostile.

He didn’t have the power to kill me directly, nor did he have the will to kill others by fanning the flames, so I just left him alone, and that person really hated me.

[Chaaaaam me. It’s really absurd. What bring souls from another world? bet? Are you kidding me!? You’re not harming yourself, right?! I’m already hearing the devil’s voice!? It’s just so bad, it sucks! It’s so bad, I’m so sick of it!!]

Right now, I clearly remember the arguments that Yuk-gwi made, such as asking me to eat porridge because I don’t want to eat it, so I don’t want to see him begging me to lie down and sleep....

I contrast with those moments. The list of sentences made the back of my head itch. What can I say, I feel embarrassed because I got a reaction I didn’t expect.

[Who is the original owner of that body? He’s a devil, even if he’s a devil, what else is he?!!]

Isn’t that voice too loud? If this continues, will all the kids wake up?

I glanced around at the raised tone of Yukgui’s voice. It was out of fear that the mountain forces or priests—some of whom were staying at the entrance of the cave—would wake up.

[It’s okay to ask others for help because you don’t have the confidence to clean up the devil’s shit. Good! Shouldn’t you at least have chosen someone from the same world?! Why am I a person from another dimension?!]

Fortunately, among the misfortunes, no one has woken up yet. I think it’s because Yuk-gwi’s words only sound loud to me, but in reality, they’re just like a chick squeaking. It’s a real blessing.

[and you! Either way, it’s a problem! Why are you keeping it to yourself? Do you think that if you just wait patiently, others will treat you accordingly?! I didn’t say it, but I have all my heart in it. Did you know that would happen? Are you a faggot?!]

It’s really a blessing, but aren’t the sparks flying all the way to me now?

[Are you listening to me, you idiot?]

“...I’m listening.”

The way she screams and then can’t control her temper and starts pounding on people around her reminds me of my grandmother who passed away. So I barely suppressed the anger that was subconsciously trying to come out.

A few mistakes made in the process... Well, I don’t think it matters since I don’t seem to have noticed.

[Then why don’t you tell me!]

“Because even if I tell you, my situation won’t take priority...?”

[That’s...!]

No, but it’s really hard to speak informally.

As soon as I explained the situation, I rolled my eyes at the concept that was inadvertently trying to be solved. Crack. Yuk-gwi, speechless, pounded on the rock as if he were angry.

[...That’s right.]

It hurts like that.

I glanced at the rock surface where the six ears were perched. The nest is piled with dry reeds and the area underneath is covered with soft moss, but I don’t know why they leave it in that place and hit that specific spot. Doesn’t it hurt when you tap?

[Because the sorrow of one world and one life has different weights.]

While I was thinking that, the Six Ghosts lowered their heads gloomily. The head buried between the gathered fins resembles a child squatting down with its hands on its knees.

[...is that why you ran away?]

“...yeah.”

A turtle a little bigger than my palm is so cute.

While I was thinking about that, I realized too late that the conversation was leaking into Samcheonpo. You can’t even wake up the kids like this!

“So what is the answer?”

[I’ve been thinking about this for a while, but you really speak in a cheesy way, regardless of the situation.]

“...I don’t mean to argue, but when I first woke up in this body, I didn’t know there was a devil in this body. But why hasn’t the devil disappeared? Does this also follow those details?”

[Oh, that’s not it. That’s just because the world is different.]

“...What does it mean?”

[So... the expedient itself is activated thanks to ‘your soul’, but since the devil belongs to a different order, the rule is not perfectly reflected.]

I heard all that and thought.

What are you talking about?

[How should I explain this?]

As if it sensed my frustration, Yukgui tapped the ground with its fin.

[Your world is a world that uses cognition as the definition of existence. Not us. This is number 1.]

“Yes.”

[Also, according to the law mentioned above, there is nothing that you are not aware of. Not us. This is number 2.]

“Yes.”

[Then what remains of the contradiction between the spear that pierces everything and the shield that blocks everything? It is at this point that ‘concealment of ignorance’ is born. Concealment of ignorance that exists but does not exist.]

“...Does this mean that it seems to be gone but is still there?”

[Exactly. Until you recognize it, it doesn’t exist. But it hasn’t disappeared completely. You are just a shield, ‘pretending not to exist.’]

Only then did I seem to understand a little.

“...But even when I was completely unaware of its existence, someone felt demonic energy in me.”

But if what the Six Ghosts say is true, then why did my first meeting with the Inquisitor take that form? At that time, I only thought of the demon on my right arm as a setting and did not even consider it real, so why on earth did the Inquisitor sense magical energy in me?

[That’s because the status is different. You may say you used the world’s rules, but in the end, you are the one who uses them, so you are a soul. Wouldn’t that be a problem if all the great evils were covered by that? On the contrary, I am surprised that you have narrowed it down to this point.]

My question was roughly resolved with that afterword. It’s not that complaints didn’t build up, but I couldn’t say anything because those were the rules of the world.

[Well, that’s not important. It’s almost certain that I brought you here to use the cloak of ignorance. I don’t know about you, but... after hearing the truth about your body, I became even closer to the devil. If you don’t save it, you could be discovered from a hundred miles away?]

“...That’s not good news.”

[I told you. If you know, you can’t change it.]

It’s a plague. It’s good that curiosity has been resolved, but it’s also surprising that it leads to poison. Is this correct? Can I really go home?

“... Could that be the reason why the being who dragged me here didn’t give me any explanation?”

Then I suddenly remembered the system that didn’t say a word even when I begged. I pondered that unnatural silence.

Up until now, I had dismissed it as a cruel, selfish, and heartless bastard who was destroying people... but was there perhaps a reason for that silence?

[The probability of that happening is high. Are you really the kind of person who asks someone to clean up their own poop without even explaining it? If that’s really true, that bastard deserves to be beaten to death.]

“...I see.”

I exhaled in extreme frustration. I don’t know what emotions are hidden in each thread of breathing that is disorganized.

“So that’s why.”

However, one thing is certain....

Among the harsh labels given to those who are hiding behind the system, the accusation of being cold and heartless may be taken back.

So, if you get a chance to talk to him after everything is over. And he really wanted to tell me, but only for my sake – Oh, of course, I want to say that he was a fool for a long time, even though his method of doing it was bad. I wonder if kidnapping her at will and eating her until the end is for my own good. If you really had it for me, you should have brought you at least or asked for consent. I think you can consider me a ‘f*ck who ate everything.’

If there ever comes a chance for the truth to come to light.

[...Could it be that you feel sorry for the bastard who called you?]

“I’m not that pushy.”

I’m just trying to say that I understand the choice of the person who crossed the line to save the five people if he apologizes to me for making the sacrifice.

And understanding and forgiveness are two different things.

After all, my life was so fucked up, should I forgive him? Five people may have been saved, but I was sacrificed?

Sacrifice is worthwhile when you volunteer it yourself. A sacrifice decided by someone else cannot be called a sacrifice. It’s a living sacrifice.

“We should kill half of them.”

Therefore, that bastard will get a bit of a beating. No, you will be treated like hell. As I just said, understanding and forgiveness are two different things.

[Yes, that’s how it should come out.]

Meanwhile, the six ears shrugged their shells at my firm response.