852 Thirty-first Day of the Purple Moon (8) - The Light of Regeneration

"He wants to talk to Asta, so I guided him. If you don't mind, I'd like to be present."

In a calm voice, Gazran-Rutim explained to me that way.

Next to the Dora family's mother house, there's no one else. The burning lights were also far away in the dark, and I decided to raise my suspicions first.

"What the hell happened at such a late hour? Aren't the nobles all celebrating New Year's Eve on 'Day of Doom'?

"Yes, I was also invited to a feast at Castel Genos, but I said I didn't feel well, so I took my seat off."

Speaking that way, Fermes peeled off the hood of his cape.

Lowering the collar roll further down to the neck exposes the usual endless face to night air.

"That's how after I got out of Castle Genos, I asked my guards to drop me the bounce bridge...... I didn't even think Asta was heading out to Dareim this year, so I just ate some time. Accommodation Town and Dalaim are a long way from home."

"Shh, did you walk out of Inn Town? Why, until then..."

"Asta and I wanted to talk."

Fermes smiled fluffily and pitifully.

Ai-Fa, who was blinking both eyes like a cat in the dark night, raises her voice quietly, "But".

"And for that, you falsely said, you escaped the banquet? As a diplomat in Wang Du, would such imitation be allowed?

"I didn't feel well, it's true. I wasn't comfortable enjoying the feast at all.... although, of course, tomorrow, we will be overlapping our apologies to Lord Melfried and Lord Aug."

That's what Fermes has been staring at me for.

"At the feast two days ago, I was supposed to mess up Asta's mind a lot, wasn't I? That was not my concern."

"Yeah, well, I'm sure, I'm supposed to worry everyone... but is that all you're saying is that I've been able to get out to places like this at this hour of the day?

"For me, it was necessary."

Fermes lowered his eyebrows like trouble, placing his hand around his heart when he was a white fish.

"That night, I apologized to Asta, and Asta accepted it. But I think Asta had a dark eye somewhere until after the feast. And then with all the time I've had, my breasts are getting heavier and heavier... and I can't stay or stand anymore. With this feeling, we cannot wait for the renewal of the Sun God. Before the year is over, we should apologize again to Asta… with such a single heart, we are going to rush this far"

As I tried to respond, Fermes shook his head gently and whispered it.

"I know. That night, too, Ai-Fa said. There's no point in saying an apology without understanding what's wrong.... Yes, it is. I still don't understand why Asta was upset. [M] But I understand that Asta was hurt by my actions. That doesn't make me uncomfortable. Imagine if Asta is still suffering... and her heart hurts so that she can be tightened."

Hazel Eye of Fermes had a glowing light.

The face is the time of a poor maiden mourning in sadness.

"What sin have I committed? How the hell am I supposed to apologize to Asta? If beating me would clear Asta's mind..."

"Hey, wait a minute. You can't hit Fermes like that."

I managed to forcefully interrupt the words.

"Besides, I could totally get better. Don't worry, it's no use. See, you totally got your eyes back on, didn't you?

"In this dark, I don't know. Besides, I'm not good at seeing people's moods."

"But you were worried that I seemed a lot depressed, weren't you?

"That's how deeply depressed Asta was."

Fermes slightly hissed his brilliant brow.

Somewhere - it's a look like a child is shaking.

"As Gazran-Rutim says, I guess I have an unusual part. That's why I don't understand the obvious. But still, I don't think it's okay to hurt Asta. If Asta hurts, I'm sad and painful, too. How am I supposed to apologize to Asta?

"I'm in trouble. My feelings are exactly as I told you that night. I've had a lot to think about since then, but the fundamental part hasn't changed."

After I said it that way, I made Fermes laugh.

"Just one thing...... I seem to have had a mess of feelings for Fermes and for the 'people without stars'. We wanted to tell Fermes that soon."

"Yes. What kind of story is that?

"Right. I still haven't sorted out what to talk about… I'm apparently afraid of something related to People Without Stars."

Fermes was listening to me with a serious eye.

It is a rare facade for Fermes, who is fluffy as a spirit or something at all times.

"I still don't know what that is, either. I seem to be afraid of someone related to" The People Without Stars "... they don't even know what this looks like."

"... isn't that causing a cloudy memory?" A people without stars "is a being guided by the power of the four great gods to the continent Ameshorn. If a weak person is exposed to God's power, it seems natural to have some confusion."

Fermes said that in a very quiet voice.

"In my research, I discovered multiple historical figures who I could presume to be" a people without stars ". But there are many words left behind. I'm guessing it doesn't come from falsehoods or misunderstandings… it comes from mismemories or the disappearance of memories"

"Different memories, lost memories... I guess I forgot something important, so..."

"It's just a guess. The people I see as" the people without the stars "will never be able to prove that they were really who they were. So I guess it's like I'm... twisting my head to a mystery without an answer from heaven."

Fermez's poor mouth makes me smile so lonely.

It was also Fermes' first look.

"So I guess I can't even get rid of Asta's misery. It makes me feel painful about my helplessness."

"That's not true. Besides, this is only a question of how you feel about a people without stars. I think we should think separately from how I feel about Fermes."

"... feelings for me?

"Yes. You were the first to explain that, weren't you? I had a mess about how I felt about People Without Stars and about Fermes. As for People Without Stars, nothing is a responsible story for Fermes, so I don't think you need to worry about it."

That said, I made him laugh again.

"More than that, I would like Fermes to look at what you do. As for you, it's all Fermes' fault."

"Yes. What is that?

"So that's what we talked about two days ago. I was as comfortable as I was with Fermes, but I felt reminded that it was an illusion."

Fermes frowned again feeling a little shanky.

"But it's true that I like St. Alesh's ordeal the most out of a few stories. I didn't mean to lie about anything."

"But you did hide that it was a story about The People Without Stars, didn't you?

"There is no certainty as to whether St. Alesh is truly a 'people without stars'. That's just my reasoning. If I told this story publicly in Wang Du, I might be imprisoned."

"And is it jail time?

"Yes, it is very unacceptable in the current king's capital to apply Saint Alesh, the hero of the kingdom's generation, to the concept of the people of the east, the" people without stars ". His Majesty the King today has been repelled from his manoeuvres and lessons, beginning with astrology."

"I see. But you weren't hiding that story from me for fear that someone would accuse you, were you? Two days ago, you made a light confession. So you wanted to see how I felt and how I would react to the 'ordeal of St. Alesh'?

"... extra prior knowledge gives you a prediction. So isn't it natural to hide it?

"There it is," I laughed bitterly.

"You really cared if Rico and the others' performances included 'the ordeal of St. Alesh', didn't you? So, knowing it wasn't included there, I now asked the travelers who visited Castle Town to reveal 'The Hardship of St. Alesh'. Thinking back, wasn't it one of the fabric stones that made Aug dress up as St. Alesh at the masquerade? Sooner or later, as I'm interested in the ordeal of St. Alesh, you've been plotting this since then... and it seems to me that way."

"... is that my sin?

"It's never a sin. I'm just impressed with what people are around me."

That's how I ended up disclosing my feelings without leaving them.

"It's just that you're so eager to find out about People Without Stars that I personally don't have this kind of interest in you either... at the feast two days ago, that's how I was reminded. I'm so sorry to hear that. I missed you so much."

"I missed you......?

"I missed you. It was a woodland feast, and I felt like my distance from you had shrunk a little, but that was just a mistake, too. I'm really already disappointed from the bottom of my mind."

Fermes was staring at me like he was going to eat in.

There seemed to be different emotions swirling in those eyes - but, you know, it wasn't a soul-sucking look.

"So today, I am so glad that Fermes went out of his way to rush us to a place like this. Now it's not my mistake, is it?

"... Yes. I wasn't worried about Asta. Considering that Asta was going to finish the year with such a shady look on her eyes... her chest was going to rip."

Fermes stepped out fluffy.

I = fa almost moved tingly, but he seems to have dared to miss it. As a result, I was to be held by Fermes.

"How should I behave now? Whenever I go on researching People Without Stars, is it going to hurt Asta?

"I don't know that, and I have no right to direct Fermes' actions. However, if Fermes would consider my mood at all...... could you refrain from imitating it like an accident anymore?

"Okay. I promise."

From about a few centimeters down, Fermes is staring at me.

That's the first look I showed you. And in his mouth, when he was a maiden who had broken his love heart, a smile was floating.

"I don't want to hurt Asta. To that feeling, there is no lie. However, I am not good at drawing on the feelings of others… If you have made any mistakes, please point them out on the spot."

"Yes, I understand."

At that time, from the square, he said, "Hey!" I heard voices.

"Are the Astas still that way? The east sky is turning white!

Fermez, who released my hand, put back on the hood that was ripped off behind him.

"Sounds like the Sun God is going to be regenerating. Now, if you'll excuse us."

"Huh? If we go for Castle Town now, won't we be celebrating sunrise on the way down the street?

"... but you wouldn't want Asta to have the light of regeneration with me, either, would you?

Fermes has been staring at me in the face.

I just laugh.

"I don't see how I can come to such a conclusion. Fermez is really not good at drawing on the other person's mood."

"So you've said that over and over again"

"Let's all share the joy. If you want to hide your face, hurry up."

Fermes had an unusual smile like a toddler, then pulled the collar roll up to around his nose.

Ai-Fa and Gazran-Rutim, who have always been silent, and Gemd, also take them, half-running back to the square.

What you see to the east is the shadow of Morga's mountain.

Because the sky was white, its ridges seemed so black.

Grandma Ziva and the toddlers who were resting in the house are also summoned, and those who were snoring in the rug are woken up. More than a hundred people were thus set to stare into the eastern sky.

Eventually - Morga's ridge was twisted by the white dawn light.

The Sun God has regenerated it.

The Radajids knelt on the rug and began chanting something to the bottom.

Genos and the people of the South say, "To the regeneration of the Sun God!," he wiggles his drink.

Schmiral-Lillin and Vina Ruu-Lilin were fitting together.

Rimi-Lou and Tara are rubbing their eyes and taking your hand. It still seems to be the people of the south who are showing the busiest appearance.

I let the people around me gently shake Ai-Fa's hand so they wouldn't distract me.

"Happy dawn. I'm happy to be able to celebrate the New Year with Ai-Fa this year."

"... what are you talking about, you"

Ai-fa smiled at me as I shook my hand back hard.

"We're having a new year in the same place this year, next year and the next. Is that what the kingdom is all about?

"Yeah, you're right. Of course, I'm happier."

"... if it's you, it's better to live your days without giving in to any misery"

Eye-Fa's eyes looked at Fermes, who slammed me on the other side.

Fermes stares at the beauty of the Sun God as he narrows his eyes blindly in the shadow of the hood. That hazel eye had a very beautiful light leaping on it.

After I see it, I turn back to Ai-Fa.

Even more beautiful lights were leaping in the blue eyes of Ey-Fa.

No, the very existence of the Ai-Fa is as if it were glowing.

That figure reminded me of a nightmare I had a long time ago.

It is that nasty nightmare in which the memory of death is repeated time and time again in a world burning in crimson.

In that nightmare, I end up jumping into a golden glow.

Now Ai-Fa was glowing, as if it were the golden glow itself at that time.

(So I can believe I'm right)

I have no idea what "People Without Stars" is or who it is that floats up on black beads.

But still, I was able to meet Ai-Fa.

I would never think this fate was wrong. So I will believe in my destiny and be able to fight through whatever ordeal may befall me concerning People Without Stars.

Around me, admirers raise their voices of joy.

It was Ai-Fa, after all, who led me to such a happy place.

I'm standing in this place now because I met Ai-Fa. That joy and happiness had given me strength in every corner.

(Now, what year is waiting for you)

I turned my gaze to the end of the east, gripping Ai-Fa's hand gently.

The Sun God, covered in the mountains of Morga, was illuminating the world brightly so as to bless the fate of the people.