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"It's not as bad as you think, is it?" I hugged Shen Yan again, "Am I stronger than Baldy Liu? You don't have to worry about him looking for you, he hasn't even touched you at all. "

Shen Yan raised her head, "I am still afraid, afraid that I will lose my husband, my family, and my daughter. For the past two days, I've been in a state of panic, unable to eat or sleep at all! I know I've made unforgivable mistakes. "

"But you're still looking forward to a clandestine relationship, aren't you?"

Shen Yan avoided my gaze and said softly: "Yes, just now, when I went back home and saw those pictures, I was afraid and looked forward to it. I knew he wouldn't let me go, but I was afraid my husband would know. When you knocked on the door, I thought it was him.

I did think I couldn't open the door for him, but then, thinking of the pleasure of that night, I finally opened it. I knew exactly what was going to happen next, but I couldn't help it. Even if he attacked me, even if he attacked me, I would look forward to being smashed into pieces in fear and bewilderment. The strange feeling of being forced to dominate caused a surge of excitement to surge through my body.

Perhaps it was because I had read too many novels that I always imagined myself as the heroine of the novel, finally being controlled by a powerful man, as if I were playing a game, attacking him, defending me, being pushed back again and again in defense, level after level taken over by him, finally being conquered by him and taken captive by him.

Sigh, in reality, I can't say that I'm dissatisfied with my husband. He is a very good person, almost perfect.

My previous dream was to find the perfect love. I got it. My husband's word was the person I had always wanted, and then I became a proper wife as I had once imagined, and everything went according to my plan, without the slightest error.

However, as time went on, everything became dull, and even sleeping with my husband became a routine.

Unknowingly, I was tired of being gentle.

The night before last, when I woke up, I hadn't slept at all. I know that my life has been broken. I don't need anyone to tell me that I know what's wrong with me. As a wife, I should not have betrayed my husband. As a mother, my actions were undoubtedly unforgivable. Neither my morality nor my sense of life will tolerate me continuing. "However, I cannot deny that I actually desire that kind of debauchery. I actually look forward to being seduced by someone …"

Shen Yan's expression was calm, as though she was telling the story of someone else.

"I love my husband — though it seems so ridiculous to say so now — and what right do I have to love him again? What capital do I have left to say love to my husband? But I really do love him, and in my heart, his position can never be replaced! He was calm, quiet, and sensitive. Beside him, I could feel safe, I could feel doted on. I was completely dependent on him. I couldn't even imagine living without him!

How am I supposed to face him? I hardly dare to think about it! I knew him well, and I knew how he had spared no effort in his pursuit of perfection. I can't imagine how he would react if he knew the truth. It was cruel and unfair for him. As a man, no one would be able to endure such humiliation and betrayal!

I am a failed woman, for I cannot refuse depravity. My conscience reminds me that I am slipping into the abyss, that I am destroying my family. But somehow I let it all go on in an uncontrollable direction. I knew it was going to be a tragedy, that my world was going to collapse, and yet I couldn't resist the pleasure that came from sin.

What should I do, I'm really scared! "

Shen Yan curled her body into my embrace and looked at me helplessly.

I felt a pang of affection in my heart.

I know that it's impossible for Shen Yan to get a divorce and marry me. Honestly speaking, I can't support her either.

Looking at her helpless expression, I thought for a moment before saying, "When will your husband come back?"

"Almost a month."

"How about this, in this month, you will be my woman and release all of your desires. When your husband returns, our relationship will be over!"

Shen Yan's eyes lit up, "Can you really do this? When the time comes, will you let me go? "

I smiled, "Why not? Isn't one month enough? I told you before, I'm different from Baldy Liu. What he likes is your body, and what I like is also you. I didn't want your husband to find out and then I lost my job. "

"Then we have a deal!" Shen Yan smiled a second time.

She seemed to feel that she had found a way to do both.

Actually, I don't know if I can do it, but, if Shen Yan obediently becomes my woman within a month, it might be a good thing!

"Then what are we waiting for? Cherish our every day!" I stood up, ready to carry her.

"Don't." "My daughter is sleeping in the bedroom. Let's go to the guest room."

I smiled and held her in my arms. She was light and weightless.

We entered the guest room.

There was a bed there.

I slammed her down on the bed and closed the door.

"My goddess, that night, you thought that it was baldy Liu who had fallen for you, but now, your eyes are wide open. Look clearly at how I have tormented you!"

Shen Yan's eyes became misty, she took the initiative to pull up her skirt.

Like a wolf, I let out a howl and pounced on her.

I want to show my strength to my goddess!