Chapter 70: Appetite
Kaleidoscope of Death by Xi Zixu
Cant help it anymore. When he heard Qin Budai say this, Lin Qiushi felt a chill deep in his bones. The person before him wore fresh blood on his lips, and stared at him with a pair of silent, red-veined eyes. The look that was so clearly stifling something lifted a light layer of goosebumps along Lin Qiushis arms. All of Lin Qiushis instincts were ringing the alarmthat the person in front of him was very, very dangerous.
Qin Budai gradually got closer and closer. His footsteps finally halted before Lin Qiushi, and he slowly called out Lin Qiushis name. His tone was both cloying and cold, sending very mixed signals.
At that moment, Lin Qiushi wanted to turn and run. But he also felt that the instant he left his back open, something completely out of his control would happen. So he thoroughly smothered that urge to escape and hide, and instead said, Qin Budai, are you alright?
Qin Budai smiled eerily at Lin Qiushi. Im fine. It probably wouldve been better if he hadnt smiled at all; it only made his expression seem more twisted.
Just as the two stood in stalemate, Chen Feis voice came warily from outside the kitchen. What are you two doing?
Chen Fei reached and flipped the light switch on the wall. The entire kitchen lit up, and he got a good look at the scene before him.
Qin Budai What are you doing? His gaze fell on that slab of meat Qin Budai had been chewing on, and the moment after he asked this question, he seemed to comprehend exactly what Qin Budai had done. There was a brief hitch in his breath. You just came out of a door?
Qin Budai slowly nodded.
Hungry? Chen Fei sounded very calm, like he saw nothing wrong at all with the scene before him. Let me cook you something to eat.
Qin Budai didnt speak, just turned and left.
Watching him go, Chen Fei didnt stop him, just sighed lightly.
What in the world happened? Lin Qiushi wasnt as experienced as Chen Fei, and couldnt understand what was going on with Qin Budai. Honestly, Qin Budais current state reminded Lin Qiushi of the monsters inside the doors.
Hes probably been affected by the door world. Chen Fei went to the fridge, and pulled out a steak. He really was planning to cook it for Qin Budai. The human psyche is a fragile thing. After a strong shock, it can be prone to disorder. After saying this, he glanced over at Lin Qiushi. Not everyone can accept things as calmly as you can.
Lin Qiushi didnt know what to say.
The worst situation is when everybody else is dead, but the door and the key havent appeared. Chen Fei lit the stove, heated the oil, and set the steak into the pan with a sizzle. Youre trapped alone inside the door, not knowing how long youll be stuck there
His voice got lower and lower.
It was indeed nightmarish.
To be trapped inside alone. Just the thought of it sent chills throughout the body. Lin Qiushi leaned against the threshold. Qin Budai will be okay, right?
Chen Fei shook his head. I dont know.
Lin Qiushi, what do you mean you dont know?
Chen Fei, I mean that I dont know if hell get better, if he can separate reality from the world of the doors.
Lin Qiushi frowned. If he cant?
Chen Feis motions paused, and a self-mocking smile appeared across his face. If he cant? If he can't Then hes done for.
Killing people inside the door was fine, but in reality, there were laws and sanctions in place.
Plus, people like this became very dangerous. They may not murder, but they still may commit some other drastic crime. People who could not distinguish between the inside and outside could not continue staying at the mansion. Of course, this wasnt something Chen Fei told Lin Qiushi, because he didnt think it necessary.
The steak was done. Chen Fei plated and brought it to the dining table outside, handing it to Qin Budai.
Qin Budai cut the steak apart with a fork and knife, but his peripherals lingered on Lin Qiushi. He still felt hungry, and the steak before him was incapable of satiating that full-body, anxious gluttony he felt. But he didnt dare make it apparentcould only keep his head down, pretending to be happily chowing down.
Chen Fei watched from the side. Lin Qiushi noticed his brow furrowed in a knot, and a certain scrutiny in his eyes, like he was in the middle of diagnosing Qin Budais condition.
Chen Fei asked, what did you see inside the door?
At the mention of the door, Qin Budai couldnt help a whole-body shiver. He opened his mouth, but said nothing even after a moment, like words couldnt possibly describe the world hed seen.
Chen Fei, hm?
Qin Budais reply was vague. It was a very scary world. There wasnt much to eat. I was hungry the whole time.
Chen Fei didnt speak, sinking into thought.
Qin Budai finished the steak, and very politely bid them good night, returning upstairs to sleep.
Lin Qiushi stayed where he was, watching him go. He still felt there was something off with Qin Budai, but he couldnt concretely say what it was.
Chen Fei said, Ill ask Ruan-ge tomorrow.
Lin Qiushi, ask him what?
Chen Fei sighed, which world Qin Budai went into, of course. Qin Budai was a newbie, still entering the first round of doors right now. He didnt have Lin Qiushis luckthe group only took him through a couple of doors, and left him on his own for the most recent one.
Lin Qiushi nodded his agreement.
That night, Lin Qiushi didnt sleep very well. His mind, as he tossed and turned, was filled with the image of Qin Budai eating that raw meat. To tell the truth, after seeing that scene, even his sense of distinction between reality and the world of the doors felt blurred. It was an awful feeling, and left him filled with unease.
The next day, Lin Qiushi went downstairs sporting twin bags under his eyes.
Cheng Qianli had just come back from walking Toast, and Toast was twitching its fat little butt around, chasing and playing with Chestnut.
Cheng Qianli saw Lin Qiushis severe lack of sleep, and said, what happened? You look like you havent woken up yet.
Lin Qiushi yawned. Its nothing. I stayed up too late last night.
Cheng Qianli, oh. Come eat breakfast then. My brother just cooked.
Cheng Yixie made porridge, along with a few small dishes. He was sitting and slowly eating at the table. Lin Qiushi went over to say good morning. Then he also grabbed a bowl to eat.
The people inside the mansion all began to gradually wake. Lin Qiushi saw Chen Fei. Then he also saw Qin Budai.
Qin Budai no longer had that scary aura from last night about him. Hed changed into a fresh outfit, and wore a smile. He approached Lin Qiushi and said, good morning.
Lin Qiushi, good morning.
Sorry to scare you last night, Qin Budai said. Id just come out a door, and hadnt quite gotten myself together. He smiled, eyes rainbowing in a friendly expression. I really am sorry.
Dont worry about it, Lin Qiushi said. You've gotten yourself together now?
Qin Budai nodded, indicating he has.
Chen Fei sat next to them, watching the two interact. He was examining Qin Budai without giving anything away, clearly not completely believing Qin Budais excuse.
Not long after Ruan Nanzhu also came down. He maintained his typical aloofness, and made to head out after eating, before Chen Fei stopped him.
Ruan-ge, Chen Fei said. Theres something I want to talk to you about.
Were you contaminated? Lin Qiushi clasped his neck, hissing at the pain. What did you bite me for?!
Ruan Nanzhu spat out a single word: Disinfection.
Lin Qiushi, What the hell was wrong with Ruan Nanzhu.
After saying this, Ruan Nanzhu dragged off the fainted Qin Budai and left. Lin Qiushi looked over the mess of his room and the broken door, and for a moment didnt know what to do at all.
Qin Budais bite hadnt torn skin, but Ruan Nanzhus had. Lin Qiushi inspected his wound, warily wondering he needed to go get a rabies shot or something. Hed never been bitten by a person before, and so searched online for what to do.
Turned out he shouldve left it alone. The search left Lin Qiushi scared out of his wits, thinking he was likely going to kick it that very night.
And so bright and early the next morning Lin Qiushi rushed to the hospital. After taking a look at his wound, the doctor said, with meaning, you youngsters need to control yourselves.
Lin Qiushi, Control what, control their diets?
The doctor said, you dont need a vaccine, just a disinfection should be fine. As long as the person who bit you doesnt have any infectious diseases there shouldnt be any problems.
Lin Qiushi, but the search engine said
The doctor slapped the table. Can you all stop going to the search engine when youre sick? Dont you just feel more terminal the more you use it? The doctor looked maybe thirty-one, thirty-twostill quite young. He prescribed Lin Qiushi some bit of medicine, and waved him off in disgust.
Lin Qiushi returned to the mansion.
After Qin Budai was taken away last night, Lin Qiushi didnt ask what would be done with him. Today, he was nowhere to be seen. Lin Qiushi didnt see Ruan Nanzhu either, and so went to ask Chen Fei in private.
Chen Fei looked at the wound on Lin Qiushis neck, and sighed: It was my fault, I shouldnt have left him on his own. I thought hed at least be able to bear it, but who knew his self-control would be so awful?
Lin Qiushi, so where is he now? The way Ruan Nanzhu dragged him off last night looked like he was being taken straight to the crematorium.
Hes been sent somewhere else, Chen Fei said. Theres a place dedicated to people like him. After being affected by the doors, the way he acts in reality will be off, so he needs counseling.
Whether or not the counseling would work was another story. But this sort of person was dangerous wherever they put him. Had Ruan Nanzhu not shown up last night, Qin Budai might have straight up bitten Lin Qiushi to death.
Lin Qiushi, oh He thought for a bit, before asking quietly, and Nanzhu? How come I havent seen him around?
Chen Fei, I think he went out for an errand.
Then he asked, is your wound alright though? He broke skin. Did you get it checked out at the hospital?
Lin Qiushi thought that no skin wouldve been broken had Ruan Nanzhu not given him that extra bite. And hed claimed it was disinfection, but his bite was way harsherit was ridiculous. Not that Lin Qiushi said any of this out loud. He only shook his head to indicate he was alright, and that hed already been to the hospital.
After that, Qin Budai disappeared from the mansion.
With great synchronicity, nobody asked where hed gone. Even Cheng Qianli, who was least capable of reading people, didnt mention him again.
They all seemed already prepared for sudden goodbyes.
Only three days after the incident did Lin Qiushi see Ruan Nanzhu again. At that point his wound had scabbed over. He came in from walking Toast with Cheng Qianli, and saw Ruan Nanzhu sitting in the living room eating some fruit.
Hearing their footsteps, Ruan Nanzhu only glanced up, looking them over with a placid gaze.
Ruan-ge, youre back, Cheng Qianli greeted happily.
Mh, Ruan Nanzhu replied. Then he looked at Lin Qiushi.
For some reason, Lin Qiushi felt a bit self-conscious. Hed felt that Ruan Nanzhu had been off that night, and was still a bit strange today.
Its healed? Ruan Nanzhu spoke.
Lin Qiushi knew Ruan Nanzhu was asking after his wound, and nodded. Its healed.
Oh, Ruan Nanzhu said.
Maybe Lin Qiushi was overthinking it, but he thought he heard a hint of disappointment in Ruan Nanzhus tone.
Lin Qiushi continued, thank you for that night Had it not been for Ruan Nanzhu, he would likely be dead already.
Ruan Nanzhu, dont worry about it.
Lin Qiushi hesitated. Qin Budai, will he get better?
Ruan Nanzhu slowly chewed the fruit in his mouth, swallowed, and then answered Lin Qiushis question: I dont know. He determines his own fortune.
Lin Qiushi, things like this had happened before?
Ruan Nanzhu, like clockwork.
Lin Qiushi didnt think hed get this sort of answer.
Out of a hundred newbies, ninety-nine will develop mental conditions. Ruan Nanzhu stood. The last one is Cheng Qianli.
Hearing this off to the side, Cheng Qianli looked confused, and asked, what do you mean the last one is Cheng Qianli?
Affectionately, Lin Qiushi petted Cheng Qianlis head. Nothing, Ruan-ges just complimenting you.
Cheng Qianli, oh. Heheheh.
Lin Qiushi thought that to be on the same level of foolish as Cheng Qianli was actually not so easy
Prepare yourself, Ruan Nanzhu said. Cheng Yixies ninth door is opening soon.
Lin Qiushis heart jolted. Im going too?
Ruan Nanzhu, you dont want to go?
Lin Qiushi, I I dont know
But Ruan Nanzhu didnt force it, only spoke evenly, its fine if you dont want to. You have three days to think about it.
Lin Qiushi nodded in acceptance.
Once hed said this, Ruan Nanzhu turned and left. Watching him go, Cheng Qianli said he didnt know why, but he felt that recently, the feeling Ruan-ge gave off was different than before.
Lin Qiushi asked, whats different about it? To tell the truth, after going through the Qin Budai incident, he realized he was too complacent in the real world. Had this been inside the doors, hed have never let Qin Budai in.
I dont know. Cheng Qianli scratched at his foolish head. I cant really say
Lin Qiushi eyed Cheng Qianli, and for a moment fretted how the boy before him was supposed to pass through the rest of those doors. He could too easily imagine Cheng Yixie, with his heart completely broken with worry for his foolish younger brother.
Authors Note:
Im taking advantage of the good weather today to wash my cat. Everybody wish blessings of peace upon me.