CH 61

Karen’s Point of View

[Huh? Karen, you don’t want to eat anymore?]

[Yeah, sorry. I don’t have much of an appetite today. I’m so sorry. I’m going to bed.]

Those were the happiest days of my life.

I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life. We had fights, but even those are just great memories now. Every day was so fulfilling that I wished that time would stop.

Of course, I had a lot of happy memories with Renya.

But it was definitely him, Sota Kazama, who I truly felt was the one.

Once again, I think it is really impossible.

Switching in the real world is an unrealistic phenomenon.

But there is something even more improbable in my mind.

That is that I can’t be with him like this…

And that he will pretend that that time never happened…

”That’s the one thing I absolutely hate. I’ll never…”

Did he think he wouldn’t be found out after returning from the switch?　

How could I not? How could I not know who I’m really in love with?

His habits, the way he smiles, his gestures, his clumsy but hard work, everything, really everything, is the same as the person I love with all my heart. It’s funny if I can’t see it.

I remember going camping and going to the aquarium with Sota. The amusement park, the zoo, the hot springs, and the movie theater. The ocean, the most beautiful flower gardens. Delicious restaurants and cafes. We went to many other places together…

And you tried really hard to entertain me. Looking back now, there were so many occasions when I could have noticed them. Because, hm, it was a date that was far from Renya’s smartness, wasn’t it? There were so many scenes that I can’t help laughing when I reflect on them.

But it was really a great time, including that night… really.

Anyway, it was Sota who always stood next to me when I was in trouble or hit a wall and who always looked out for me and helped me. Even at that time, when I was in danger of getting involved in various things, Sota helped me physically without any hesitation, wasn’t it? It was also Sota who spent hours with me on my problems and always thought about them with me. The same goes for my work problems.

Yes, that’s right. It was definitely Kazama Sota. It was him.

I really don’t want it to end like this. I’ll miss you too much… Sota.

I want you to smile at me again. And tell me you love me again.

It is absolutely ridiculous and impossible that the time we spent together in the past was a lie.

Because I’m sure that that time between me and him existed in this world.

And I would have never met him if it had not happened. But such an impossible thing happened, and he and I met. The point is that this is definitely fate. I can’t think of anything else.

So I really hope that this time you will be with me. I really do.

I don’t care if it’s a childhood friend or not. I can’t lose. I won’t lose.

I really love you. Sota. I love you more than anything in the world.

I love you.