36 Episode 35: Excuses

After I die, I want to ask for Aina.

That's what they told me. I, after a few seconds,

"A joke, right?

And it was full of giving it back.

"No. I'm not kidding. I mean it."

Mr. Stella's eyes are serious in themselves.

Words also tell me that I mean it.

"I'm sorry I said this all of a sudden. But I don't seem to have much time left..."

Stella stares at her own legs with regret.

"Have you heard from Aina about my illness?

"Yeah, yeah. I just heard. That... that Stella is suffering from a disease called 'Living Rot Disease'"

"At that time... was Eina crying?

"I was crying. Was it a recoil that I had put up with, and that was already a woe"

"I knew it."

Close your eyes so that Mr. Stella can endure from something.

"I... am a bad mother."

So self-derisive, I open my closed eyes.

"I was aware that Aina had been murky for a long time. I've lost my ability to work, and I'm working hard for me."

"... Yes"

"I had a hard time watching Eina like that. I'm a mother and I can't do anything. But what was really hard was that Eina couldn't help laughing at me."

"Impossible?

"Yeah. You must have been bluffing to worry about me being sick. You don't have to worry about your mother. Forced to laugh. It's hard to see Aina like that. I feel sorry for myself..."

"But" continued Stella, sighing.

"There has only been a slight change in Aina lately. I only laughed so much fun when I told a story (...). It doesn't look like a fixed laugh, but like it used to be heartfelt fun...... Only once, I've asked why it seems so fun. Then Aina said:" I met my sweet brother, "he said. It's about you, Mr. Shiloh."

Stella's expression softens as she talks.

Just looking at that face showed how important Aina is to Stella.

"Aina laughs pleasantly only when she talks about Mr. Shiloh. All I could ever do was laugh at Eina... and that's - that's what made Eina smile sometimes, but really. This happened today. Shiloh, that's what your brother did. I have always wondered about it. I thought meeting people would change Eina so much. But... I see why today."

"Why?"

"Yeah. That's why."

Ms. Stella stared at me and continued her words.

"Mr. Shiloh looks just like her, like Eina's father."

That's what Mr. Stella said and smiled lonely.

The eyes with that worry must be looking at your husband over me - Aina's father.

"I was actually surprised when Mr. Shiloh came to us. That guy's back, he said. I thought my heart would stop."

"I'm sorry I'm the one who did this."

"Oh, that's not what I said. I'm sorry if I made you mistake. I wanted to say I was happy. Because thanks to Mr. Shiloh, I can clearly remember the face of that man I was worried about."

At least I've never seen anything like a picture in the town of Ninolich.

If you assume that you don't have the skill to leave a deceased figure, like a photo or video, the memories can only rely on memory.

And I guess memory alone will make even the faces of your loved ones summer with the years.

"I think I can quickly find that guy whenever I go over there (...) because I can remember that guy's face thanks to Mr. Shiloh. Or would you pick me up because it's about that sweet guy?

"Over there... hey, Mr. Stella, what the hell are you talking about -"

"That's okay. That's enough. It's my body. I know it's not too long."

Mr. Stella raises her right hand and brings it in front of my face.

The skinny, thin arm was trembling in small pieces.

"My hands, my legs, I can't move freely anymore. It's only a matter of time before I die beneath him."

Stella shakes her head just because she's careless.

"I was the only one left to worry about Aina. I wonder what will happen to Eina if I die. But... when I met Mr. Shiloh and saw that girl who seemed to have fun with Mr. Shiloh, the rest of my heart disappeared."

Again, Mr. Stella stares straight at me.

"Mr. Shiloh, I am deeply aware that this is an indiscreet favor. Will you please take Aina... and if I die, will you take Aina? That kid... he's such a crybaby, so worried..."

Ms. Stella puts tears in her eyes and clogs her words.

You can't even wipe it with arms that don't move freely.

The beautiful Shizukuishi, flowing in anticipation of her daughter, continued to convey her cheeks quietly.

"Please, Mr. Shiloh! I need to see my daughter.

Stella, who tried to force herself up, falls out of shape and falls out of bed.

"Absolutely!"

Immediately catch your body and dress to hold it naturally.

"So, are you okay?

".................. Yes"

"I'll put you back in bed now."

"... Yes"

I don't know how to support you. I get to the princess as a result of my troubles.

I held Stella in my princess's arms, and I finally lifted her up and tried to put her to bed.

"Is that it?"

I remembered something unexpected.

"Excuse me, Mr. Stella, can I touch your leg for a second?

"Huh!? Is that my leg?

"Yes, legs."

……

"Ahhh! It's not weird, is it? I was just wondering! There's no such thing as a nasty feeling."

"You can have these skinny legs...... touch as many as you want"

Sounds like you're mistaken, but I got an OK one day.

"Well, excuse me."

I let Stella sit in bed and put her sleeping clothes out for just a little bit.

As for adult women's legs, they are a lot thinner.

"Well, I'll touch you"

"Yes."

I calm my heart once and touch my legs slowly.

Repeatedly, I followed it or tapped it a little harder,

"Just what I thought."

I gained some certainty.

"Um... what is exactly what I thought? Was my leg what Mr. Shiloh liked?

Stella, with a slight blush on her cheek, asks shyly.

Looks like you've made a terrible mistake.

"No! That's not it! It's just that I had an idea what was causing and treating this' Living Rot Disease '!

Explaining so in a panic,

"Oh, really? Live rot sickness... Huh?

There's a figure of Stella who got stunned through the surprise.

"Yes. It's a cure. I'll try to cure Stella's illness."

"... heal? This live rot sickness...?

"Yes. It will heal. Or I'll try to cure it. This is me."

"Really......? There's really this disease..."

"I promise. My uncle had a much heavier symptom than Stella, but she's pimping now. I'll take care of this place."

I make good faces and make them snort hard.

The tears that were Mr. Stella's Shizukuishi changed the amount of release to the waterfall.

Next and next, I'm crying, biting my lips off trying to keep my emotions pressed.

"Mr. Shiloh... I... I..."

Mr. Stella has a voice that's going to disappear, but it's clear.

"... I don't want to die"

I said.

I guess Mr. Stella has been in despair for a long time and has given up living without seeing hope.

I held my hand softly to reassure Stella like that.

So that you can feel the hope of living.

"It's okay. Stella won't die. She said she could always live with Aina."

"Mr. Shiloh......"

Stella's eyes are looking at me.

I snort, "It's okay," without going out of sight.

It was at that time that Aina and the others came back.

"The Einas are back. Shiloh, we haven't talked yet..."

"Oh, my goodness."

Lord Shiloh, I'm still here.

Three people who were out came back at the same time, freezing at the same time the moment they opened the door.

At the end of the three gaze, you'll see Stella holding my hand with her legs all tucked away, crying like a waterfall.

Well, how did you claim to be innocent?