977 Preface ~ Beyond Guren ~

In a nightmare, I was burned in flames.

Of course, in a nightmare, it is impossible to find out that this is a dream.Also, I was burned by the flames of Guren, and I was suffering so much that it was difficult to recognize the difference between dreams and reality.

The sight is stained with bright red and gold, and the flames are constantly stirring up my existence to a single grain of cells.

The next visit is the agony of hell, crushed by the rubble of a broken building.

My body is scattered throughout my consciousness, melting into flames.

But there's no peace of death there, and when I realize it, I'm struggling in the flames again.It was a chain of torment that would never end in eternal annihilation.

(Why...)

The consciousness of an individual named me, who remained only slightly, thinks blurrily in the narrow space of anguish.

(Why should I feel this pain again...?What does this suffering mean...?

In my hometown, I was doomed in flames.

Afterwards, he was given a second chance at a place called Amshorn on the continent.

I have thought that this might have been the case with the Western god Selva, the god of fire.

The first time I looked up at the idols of the Western gods in the cathedral of the castle town - such an unspeakable flash of thought rushed around my heart.

However, it was my own choice to jump into the burning Turtle Shop.

I was not made to die by the Western gods.

Then the Western God was literally the God of salvation who saved my stupid soul and sent it to this world - that's how I dreamed.

The idols of the Western gods looked divine enough to inspire me to dream such a dream.

I only remembered the memories of burning to death by fire.

I don't resent Western gods.

Rather, I sincerely thank you for giving me the destiny to rebuild my life in a world filled with hope and delight.

That's why I was never lost in living with my precious compatriots as a son of Western God.

I am able to live happily ever after in that land, on the continent of Amsterdam.

I found the irreplaceable existence of Ai-Fa, and I was able to deepen ties with various people to find the meaning of my life.I can live every day with the same happiness as when I lived in my hometown surrounded by family and childhood friends.

And yet, why...

(What does this suffering mean...?If you're going to punish me for being stupid, that's fine... if you're going to have to experience this suffering as a price for a happy life... I'll get over it many times... I've been able to deal with people I think are important...)

In the corner of my consciousness, which is about to shatter, I think so.

But...

Something said, "No."

This is not punishment.

It's just a road we have to go through.

There will be no real happiness unless you walk through this path.

Someone felt like something was whispering like that.

- Someone is smiling behind the red and golden flames.

Someone who looks very familiar - and yet sees it for the first time - is not familiar.

I can't see my face.

Even though I can't see my face, I can understand that I'm smiling.

And then...

There were clear red and black burn marks on some of the invisible faces.

The moment I perceived it...

My consciousness was shattered with terrible fear and awe, and gently held back by warm, pure white light.

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"Hey, come on, Aster!You can't hear me!?

In the darkness, there was a glowing beauty.

Even though it's so beautiful, its face has an urgent expression on it.

Threatened by the aftermath of a terrible nightmare, I shouted, "Ah..."

"It's okay... I'm okay, Ey-Fa..."

"It's okay!You are....!

I disappeared, and instead my whole body was warmly wrapped up.Ey-Fa covered me up and hugged me.

The warmth of Ai-Fa, the sweet smell and the power to make the roses clear my consciousness.I gently touched that soft golden brown hair as I chewed the happiness I could get along with Ai-Fa.

"I'm sorry, I'm worried... what happened to me...?

"... you were suffering while sleeping.It's like when you had a high fever in "Amshorn's Breath"..... "

The faintly trembling voice of Ai-Fa was poured into my ear from a very close place.

"And you've only been in the same position once before... have you ever been in trouble with nightmares again?

"Hmm... you remember that long ago...?

"How can I forget!You've suffered so much!

My cheeks were squeezed even harder, and Eye-Fa's cheeks were pressed against my right cheek.

I'll stroke Ei Fa's head while being tasted with unparalleled happiness and pain.

"Yeah, I'm sorry... but I'm on the verge of breaking my belly, so could you relax a little bit more...?

Ey-Fa woke herself up.

And with his angry, crying face, he gently touched my chest.

"You were the one who suffered, but I got upset again.... doesn't it hurt anywhere?

"Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry, I'm sorry.... and thank you. "

I woke myself up on the bedding.

Once I left, Ey-Fa quickly approached me and peered into my eyes.

"Hmm. Your eyes are full of power.... I don't think you're even getting a fever. "

And the palm of Ai-Fa gently touched her forehead.

That warmth makes me happy again.

"When you looked the same before, you said you dreamed of losing your life in the old world.... have you had the same nightmare this time?

"Yeah, it's a dream that burns in flames and crushes me.... there's only one thing that's different. "

"What's the point?"Ey-Fa's nose was about to collide with her.

"It came out in my dreams.Look, Nachala's magic trick reminds me... of someone's phantom with a burn on his face. "

"Did you find out who that person was?

"No, it was the same as last time.Even though I know you're smiling with a burn, I can't recognize your nose.I think it's just a lean figure with a back length of Eye-Fa. "

"... don't you know your face even though you know that much?

"Yeah, I'm sorry.Maybe... my head is refusing to recognize me. "

As soon as I shaken my body, Ey-Fa's hand fell on my forehead.

"I don't have a fever.... is your body really okay?You must have had the same nightmare when you suffered from the Amshorn Breath. "

"Yeah, I'm fine. My body is fine, and my mind is better."

It's not a lie.My heart was quickly healed by the presence of Ai-Fa.

"I suppose that was the case last time... but it was a painful recoil that made me feel so happy.How happy I am to meet Ai-Fa..... "

When I chewed my lips, I hugged my body again.

This time, I heard the strength increase or decrease, and the belly won't hold back.I could only feel the warmth and sweet fragrance of Ai-Fa.

Since I was still before I tied up my hair, my long golden brown hair naturally flows down to my back.I glanced at my fingertips with all my heart.

"I'm sure that dream has some meaning.But whatever that means, I'm fine.... because this is how Ei Fa stays with me. "

"... I will never let you go."

As I whispered like that, an incredibly sweet pain burst into my right ear.

I said, "Whoa!"He shouted loudly and unexpectedly squeezed Ai-Fa's shoulders.

"Nah, what?You just bit me in the ear!?

"Hmm. Something made me want to do it asexually.Without a doubt, I didn't put so much effort into the wound. "

"Well, that's not the problem.I don't think you should bite your family's ears!

"... have you ever had teeth on my neck with you?

"That's when we talked!Anyway, don't be ridiculous, my lord.

I put my hands on Ei Fa's shoulders, and I tried to keep it away, but I didn't let Ei Fa's body move slightly, holding my torso softly.

"Hmm... I think it's so cute that you're making such a mess."

"Well, that's why you don't repeat what your family hates, right?

"Hmm... if you hate me so much, I think you should restrain yourself..."

Every time Ey-Fa makes a sound, my ear's skin startles.That's why I have a dangerous distance between my mouth and my ear.

Just imagining when those cherry-colored lips and healthy white teeth would ravage my ears again made my spine scary.

Of course, it's not because it's uncomfortable, but because it's pregnant with the opposite feeling.I had the ultimate fear that I could not imagine how violently my actions were shaking my reason.

"For the time being, why don't you get to work in the morning?

"... it's not a rush yet.I want to bite a little bit of the joy that made you feel better now. "

"And don't bite your ears at the same time?

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"Why do you keep quiet!?

When I was alone, the black shadow moved slightly at the edge of my eyes.

The black cat sachi, who was resting in the blanket, peeked loudly at his face.

Sachi, help me!Our parents are so upset!

The sachi just cried, "I don't know," but it didn't seem like it had a strong will to say "I don't know."

In any case, that morning, the curtain was opened in an unusual disturbance.

Was it a revelation that I had a nightmare on this day?Or was it a coincidence - and I couldn't tell after a few days of commotion.