Chapter 139: Back to the Beginning

Chapter 139: Back to the Beginning

Kaleidoscope of Death by Xi Zixu

It was a very normal looking clock. It had been in this room since Lin Qiushi rented it. The clock chimed every hour, from one to twelveDing dong, ding dong. Its chimes were bright and clear, reminding Lin Qiushi that time was always pushing ahead without mercy.

Lin Qiushi took the clock down. Because it had hung for so long, a layer of dust had settled onto the clock face. He grabbed a tissue to wipe it clean, and then carefully removed the cover.

What Lin Qiushi wanted was not under the cover. He stared at the complicated innards the cover revealed and, after a moments silence, pressed down on the knob that controlled the hour hand, slowly twisting it backwards

The hand began a counterclockwise rotation. It swiped across the number twelve, and when it pointed to the number eleven, Lin Qiushi haltedbefore his eyes, complex images had started to appear. In one image, a beautiful man in womens clothing was beaming brilliantly at him, and saying to him, Lin Qiushi, I like you so much. Then came images Lin Qiushi was more familiar withsome of these Lin Qiushi still remembered, while others were blurry. They were all playing, however, like a slideshow across Lin Qiushis mind.

When the memories stopped, Lin Qiushis fingers twitched, turning the hour hand to the number ten. In the time of the number ten, he saw the Hako Onnas world.

After that, Lin Qiushis control was no longer necessary; the clock hands before him began to slowly turn, and countless memories surged their way into Lin Qiushis brain. A severe pain started in Lin Qiushis head, and he unintentionally loosened his grip, letting the clock fall heavily onto the floor.

Aah!!

His hands covered his head. Lin Qiushis mind felt like someone had installed a giant kaleidoscope, and inside the kaleidoscope was the world of the doors. He saw countless monsters and demons, saw dead friendssaw Ruan Nanzhu.

The Ruan Nanzhu he saw showed him a brilliant grin, holding a hand out to him.

Hello, Im Ruan Baijie.

The images twisted, and it was another version of Ruan Nanzhu. His expression was cool when he looked up at Lin Qiushi and said, welcome to Obsidian.

Lin Qiushi didnt know how long this continued on for. By the time the awful agony pulled itself out of his head, the sky outside was already dark.

All around him was silent. Lin Qiushi managed to push himself up, stumbling over to the fallen clock. He picked it up.

And the moment he picked it up, something seemed to fall from the clock face. Pa-dap. It fell to the floor with a crisp ring.

Lin Qiushi thought at first the clock had broken, but when he looked down and saw the item that had fallen at his feet, his whole expression went numb.

What had fallen from watch face were green copper keystwo of them.

Looking at the keys at his feet, Lin Qiushi took a deep breath. He steadied his mind before bending down and picking them up.

These were two completely identical green copper keys. The only difference was in the barely-visible line of text etched onto their surfaces.

The keys were cold at first, but when Lin Qiushi held them in hand, it was as if they burned to the touch. He looked closely at the keys, and read the two words written on one of them: Illusory Life. On the other were another two words: Authentic Death.

Illusory life, authentic death? Holding the keys, Lin Qiushi stalled. He couldnt understand what these four words together meant. He rubbed at the surface of the keys with his fingers, and just as he was going to take another look, he felt a sudden shock of chill in his hand. Then, the key on which Illusory Life was written crumbled to dust in his palmso all he had left was Authentic Death.

Authentic Death? Lin Qiushi thought of something. Gripping the key tightly, he sped-walked to his doorway. Then, after a deep breath, he gave his bedroom door a solemn push.

He saw, beyond the door, that a familiar hallway had appeared. In the hallway were those twelve black metal doorsonly, eleven of the doors had been sealed. Only the twelfth door stood all by itself at the end of the hall.

Lin Qiushi walked out into the hallway. He saw hanging on the twelfth door a large black padlock. Then he looked back down at the key in his hand.

In that moment, he understood the true meaning of illusory and authentic.

The world that he was currently in was an illusion; everything inside happened as they would had the doors not existed. Everybody whod died inside the doors could come back to life in some other way. They would live right by Lin Qiushis side; if Lin Qiushi was willing, he could start over fresh with them.

As for authentic, that suggested Lin Qiushi could return to his original world.

The twelfth door was a multiple-choice question, and the power to choose resided in Lin Qiushis own hands.

He could stay in this world and meet the Ruan Nanzhu who didnt know him again. He could also leave. But if he left, an additional question was posed before himwhat would Ruan Nanzhu choose? Had he found the key? And, if Ruan Nanzhu found the key and chose the illusion, then would Lin Qiushi, whod left this word, never get to see him again?

Lin Qiushi had a death grip on the key in his hand.

He looked back, back at the hallway behind him. Every single sealed door along this corridor was a memory he had with Obsidian. Perhaps not all these memories were good, but they were real.

But what would Ruan Nanzhu choose?

Lin Qiushis family was distant, and he didnt really have that many friends. The only person he was truly bound to was Ruan Nanzhu. But Ruan Nanzhu was different. If it werent for the doors, he could maintain a good relationship with his birth family. He could not lose so many friends

Lin Qiushi began to laugh, pained. He finally understood why pretty much nobody talked about the twelfth door. Because the twelfth door didnt actually exist.

After experiencing countless ghastly realms, a veritable paradise appearing before your very eyes was a difficult temptation to resist.

Lin Qiushi thought about it, but his answer had been decided long ago.

Any world without Ruan Nanzhu was false to him. He hadnt needed to hesitate at all before making the decision.

Lin Qiushi smiled. He rubbed a hand over his face, trying to wipe away something. The key was in his hand, and he stuck it into the padlock hanging from the metal door.

With a clack, the padlock fell open, and a pathway filled with bright white light appeared before Lin Qiushis eyes.

Lin Qiushi looked back at the hallway behind him and said, quietly, see you. Then he stepped inside.

The corridor before him now was longer than any corridor Lin Qiushi had ever walked. The light surrounding him had a surprisingly calming effect. He continued forward, and made it to the end of the corridor. The sight before him twisted, and he finally saw a familiar scene.

Lin Qiushi was back in his original world. He was sitting on the bed in Ruan Nanzhus bedroom. As soon as he got back, the first thing he did was look around for Ruan Nanzhu. But he couldnt find anywhere the figure that ought to have appeared.

Lin Qiushi rushed downstairs, spotting Ye Niao on the living room sofa. He went over and asked, Ye Niao? Have you seen Ruan Nanzhu?

When Ye Niao heard Lin Qiushi, he exclaimed, you came out of the door!!

Lin Qiushi, yeshave you seen Ruan Nanzhu?

Ye Niao, Lu-jie made food for you!

Lin Qiushi,

Ye Niao, since youve come out now, naturally we have to celebrate

Lin Qiushi, Ye Niao?

Ye Niao, hm?

Lin Qiushi, dont you want to ask me anything about the eleventh door?

I didnt think itd be hidden in the clock.

There was a lot more that Lin Qiushi wanted to say, but Ruan Nanzhu dipped his head first, and all their words melted into a gentle kiss.

Lin Qiushi could feel himself going limp. He mumbled, I thought you were never coming back.

Ruan Nanzhu watched him.

I thought you chose the illusory world, Lin Qiushi said. I thought I could only be alone after this.

Ive already said, Ruan Nanzhu said. Any world without you is false.

But I am in that world. Lin Qiushi looked doubtfully at Ruan Nanzhu. Didnt you meet the younger me?

Ruan Nanzhu, no.

His answer came too crisply, and actually made Lin Qiushi more suspicious. In that moment he finally understood Ruan Nanzhus feelings of jealousy toward his younger self.

Ruan Nanzhu, you really are somethingyou made me wait on you for this long.

Ruan Nanzhu rushed to apologize, and then asked Lin Qiushi what happened in the past year.

Lin Qiushi said, lets find a place to eat first. Im hungry.

Ruan Nanzhu nodded.

So the two drove to a nearby restaurant. It wasnt that they didnt want to socialize with Obsidian, only that everything they talked about would likely be mercilessly faded out because of the doors. That feeling of being overlooked was really quite unpleasant, so instead of that, the better option was for the two of them to find someplace to speak in private.

Lin Qiushi was sparse in his description of what happened this past year, and though he was brief, Ruan Nanzhu could still hear between the lines exactly how hard the year had been for Lin Qiushi.

Im sorry, I really was late in getting back. Ruan Nanzhu kissed at Lin Qiushis fingertips, seeking his lovers forgiveness.

Honestly, before seeing Ruan Nanzhu, Lin Qiushi did harbor a good deal of grievances. But after seeing Ruan Nanzhu, all his anger and resentment dissipated in an instant, and he said, as long as youve come back, I wont put the blame on you.

Ruan Nanzhu, mh, and I always will come back.

Lin Qiushi smiled.

The two ate and chatted. Lin Qiushi listened to Ruan Nanzhus stories of what happened inside the door. Ruan Nanzhu really had gone to find the young Lin Qiushi. The two of them even became friends. Only, when Ruan Nanzhu finally discovered where the key was, he still decided to leave.

Lin Qiushi kept chugging down the alcohol. He said, dont you know, after you disappeared, none of them remembered you. Only I rememberedI really thought I was going crazy.

Ruan Nanzhu smiled faintly.

I even thought you were my twelfth door, Lin Qiushi said. I really was going crazy.

Ruan Nanzhu filled Lin Qiushis cup with more alcohol.

Theres no rush. We still have plenty of time.

A light sheen of tears appeared in Lin Qiushis eyes. He said, its a good thing youre back.

Yeah. Ruan Nanzhu clasped Lin Qiushis fingers. Im back.

That night, Lin Qiushi had no memories of how they got home, only that when he woke up the next morning, he was sore and aching all over. When he saw the man deeply asleep beside him, it didnt take much thought to know what had occurred between the two of them.

Lin Qiushi stared at Ruan Nanzhus sleeping face, and very carefully stuck a finger out to touch the skin there. After he confirmed the body heat at his fingertip, he let out a long exhale of relief.

This wasnt a dream. Ruan Nanzhu had really come back.

Lin Qiushi couldnt help himself. He fished a cigarette out of his shirt, lit it, and began to slowly smoke.

Ruan Nanzhu woke up, mumbling, how come you started smoking again, no smoking

He reached up and plucked the cigarette from Lin Qiushis mouth, tossing it into the ashtray next to him. Then he dropped a kiss to the corner of Lin Qiushis lips.

Couldnt help it Lin Qiushi said. But now that youre back, I wont smoke anymore.

Ruan Nanzhu sat up and began putting on his clothes.

What do you want to eat?

Lin Qiushi said, anythings good. He swiped languidly at his phone and watched as Ruan Nanzhu headed for the kitchen, shirtless, to make him breakfast.

Lin Qiushi yawned, and by habit logged onto the doors forum. He found though, that entry today was particularly hard. He managed to squeeze in with great difficulty, and saw, all over the place, what was practically the exact same topic"why has the twelfth door been sealed? "I thought I saw wrong, so the twelfth door has really been sealed? Is this a bug in the doors or what? Oh my god, does this mean we have one less door to pass in the future?

Lin Qiushis brow furrowed, and just as he was about to take a closer look, Ruan Nanzhu leaned in against the doorway.

You want soft-boiled eggs?

Lin Qiushi, sounds good

Ruan Nanzhus head tilted.

What are you looking at? Is it prettier than me? He came over and plucked the phone out of Lin Qiushis hands.

Of course its not prettier than you, Lin Qiushi said. Our Mengmeng is naturally the prettiest.

Ruan Nanzhu grinned. He licked at Lin Qiushis lips and husked, Im hungry again.

Lin Qiushi, ah?!

And before he could react, Ruan Nanzhu had pushed him back into the bed again.

Forget it. As long as Ruan Nanzhu was back, everything was fine. Anything else he couldnt be bothered with.

END

Translators Note

Its worth nothing that Ye Niaos used the normal you up until this point, and suddenly switched to the deferential you in this sentence.His hearts calamity is translated from one of my favorite Chinese terms of all time, (ji). If youve read TGCF, its the same term used for the tests/calamities that the gods had to pass to bring their cultivation to the next level (Shi Wudu was on his third in Book 3). Its also in one of my favorite favorite songs, Na Yings Mo. The concept is this calamitous trouble that stays with you, and is incredibly hard to resolve; its one of the greatest challenges of your life.YOOOOOOO WERE DONE!!! Now get ready for the first extra and its (in)famous Twist

[Ch. 138] | [Extra: What He Is]