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Then Gemdo was forced to train his sword.

The year of her separation from Vermes began when she was 13 years old.

I can't think of a reason in particular. However, I couldn't stay still.

Fortunately, the master of the mansion also allowed me to do so.The mansion also needed guards, so I thought it wouldn't be in vain.The guards of the Mansion have been the guides and have trained the young Gemdo well.

"What, are you willing to give me a name as a swordsman?"Even a swordsman can only be respected by his bloodline.I can't even become a knight after all this bloodshot from the lower beast. "

The first son, who was the same age as Gemdo, laughed at him like that.

He is a man who devotes a lot of time to studying for a government position.Since his father held the position of assistant foreign affairs officer, he was often accompanied by his father to the capital.

Well, the Duke of Veheim is part of the capital city, but it takes a day to get from here to the royal palace and castle town, even by Totos' car.When they headed for the King's City, they wouldn't be back for a few days, so Gemdo couldn't help but train.

(...... I'm sure they won't ask Master Vermes to visit them even if they go to the capital.)

The "Tower of the Wise", where Vermes lived, also existed right next to the palace of the capital.It was difficult for Gemdo to imagine what kind of place it was - it was easy to imagine that Hermes, surrounded by a pile of books, was studying while his eyes were shining.

(He really enjoyed reading books.)

Or was it the result of the fact that Vermes was not blessed by his family?

Hermes lost her mother when she was seven years old and was neglected by her father and brother.As he said, he was also neglected by his servants. After three years, Gemdo knew it was true.In this fallen nobleman's mansion, immersion in books was the only foundation of the heart for the sick second son.

(But... even if you were blessed by your family, your temper might not have changed.)

That's what Gemdo thought.

Vermes was ill and often laying down, but he already had a relaxed atmosphere since he was seven years old.I didn't pay attention to the events of this world, and it was the history of the Kingdom depicted in the books, myths and fairy tales that seemed to find my place - such a remote boy.

I can't even imagine Gemdo, such as Vermes, who is not interested in books.In the first place, Vermes had been reading books in his bedroom, even if he hadn't been sick.And it shall come to pass, when the servants are troubled, that they shall bring forth many books from the library of the city: and they shall read them forthwith, and bring forth new books.The last three years have been repetitive.I was so worried that I might get a fever because I was reading books like that.

Anyway--the current Vermes is sure to live a satisfying life.

Thinking like that, Gemdo felt a lot of joy and a lot of loss at the same time.

I'm glad that Vermes is happy.Even if he couldn't confess his true feelings, Gemdo still favored Vermes.If Vermes is having a good day, it was a pleasure for Gemmud.

However, on the other hand - the sense of loss that Hermes had become out of reach was quietly harsh on Gemmud's mind.

Maybe Gemdo won't be able to get along with Vermes for the rest of his life.As I said, it was not an exaggeration, because the infirm Vermes might be young and give back his soul.

And for Gemdo, parting was not unfamiliar: three years ago, he lost his mother and decided to break up with friends and acquaintances who lived nearby.I couldn't even visit the homes of my acquaintances who lived in the downtown area, but Jemud doesn't know what it would be like to imitate them like that.At the time of his mother's death, when he lost his place of residence and was taken back to the cathedral as an orphan, Gemdo felt he had lost all his previous life.When I met with people I knew from the past, I couldn't even think of what to say.

(I will be driven away by my fate... and I will return my soul without doing anything.)

There was nothing firm about Gemdo.I thought I loved my mother, but my mother's spellbinding words, "Someday the Lord will do something about it...", made me feel empty.The most important thing for a mother is that she hides it - that is, her true feelings didn't appear to Gemdo at all.So Gemdo may have grown up to be a person who doesn't want to know people's true feelings or want to know his own.

(So I was treated as a servant by a man who was supposed to be a father, and hated by a man who was supposed to be a brother, but I felt no bitterness.)In the first place, because I wasn't interested in people's hearts... do I not feel any human-like pain?)

Gemdo's heart was in a daze.Instead of being dull with pain and suffering, he is dull with joy and happiness.

That's why it was difficult for Gemmud to get a real feel for the time he had spent with Vermes and the pain he had lost -- and as a result, he might have lost all of his feelings and entered the sword training.

(Is this a matter of regret?If this is the parting of my life, I should have revealed my true feelings at the end... do I regret it like that?)

Neither did Gemdo.

In the first place, what kind of things are you really interested in Vermes?I don't even know that.

Gemdo just didn't want to know what Vermes really meant.

How does Vermes feel about himself as a half-brother? He just didn't want to know.I was just afraid that by knowing that, I would lose my peaceful space.And it was only after Vermes left the Mansion that I experienced such feelings, so there was no opportunity for Gemdo to say anything.

(But in any case, our fate has been divided.Then, no matter what you regret... it's nothing like that.)

While misleading himself like that, Gemdo lived a long time.

It was almost six years later, when Gemdo turned 19.

Hermes' brother died of lung disease.

The night before, complaining of chest pain and being nursed by the doctors, he vomited a lot of blood the next morning and returned his soul in a daze.

"Why! Why would anyone let him die without me?"What are you going to do, leave me alone in a house like this! "

And the master of the father's mansion was frantic three days and three nights, and made his servants afraid.

And on the morning of the fourth day, Gemdo was summoned to his room and his eyes poked down as if he were someone else.

"There's nothing better than to call back Vermes."He won't be able to live long anyway... but if he gets a government position, he'll be able to figure out a way to get a mate.I will give birth to a baby that will live longer than him, and make it a trail in this house. "

Then Gemmud was ordered to pick up Vermes at the [Tower of the Wise Men].

At that time, Gemdo's feelings were difficult to put into words.

For the first time in six years, Jemdo's heart was greatly disturbed by the exuberance of being connected to Vermeer, the insatiability of having to abandon her aspiration to become a bachelor, and the fact that she had to convey it with her own mouth.

(I wonder how disappointed Master Vermes will be.Is it really impossible to inherit your home while pursuing a bachelor's degree?)

With such troubles, Gemdo was set to make his way to the capital.

Leaving the territory of Duke Veheim for the first time in his life, he took a day in Toth's car to enter the territory of the capital of the kingdom - he presented the letter from his master to the guard and asked permission to meet with the "Tower of the Wise" Vermes.After all, the "Tower of the Wise Men" existed on the same property as the palace, and it was decided to wait half a day for forgiveness.

Eventually, it was guided by a huge stone tower.

Two soldiers stuck in front and back, climbing the stairs and passing through a room with no decoration.

So I waited for a while - at last, Vermes appeared.

"Hey, it's my first time, Gemdo."It's like a breathless disaster, and I'm glad to hear it. "

Even though it was the first time to meet again in six years, Vermes has been throwing such cheerful words without any formality at all.

Hermes, a 10-year-old child, has grown into a 16-year-old boy. Six years ago, Hermes, who was originally beautiful, grew into a beautiful woman.

Even though she is dressed in the uniform of a student in a dull color, it is as if she is shining.His pale hair was also long, and his eyes, which were intricately intertwined with green and brown, were even more mysteriously radiant.

"I'm glad that Master Vermes... looks so proud."

Gemdo was able to answer that much.

Vermes laughed thinly and graciously lifted his long frontal hair.

"Well then, I'll change my clothes a bit, so can you wait here?"It shouldn't take long. "

"Huh? What's a change of clothes...?"

"I was told in the letter that I would be taken home."In that case, I'll have to give you back your uniform. "

Having said that, Vermes smiled again like nothing happened.

"Well, my brother was no less weak than me, so I was prepared for such a day to come."...... if you had followed my advice, you would have lived a little longer. "

"Huh... what is advice...?"

"If you become a bachelor of the [Tower of Sages], you can overcome the disease with the latest medical treatment."I've been able to spend about two years without getting a fever.According to the doctor, the lungs were originally weak... and this was a kind of sickness inherited from the parents to the children.Neither I nor my brother inherited such a disease from my mother. "

With words like that, Vermes smiled like an evil spirit.

"Well, if you have both brothers as bachelors, you can't even let them inherit the house."As far as my father is concerned, my advice must have been a nuisance. [M]... but if you were to pull me home like this, maybe you should have let me be a bachelor.If you've been holding back for a few years, your brother could have gotten a stronger body.You can only see the things in front of you. "

"Felix, Master Felmes..."

"Oops, did Fanfan overstate it?"Well, forgive me for just one gossip.I will abandon my aspirations to become a bachelor and be drawn back home. "

Then, leaving Gemdo speechless, Vermes walked out of the room.

(After all, six years is... enough time to change people)

Formerly, Vermes was a strangely perceptive child, but he was not the kind of person who could say things like that when he ate people.And he wasn't a person with such a demonic smile.Seeing Vermes transformed, Gemdo became possessed by an unbelievable impatience.

(After all, have we gone astray somewhere?)

Such suspicion never left Gemdo for long.

With that in mind, Vermes returned to his family - to study for a government position on behalf of his brother.

Like his older brother, he would accompany his father to the capital and learn his duties as a diplomat.I heard that government positions are not very patriarchal, but if you don't have a path to learn about other duties, you probably have to learn from your parents.

Vermes really seemed to be getting tough, and he seemed to be having a tough life.

It seemed that the house was safe now, but within two months of Vermes returning, a flare had begun to appear.When Vermes and his father were in the Mansion's office, they often heard shouting.

"Don't be clever!"You just have to be quiet and do what I say! "

"Is it my job to be silent like a figurine around my father?"So what can we learn? ”

"Watch and learn, listen and learn!There will be even shallower things like you clutching your mouth at the meeting without even knowing what the foreign affairs officer is doing! "

"So if my opinion has been dismissed, it will be a shallow one."However, the members of the Jaguar mission have decided to incorporate my opinions.So what kind of inconvenience does it cause? "

Vermes never rattled his voice, but the clear instrumental voice resounded as well outside the door as his father's roar.

"Ah... but I was also your assistant to the Foreign Affairs Officer."Do you mean that if such human opinions are adopted, many people will be disgraced?If that's the case, I apologize. ”

Gemdo had been stealing his voice from outside the door, but it was not difficult to imagine that evil spirited smile.

Some time after such a father-child affair began to occur, Vermes and his father stopped acting together.According to other servants, Fermes was appointed as an adjunct to another foreign secretary at the instigation of his father's superiors.

(In other words... after only two months, Master Vermes has caught up with the Lord.)

Then her husband's father became even more rough.The amount of liquor has increased, and I have become a rough master, like throwing things at a rough-looking servant.

Vermes spends his days with the grace he deserves.The servants of the mansion were struck by the beauty and ingenuity of Vermes, and it seemed that it would further upset his father's nerves.

(Don't keep it that way.)

It was only a month after Fermes became his assistant that Gemde found out.

In the three months since Vermes returned to the Mansion, Gemdo has barely spoken enough to exchange greetings.Vermes has transformed his personality so much that he didn't feel like talking cheerfully like he did in the past.

Still, Gemdo got himself excited to speak to Vermes.

This is because I thought that the relationship between father and son would be twisted indefinitely.

Master Vermes, may I have a moment of your time?

That night, Gemdo was ready to visit Vermes's bedroom.

Even though he had just finished his dinner, Vermes had already read books on his bed.The figure overlapped with that of Vermes at a young age, making Gemdo slightly upset.

"Hey, this is the first time you've visited my bedroom.... or should I say it's the first time in six years? "

Vermes was already smiling like an evil spirit.

"Right now, books are interesting."Excuse me, but do you mind if I read it? "

“Yeah, that's fine. I sincerely apologize for interrupting Mr. Vermes' rest time.”

"It looks like you've been talking about the board for quite some time."... so, what can I do for you? "

Hermes said that in a carefree fashion, turning his eyes back to the book.

Gemdo shouted as he squeezed his heart again.

"I'd like to talk to you about Master Vermes and the Lord."It's too scary for a servant like me to hold his mouth shut... but shouldn't we give it a little thought to the Lord's feelings now? "

"What's your father's mood?" Thinking that you can't rely on me, you've been caught up in your position by your second son who was abandoned once? "

As the pages of the book rolled, Vermes shrugged his shoulders.

"I don't even think about this, even though I'm trying to humiliate my father."I was told to do everything in my power to get a good government position, so I acted just like that. "

"No, but..."

"Or should I have pretended to be incompetent to keep my father's face?"That would be an insult to my father.It would be the greatest disgrace for a father to be able to show mercy to his son. "

Without raising her face from the book, Vermes smiled slyly again.

Hermes, who once smiled like a mischievous boy, tormented Gemdo.Gemdo's heart was shaken by the thought that there was no longer a child anywhere with a cute, sick, and sometimes ill smile.

"However, at this rate, your relationship with the Lord will be torn apart."Hermes and the lord, who are only two family members, have made a mistake like this. "

"Gemdo says strange things, doesn't he?What kind of bond did you have between me and your father?I've always been neglected by my father....... Or have you forgotten all about that long ago? "

“No, that's never happened.But then again, in order to reconnect with the Lord-- "

"Bonding is the first time that both sides are connected by pulling each other together.My father would probably want me to inherit his trail, because if he were to destroy his house at his own expense, he wouldn't be able to die.That's why I'm doing everything I can to meet your expectations. "

Interrupting Gemdo's words, Vermes said so.

"Gemdo should have spoken to his father, not to me."Whether it's the survival of the house, your self-esteem, or whatever is important.I want to inherit it, but I don't think I can forgive a son who is more capable than I am.Whatever you want to do, you want to do what you want, but it's too good for the bugs to do it. "

"Is Master Vermes... still holding a grudge against him?"

"Did I kill my father?" That's another crazy thing to say, isn't it? "

Is that so? Aren't you angry that you were cut off from your path as a master by the Lord's order? "

Vermes sighed in a playful manner.

"It's impossible for a noble boy to aim for a bachelor's degree."After six years of forgiveness, I should rather thank my father. "

"... is that really what Master Vermes wants?"

In response to Gemdo's words, Vermes lifted his lips and said, "Heh."

"I feel like it's the first time I've ever been questioned by Gemdo."I thought you didn't care about the feelings of others. "

No, that 's--

"I've come a long way, so let me answer that."... of course, I mean it. Well, the life of the [Tower of Sages] was extremely comfortable, so if I told you that I didn't feel like sparing it, it would be a lie... but I've spent about six years in that place, and I've been feeling a little stuck. "

Without giving Gemmud a chance to put his words to the test, Vermes did so.

"Surrounded by mountains of books, it's like paradise to be able to live a life that only satisfies your intellectual curiosity.But I was feeling a little short.I mean, you know what? No matter how many books I read, no matter how close I get to the truth of this world, it's a fantasy that exists only in my head.Reading unexpected history books, myths, and fairy tales, I closed the book as I fell into the extreme of pleasure - I was surrounded by stone walls.Even though the gods, spirits and heroes in the book are so vividly chanting their world, I am only a tiny being locked in a stone room and filled with delusions.I'm craving to know everything about this world, but I'm actually just following the text of the book with my eyes.I was wondering if it was really possible to determine the truth about the world. ”

As if pursuing something drifting beyond the void, Vermes said it with an unquestionable sincerity, while flying his gaze far away.

"That's why I think it's a bad thing to step out into the outside world."Rather, if a disturbing birth loss like me were to step on it, the world would be more annoyed. "

"Master Vermes... is never born without loss."

When Gemmud managed to say that, Vermes lifted his lips again.

"You've been saying things that aren't in your mind a long time."Well, as a servant, I guess I have no choice but to behave like that. "

"No, I sincerely think so.There is no reason why Master Vermes should be so humiliated. "

"Why?" - Vermes slowly looked back at Gemdo.

Eyes mixed with green and brown radiance looked directly at Gemdo.

"No matter how I behave, I am born to be neglected by others.Gemdo doesn't really want to talk to me, does he? "

"There is no such thing. I..."

"It's okay." I've known your feelings for six years.... it's only natural that a bad master should be hated by his servants. "

It was a word that was heard in this same place a long time ago.

Distracting herself from the inadvertently standing gem, Vermes closes his hand.

"Well, it's time to go to sleep."I'll keep your advice in one corner of my mind. ”

“No, wait, I have to clear up the misunderstanding.”

Gemdo took the liberty of walking to the side of the bed without the permission of Vermes.

Vermes turned around and said, "Misunderstood?” he argues.

"Until now, I couldn't reveal my true feelings.Even when the bad husband was disliked and said as a matter of course, or when you said that it was remnant that you couldn't see me... you couldn't answer me well because you were speechless. "

Hermes looked at Gemdo again as if he was being pushed against the void.

"Wait a minute. It's only natural that bad masters are disliked... if my memory isn't mistaken, it's still a long time since we met."

"After all, Master Vermes remembered that question as well."I know that Master Vermes was only seven years old, but he has an incredible memory. "

While answering like that, Gemdo knelt down beside the bed.

Hermes, who was halfway up on the bed, and her gaze were about the same height.Vermes stared at Gemdo as if he was somewhat perplexed.

"At that time, I said that I was grateful that I was brought to this mansion, and I let go of Master Vermes' question."Of course, I hadn't met her long ago, so I didn't have any clear feelings of liking or disliking her... "

“I'm surprised, you really remember that interaction.”

"Yes, and when Master Vermes left the Mansion, I could not determine my feelings and could not answer."I've always wanted to keep it alive. ”

"If that's the case...", Vermes stammered at them.

The complex shade of the eyes lit up with a nostalgic glow.

"... so why did you leave me alone for six years?"

”Maybe that's because... I was afraid to know Master Vermes's true intentions”

"My heart?"

"Yes. Is it true or gossip that you said that you can't see me?... Is Master Vermes ignoring me or not?... I might have been afraid to confirm that."

“Why, there's no reason why I shouldn't be at Gemdo's.”

“But there seems to be no reason to like it at all.I am such an unscrupulous person. "

"You..." Vermes mumbled again.

The white fingertips gently pressed against Gemdo's left cheek.

"... I wonder how clumsy you are, Gemdo."

"Yes, as far as I'm embarrassed."

“So? I wonder if you could tell me the response you didn't hear from me before?”

"Yes, I don't know if this is a definite answer, but for me, it was a relief to spend time with Master Vermes."I truly regretted that time was lost. ”

"Yes," said Vermes, smiling.

It was a way of laughing like a toddler enjoying a mischievous game, and there was a gaze in his eyes that was as sweet as a gem.

"So we've been able to get it back for the first time in six years?"

“If that's the case, I'd be more than happy.”

With the same smile, Vermes slammed his forehead against Gemdo's.

Her skin was as white and smooth as porcelain, and she had a very humane warmth.