205 Gossip 11, find yourself guilty.

SIDE: Gert

"... What is this place? That's right. I got caught by him..."

When I woke up, I immediately remembered that I had been put to sleep by Leons' men.

When I check my hands, they are still tightly handcuffed.

So... is this a bartender? No, this is... this is my room.

That's a lie. Why am I here?

I got up in a hurry to check the outside of the room.

Then the door opened as if waiting for it.

"Hey. Gert, how you doing?

"Uncle..."

Beyond the door was my uncle, who had lost a lot of weight.

I knew Fermer had been taken over by my father... Uncle, living such a poor life?

"Looks like you've changed a lot."

……

That I've changed... I wouldn't be talking about looking like my uncle...

I couldn't find a word to give back to my uncle.

For a long time, my uncle did me a favor. There was nothing I could say to such a person right now.

"Well, I can't tell you about people either. You know what position I'm in right now?

"Customer service at my father's shop"

"You know that. So, do you know how that happened?

"It's... Leons..."

"No. Leo has nothing to do with this. This is all my problem."

When I tried to tell you that Fermer was broken by Leons, he denied it before I ran out.

"... what do you mean?

"It's just like you. I have sinned."

"My uncle?

No. Unlike my father, my uncle was sweet?

"I wonder if it's since Gert started working at magic school. I drowned in booze."

"Oh......"

Uncle, you've been a bad alcoholic for a long time.

"If you're just going to waste your own store... I've killed that liquor store couple I've been getting better for a long time, indirectly"

"Huh? My uncle took those two?

I used to buy booze in that store because of my uncle's influence.

I hadn't been there since I started working at magic school... but I didn't know you were dead...

"Oh... he was a real fool"

"You didn't feel anything for killing people? You killed a lot of kids, didn't you?

"... children?

Did I kill him? Kids?

"That's right. You blew up the school and killed a lot of kids without any sins."

……

My uncle's words made me feel like something had started in my head.

Something like a filter that had changed my memory for my convenience was broken.

"I'm not putting myself on the shelf... but you didn't feel guilty? Killing someone like that... and continuing to build weapons that kill people doesn't seem very sane"

……

To my uncle's heavy words, I started sweating...... I couldn't speak a word anymore.

A great guilt hits my shoulder, and it's hard just standing there.

"Hey. Let me hear it... Why didn't you rely on me? You didn't pay enough for the research, and you relied on the Filibels, did you? If it was financial, Fermer would be better off."

"... don't rely on my uncle... I just wanted to be beyond my father"

This was the answer I finally gave by squeezing.

"Ha... I see. For a long time, you've admired your brother... and it's gone empty."

"Nothing... I can't believe I admire you..."

You think I admire my father? That's not true. I didn't say no.

On the contrary. I wanted to be like him. I didn't want to lose to him......

"Really? You've been stealing my brother's moves at home since you were a little girl, and you bragged to the shop craftsmen. I'm telling you, your father taught you the most."

"That shouldn't be..."

I couldn't deny how proud I was of the craftsmen in the past.

"Totally... if your parents are clumsy, your kids are clumsy too"

Don't. Don't leave me with my father.

"My father is now... what are you doing?

"We're desperately making magic equipment. For your sin."

My father sinned? No way.

"How could my father...?

He never cared about anyone else.

So that can't happen. There's no way I'm making magic equipment for that reason.

"My brother hasn't made magic equipment for a week since he found out you blew up the school. I'm really surprised that that magic fool wouldn't even go into the work room. I guess I was so shocked that you killed people."

"That should be...... 'Cause my dad says my mother's dead..."

Even then, my dad used to make magic implements until I got angry.

That's what he is.

"I regret it the most. I guess I was shocked because I realized that I've been messing with my family."

"Now more..."

What are you talking about now? When I tried to say that, my uncle put it on me.

"Yes. It's even more so now... The sin of invasion does not go away, no matter how hard you try. Couples and little kids in liquor stores don't come home no matter how sorry they are."

……

This time. I couldn't say anything back.

I sat in bed, and I got upset.

"I'll leave you at this for today. I have a week. I still have time to preach. In the meantime, you're gonna think alone about your sins today. Where's the bathroom... don't worry."

I see. This is where it was my house.

"Ah, if you're going to the bathroom, try to stay as late as you can. Otherwise, you'll be in a bowl with your brother."

"Okay..."

I don't have the mentality to meet my father in this situation right now.

We have to be careful not to see each other.

"Right. See you later."

I made sure my uncle was gone, and I groaned.

"You were killing the kids..."

I forgot...... no, I was just trying not to think about it the whole time.

I want to kill Leo... the idea alone is unusual, but I was killing a lot of kids for it that had nothing to do with it.

That bomb had granted instant death. I don't know how many children died, but I'm sure there will be absolutely a lot of them.

"Don't you regret it...? You can't do this all the time."

I have always been forced to live to justify myself.

I'm not bad. It's all my father's fault. That's what I was thinking.

But... I'm already getting bitter with that excuse.

My mother died because my father couldn't?

No, I got out of the house and left my mother alone. I'm guilty of the same thing.

Is it my father's fault that I left the house?

No, I just ran away thinking I couldn't beat my father's technical skills.

The life you keep running away from is your father's fault?

No, it's all my fault. My father has nothing to do with it.

Until now, I've only been running away because of my father.

"That's not cool...... me. I got skilled in special magic, mistakenly thought I was special, and in the end my accomplishments just killed a bunch of helpless kids... really, what was I doing..."

I fell asleep in bed, now that I was self-loathing.

I didn't want to think about it any more.

And the next day.

"What's gonna happen to me now? If this is the house, it's the Imperial City, right?

I was vaguely thinking about what would happen to me.

Is this the death penalty? No, my uncle said a week.

I mean, while the Leons are in the king's capital.

Oh, okay.

While Leons was in the kingdom, I was supposed to be under the control of the Empire.

A week from now, I'll be returned to the King's Landing.

And some disposition is given to the kingdom.

Oh, I'm sure they'll enslave you.

Gert, are you awake?

"I'm awake."

"Oh well. Look, it's lunch."

My uncle put two plates on his desk and sat down in the chair opposite me.

……

I watched my uncle start eating without saying anything, and I started eating in silence too.

……

We didn't say a word to each other, and I had dinner with my hands in handcuffs that were difficult to move.

"Hmm. I've been having dinner alone lately, so it was fun. See you tomorrow."

That's all? I thought, my uncle really got out of the room with Sarah.

And the next day.

"Look, it's rice!

My uncle brought me dinner again at noon.

Again today, eating without talking to each other about anything? Thinking so, my uncle talked to me.

"... Speaking of which, what's the kingdom like these days?

Like nothing happened, I was spoken to normally and I couldn't react immediately.

Then my uncle started talking to me like I was talking to myself again.

"When I used to go to Wangdu, I was so vibrant that I couldn't beat the Empire."

"Was Wang Du lively?

To my uncle's unexpected words, I accidentally got a polo and a word out of my mouth.

I was surprised that the King's Capital had such a past unrelated to that vibrancy.

"What. Not now?

"Oh. Now, I can't feel alive. That's as big a difference as the end-of-life Philiberian territory."

Everyone suffers from too heavy a tax, and the nobles of voter thought treat the civilians like slaves.

That's a hell of a place for civilians.

"That's... changed a lot. There were a lot of rough guys, but it was an interesting city I never got tired of drinking... too bad."

My uncle looked seriously sorry.

So good was the old King's Capital...

"If that's the king, I can't help it."

"You, you met with the king?

"Just once. He was fat as a pig, and he was a fool like he painted"

"Right. What about the next king? Sure, the First Princess is the power, isn't she?

"The princess of jewellery madness is called... he was like spending the country's money to collect jewellery."

"That's... for a long time, you're pathetic about the people in the kingdom."

Well, yeah.

But...

"If that stayed the same. It was in the past that the princess was obsessed with jewelry, and now... right. I'm obsessed with brave men."

I'm going to have seen her near there these past few years... but it's changed a lot.

Love changes people that far, doesn't it?

"To the brave? Is that good?

"Well, I think it's gonna be okay because the brave guy's a good guy."

Kate has been a hunk of justice ever since we first met.

Hold on to your beliefs and face any difficulty for that belief... that's the opposite of me.

"Right. Then there's still hope in the kingdom."

"Well... right..."

Kite would surely make the kingdom better.

"Mr. Colt!

"Ah, it's Leo. Wait a minute."

Leons...... So you're here to pick me up?

What happened to your discussions with the kingdom?

"What's going on? You said a week.

"That's what I talked to the princess about faster than I thought."

You know what... if you're a princess now, you sure are going to do well.

"Right. Gert's over here."

"In the end, did you let him meet with your master?

Master? Oh, you mean my father.

Leons wanted me and my dad to meet? Oh, that's why you put me in my dad's house...

"No, I was going to let you see me on the last day. Brother, if you knew you were home, you wouldn't know what to do.

"Oh...... That's no choice, is it? What do you want to do? Do you want me to see you now?

"Right...... Hey, Gert. You want to see my dad?

My uncle opened the door and asked.

Beyond my uncle, there's Leons.

……

What are we gonna do, talk to my dad now and what's it gonna be?

"You might only get a chance to see him today, huh?

"Let me just say one word."

At the end of the day, I don't care what they say.

"Yes."

"Okay."

Then they took me, which hasn't changed for a long time... it was my father's workplace.

"Brother, it's a guest."

"Customer? Leo's here?

Father's voice......

"Oh. There's Leo, but he's a rarer guest today"

"Huh? Who the hell... are you, Gert?

When I walked into the work room, my father looked at me and it was solidifying.

I didn't change my expression, I just watched it in silence.

"How could... you... be here?

"I caught you in the kingdom. Even so, I'm going to have to return it to the kingdom."

Leons answered my father's question in a mild tone.

After all, will I be returned to my kingdom?

"Right..."

"Gert, I know you don't deserve to scold me. But if I'm gonna sin any more, I'm gonna kill you, but I'm gonna stop you."

"... Okay, I get it"

I left only one word in my father's words and turned my back on my father and left the work room behind...