“——A beast?”
“Yes, that’s what I heard.”
Jiujiu answered while combing Jusetsu’s hair. When she woke up in the morning, she heard birds chirping awfully loudly in the woods outside, so Jiujiu went out to see what was going on. The eunuchs of the rokuboushi—the agency directly supervised by the emperor that cracked down on crimes in the inner palace—were going this way and that with swords in their belts and tense expressions. Apparently, the body of a palace woman was found in the woods. It was surmised that she was attacked by a beast, based on her wounds.
“They say that her throat was torn out, so what if it was a wild dog, or a wolf…or a tiger?”
“I don’t know about the mountains, but I don’t believe there would be tigers in an area like this. I’ve never seen wild dogs in the inner palace, but are there some here?”
“I heard that wild dogs would sometimes come in here. Before, there was a eunuch who died after he got bitten by one. His wound got infected and he suffered terribly…”
Jiujiu’s face was pale as she trembled.
“Which palace was the deceased palace lady from?”
“It seems that they still don’t know yet. They’re in the process of asking around in each palace to see if there are any missing palace ladies.”
“…I wonder if that palace lady was trying to come here.”
Did she come to ask for a favor from the Raven Consort and was attacked by a beast?
Jiujiu was looking at Jusetsu’s face in the mirror.
“No, I think she must have been chased by the beast and ran all the way over there.”
She hurriedly said, as if trying to be considerate. Jusetsu stared into the mirror. Her clouded-over face was reflected in it. It was an unreliable and helpless face. She straightened her back and tried her best to make a hard expression. The mirror was octagonal with the back decorated with mother-of-pearl. Green turban shells, amber, tortoiseshell, and lapis lazuli were used to depict flowers and birds. Tracing the edge of the mirror with pale fingers, Jusetsu narrowed her eyes at her own face. Not her face, but her hair.
“Is my hair still fine?”
“It’s fine. It’s beautiful black hair.”
She was checking to see if the color had faded from her dyed hair. Jiujiu didn’t know Jusetsu’s circumstances, but she didn’t try to inquire too deeply. Since the decree to capture and kill members of the Ran clan had been abolished by Koushun, Jusetsu would no longer be killed if it was discovered that she was a member of the Ran clan. But that didn’t make her want to return to her original silver hair. It was obvious that it would be troublesome if she did.
However, the fear of death that had been whittling away at her body was now gone. This was brought about by Koushun’s efforts to save Jusetsu, even if only a little. She no longer woke up every morning with the leaden despair of having to survive through another day. Her heart was just a little lighter and warmer.
“I’m going to go out wearing a eunuch’s uniform today.”
“Yes, Niangniang,” Jiujiu said and began to tie her hair up instead of the two rings. “Are you really going to go out?” she asked worriedly. “Even though there might be wild dogs out there?”
“Those are most likely active at night. The palace lady was also attacked at night. Besides, we can’t go out at all if you keep talking like that.”
“Aren’t there a lot of days when you don’t go out? Why do you have to go out only at a time like this?”
“I don’t know when that Winter Minister will retire.”
She was about to visit Setsu Gyoei. She had already learned the hard way that going out in a palanquin was too ostentatious. But it would also be too conspicuous to go out in her consort’s garb. It would have been best to disguise herself as a civil servant, but with Jusetsu’s appearance, even if she dressed in men’s clothing she would only look like a boy before his coming-of-age ceremony. That was why she decided to dress up as a eunuch.
“And, you’re only going to take Onkei with you, aren’t you?”
Jiujiu was miffed.
“Weren’t you the one worried about wild dogs?”
“If it’s dangerous for me, then it’s dangerous for you too, Niangniang. …I can’t ask you to take me with you because I don’t want to be a burden on you if something happens, though.”
She said sulkily, pouting. As she was talking, her hands were quickly tying her hair up into a topknot. Behind them, Xingxing was meekly closing its wings. That was rare. It always rampaged around whenever Jusetsu was about to leave the palace. It didn’t even try to go out of the curtains, but simply listening to what was going on around it, as though afraid of outside enemies.
When she stepped outside in the pale-gray eunuch robes, she could still hear birds chirping and flapping their wings impatiently restlessly from the woods.
“…Do they still not know which palace that palace lady was from?” she asked Onkei, who was accompanying her.
“No, they know now. She was from Jakusou Palace,” he replied.
Jakusou Palace, huh, Jusetsu murmured. That palace had been weighing on her mind for a while now.
“Was she trying to come to Yamei Palace?”
“It’s still unknown.”
Since she was a palace lady, Jusetsu recalled the woman who had visited before. The palace lady who begged her to bring the dead back to life. The scent of sweetheart incense clung to her. Her face was covered with a veil of thin silk, so she couldn’t tell, but what was the color of her ruqun? In the first place, that palace lady——.
“…”
Jusetsu, who was pondering this while walking, turned to Onkei.
“Does that palace lady not normally use sweetheart incense?”
Onkei looked puzzled. “I’m not sure about that. The smell of blood was too strong last night, so I wouldn’t——” he then quickly closed his mouth. But it was too late.
“Onkei, were you the one who found the body?”
It wasn’t surprising if you thought about it. He was Yamei Palace’s guard, after all.
“…Yes,” The look on his face that said, oh no, affirmed it. “I found her while making my rounds.”
“You should have come to me with that news.”
“It is not something you should hear about, Niangniang. It was a horrible-looking corpse, after all.”
“Is it true that her throat was ripped out?”
Onkei frowned. “Who heard of such a thing?”
“Jiujiu found out about it.”
When she said that, Onkei looked troubled. “That girl is a bit too curious. She isn’t a bad girl, though.”
“Then it’s fine as long as she isn’t a bad girl.” Onkei laughed a little. He was surprisingly expressive once he got used to someone.
“I heard that it was the work of a beast, but what of it?”
“From the wound, it is unmistakable that her throat was torn out with teeth. However…” Onkei hesitated. “It didn’t look like the fangs of a beast like a wild dog or wolf.”
“You mean a beast without fangs? Would such a beast attack people?”
“Even monkeys have fangs. Or——”
Onkei stopped speaking as if he was afraid to voice his thoughts. Jusetsu stroked her lips. Humans also have canines.
It can’t be possible, she thought.
“There was one more suspicious thing. There was a lot of blood around the body, but not much from the wound on her neck.”
Jusetsu put her finger on her chin and thought for a moment.
“…So, you mean that she died somewhere else and was brought over there?”
“Perhaps so. If that’s the case, a closer look will reveal traces. It was too dark last night to tell.”
Were the eunuchs walking around in the woods because they were investigating that?
“In any case, please refrain from going out alone, Niangniang.”
“Jiujiu wouldn’t allow that anyways.”
Onkei’s expression relaxed. “Indeed, Niangniang.”
Please listen to that girl, he said.
Somehow, she felt that Onkei had become as fussy as Jiujiu.
When they arrived at Seiu Temple, there was already a visitor there. It was Koushun. There was a table set up in the outer corridor, and he was playing Go with Gyoei. Judging from the fact that the board was made of rosewood with inlays on the sides, and that the Go pieces were colored red and navy blue with flowers and birds, this board was brought by Koushun. It was still before noon, but it was rare for him to be in a place like this.
“Unusually, court council ended early today, so I came here.” Koushun read the look on Jusetsu’s face and answered before she could ask. Jusetsu peered at the board.
“Is Gyoei holding back?”
Gyoei, who was playing with the navy blue stones, was in an inferior position.
“No, no, by no means. His Majesty is very strong.”
Gyoei seemed to be speaking his true thoughts. He groaned as he stroked his beard.
“I’ve been taught by Eitoku since I was a child.”
“Ah, Prime Minister Un has defeated a Go master once.”
Jusetsu sat down on a chair brought over by an acolyte and loosened the collar of her robe. The outer corridor was shaded and cool, but she was sweaty from walking so far.
“I’ll have to give up the game for lost. How about you play a game, Lady Raven Consort?”
Jusetsu glanced at the board and frowned. “I am no match for him.”
“Ho. Are you not skilled at Go?”
“I was taught by Reijou, but I never won. Going easy on someone was a foreign concept to her.”
“I had played against her frequently, but she always gave it her all, didn’t she?”
Gyoei narrowed his eyes in nostalgia. He seemed to be seeing Reijou on the other side of Jusetsu’s face.
“Which one of you was stronger?”
“Well now. I believe I won 123 games, lost 105, and tied 15 games.”
He remembers it well, Jusetsu thought as she stared at Gyoei’s face. He stroked his beard and averted his gaze. He turned back to the board, picked up a blue stone, and placed it back in the Go bowl. One by one, carefully. His profile stated that he refused to talk about Reijou any further. Jusetsu could tell that for him, Reijou was someone that brought both nostalgia and pain.
“…You say you want to retire, but what are you going to do after you leave? Are you going to return to your hometown?”
Gyoei was single and didn’t have a residence outside the imperial palace. She wondered if he had a place to go after he left here.
“My younger brother runs a business in town. He is an oil merchant. I’m going to be staying with him. Well, I’m sure even a senile old man like me would be of some use to him.”
He said easily and held out the bowl of Go stones to Jusetsu.
“Lady Raven Consort, how about you put down some stones and then play? Yes, just five stones. Then, wouldn’t you be able to match against His Majesty?” (1)
He was talking about placing stones on the board in advance and having Koushun go easy on her.
“I refuse,” she said sullenly, and Gyoei laughed.
“I suppose you inherited that competitive spirit from Lady Reijou.”
He put his hands on the table and slowly stood up. “I’m a little tired as well, since I haven’t played against His Majesty in a while. Please allow me to take a break for today.”
Pushing the bowl into Jusetsu’s hands, Gyoei returned to his room from the outer corridor. He then walked out of it, accompanied by an acolyte. Jusetsu glared at the bowl and reluctantly sat down across from Koushun.
“I don’t mind if you put down five or nine stones,” Koushun said, his tone relaxed, and Jusetsu furrowed her brow.
“I have no need for you to hold back on me.”
“Is that so. Then let us have an even game.”
That meant that no stones would be placed as a handicap. Jusetsu furrowed her brow even more.
“…Just three…I’ll only place three stones…”
Koushun laughed at Jusetsu’s frustration. “That’s fine. Do as you like.”
――The result was, of course, that she couldn’t win with only three handicap stones, and it still wasn’t any good when she put down five stones for the next game. Koushun’s nonchalant air was hateful to her.
“You give up too quickly,” Koushun criticized every move played by Jusetsu. “You immediately give up as soon as you’re at a disadvantage. You have to persist more.”
“What’s the use of having persistence for something like this?”
“You’re bitter when you lose.”
“Be quiet.”
They returned their stones to their bowls for another game. Jusetsu quickly put them in, but Koushun put his in slowly, one by one. Just as he put away his stoned and took one in his hand, Ei Sei rounded the corner of the outer corridor with two or three eunuchs behind him.
“Dajia, it’s time for you to return.”
“Ah, is it already time?”
Koushun put the stone back into the bowl and put the lid back on it, then stood up. He was quitting while he was ahead. He looked down at Jusetsu. “If you want to play some more, I’ll play with you again,” he said.
“I will never play you again.”
“Then, play with Ei Sei,” Koushun looked at Ei Sei. His face said, “I have no choice if that’s an order, but I refuse,” so Jusetsu also said “No.” When she refused, Ei Sei looked dissatisfied. What was she supposed to do here?
The eunuchs put the Go board into a wooden casket. It was a beautiful container inlaid with colored ivory. Giving it a sidelong glance, Jusetsu asked Koushun a question.
“…Do you know about the palace lady who died near Yamei Palace?”
“Yes, I’ve heard,” Koushun nodded. “The eunuchs are hunting for the beast in the inner palace right now. You shouldn’t wander around outside too long either.”
“I heard that the palace lady was from Jakusou Palace.”
“She was,” he said, then turned to Jusetsu. “Was she someone you knew?”
“No…”
Even if the dead palace lady was the woman from that night, there was nothing Jusetsu could do. However…
“If you learn her name, let me know. I’ll burn a silk feather for her. She’ll be able to cross the sea without getting lost.”
Silk feathers were bird feathers made of paper. They were used for mourning. Koushun looked at Ei Sei. “Her name was Jo Sei,” Ei Sei replied. She asked him the characters for her name and kept them in mind.
“Did Jo Sei use sweetheart incense?”
She asked him, and received a curt answer. “I don’t know.”
“Sweetheart incense? Isn’t that the incense burned for a loved one? It smells like lilies.”
Jusetsu was surprised that Koushun knew that.
“You know about such things well.”
“I’ve heard about it before. The Magpie Consort scents her clothing with that incense.”
“——What?”
The Magpie Consort scents her clothing with that incense?
No, perhaps it wasn’t so strange for a consort to scent her clothing with sweetheart incense for the emperor. However, Jusetsu felt strangely uneasy. It was as if the sense of uneasiness was creeping up on her with a shadow on its back.
“…I heard that the Magpie Consort is unwell. Is that still the case? I remember that you went to visit her before.”
“She isn’t getting better. I’ve often sent envoys to see her when I couldn’t visit her myself, but apparently, she is confined to bed.”
He looks after his consorts more conscientiously than I expected, she thought briefly, but she was more concerned about the Magpie Consort’s condition.
“Is it a long illness?”
“It isn’t an illness. No, perhaps it can be considered an illness. She’s too depressed to eat or sleep properly.”
“Is that not—very serious?”
Sleeping and eating were foundations of life.
“It is a serious issue. The consort’s family member died recently. She has been like this since.”
“Died?”
“Yes. Her older brother. I heard that he was healthy, but he fell off his horse and was injured in a bad spot.”
“…”
The dead and the sweetheart incense. Jusetsu recalled the woman from that night who requested the resurrection of the dead.
“If she does not recover soon, I will send her back to her parents’ house to recuperate. The Kin clan—ah, the Magpie Consort’s name is Kin Keiyou, and her father’s name is Koukei. He’s the assistant minister of the Palace Secretariat. As a member of the cold faction, I had wanted to welcome his daughter as a consort.”
“Cold faction?”
“To put it frankly, they are a clan with no connection to the Un clan.”
He really did say that in a surprisingly frank manner. In other words, he wanted to use the Kin clan as a check on the Un clan.
“It would be better to return her to her parents than let her die unnecessarily in the inner palace.”
She said, and Koushun started to walk down the corridor. Jusetsu walked next to him. Behind them, the eunuchs followed, reverently carrying the wooden casket. When they reached the temple, Gyoei was waiting for them along with the acolytes to see them off.
“Take care on your way back.”
He spoke a set phrase and bowed.
“Take care of yourself as well. Don’t push yourself too hard.”
Koushun admonished, and Gyoei let out a light laugh. “Thank you, Your Majesty. I’ll be careful.”
Koushun was about to head towards the palanquin when he turned to Jusetsu like he just remembered something.
“You…” He took a look at Jusetsu’s sash. “You aren’t wearing that thing?”
He seemed to be trying to be ambiguous by using “that thing,” but Jusetsu and Koushun both understood what he was referring to. The glass fish figurine. Jusetsu looked at his waist. His transparent glass fish figurine was hanging from his sash. Jusetsu’s was still tucked away in her cabinet.
“Did you not like it?”
“That’s not the case.”
Koushun fell silent. He was expressionless, but somehow, he looked sad. Jusetsu couldn’t stand it any longer and quietly continued.
“…It would be troublesome if I lost it…”
Koushun was silent for a moment and looked at Jusetsu.
“I see. Then I’ll make something you don’t have to worry about losing.”
“What——”
“A wood carving can be recreated right away even if it’s lost. In that case, I suppose a flower would be better than a fish.”
He seemed to have remembered that Jusetsu had wanted a rose as a wood carving before.
“I don’t need it.”
Jusetsu turned him down, but Koushun was unmoved, saying, “There’s no need to be reserved.” Before Jusetsu could say anything more, he got into his palanquin and left the gate. As they exited, Ei Sei looked at her for a moment, then quickly looked away.
“Lady Raven Consort.” As Jusetsu watched the procession leave, Gyoei called out to her. When she turned around, she saw that the acolytes were gone, and only Gyoei was by her side. Onkei was standing off to the side.
“Pity and love are two different things. Do you understand that?”
Jusetsu’s brow furrowed at those sudden words. “What are you talking about?”
“I hope you will remain ignorant of the words I’m speaking. Though I suppose it would be of no use to tell you not to get any closer to His Majesty.”
“Tell that to Koushun. He is always visiting me as he pleases.”
“Because His Majesty is a compassionate man. Do not forget—‘The Raven Consort must not desire anything.’”
She was frequently told this by Reijou herself, not to mention Gyoei.
“I know.”
“Desire breeds suffering. When you are consumed by it—that is when a monster will be born from within you.”
Her breath caught. A monster.
A monster in Niangniang’s eyes…
She recalled Ishiha’s words.
Taking no notice of the frozen Jusetsu, Gyoei bowed and turned on his heel.
“Whenever you feel lost, please remember my words.”
After a few final words that sounded like a farewell, Gyoei returned to the temple. When Jusetsu came back to herself and tried to follow him, he was already gone. She was left alone, feeling like she had been thrown into the air. ——No, she wasn’t alone. Onkei had walked up to her without making a single sound.
“Shall a palanquin be prepared for you, Niangniang? You look pale.”
No, Jusetsu shook her head. “I’m fine. I can walk back.”
It was easier to not think about things when you were moving your legs. Jusetsu headed for the gate. She glanced at Onkei.
“I’m glad that you are here.”
When she let slip her true feelings, Onkei only gave a small smile.
After returning to Yamei Palace, Jusetsu asked Onkei for a favor.
“I want you to look around inside Jakusou Palace. Especially the Magpie Consort’s condition.”
Onkei immediately left the palace. He was a shrewd and careful man, so he would probably return with information after a while.
Jusetsu entered the palace and called out for Jiujiu.
“Before, the palace lady dropped a piece of thin silk when she left. Bring it out.”
Jiujiu brought the silk from another room. Jusetsu brought her face to it. It still had the scent of sweetheart incense on it. She unfolded it and felt its texture. The material was remarkably light, and it laid smoothly against her skin. It was carefully woven with the finest raw silk threads.
“I’ve had the same thought when I touched it for the first time, but this is too high quality to belong to a palace lady.”
“Now that you mention it, it is.”
But there are also wealthy palace ladies, Jiujiu added.
Jusetsu thought back to the woman on that night. She was dressed in a palace lady’s uniform and covered her head with this silk. And from the moment she entered to when she left, she never once bowed to the Raven Consort.
Not even once.
Was it because she was too distraught? However, would a palace lady, who had etiquette training drummed into her, not even bow to a consort when she came to ask her for the desperate favor of resurrection, all because of her emotions at that time?
“What’s wrong, Niangniang?”
Jiujiu asked, seeing her grip the silk with a difficult look on her face.
“…It’s nothing.”
Jusetsu told Jiujiu to put away the silk, and then went to her cabinet to take out the inkstone and an inkstick. She also prepared some pieces of colored hemp paper in the shape of a bird feather. This was a silk feather. In the past, they were made of cotton cloth, and in even older times, they were made of bark fiber. That was how long they had been used in mourning. After grinding ink and picking up a brush, she wrote “Jo Sei” on a piece of paper. It was the name of the dead palace lady.
Jusetsu took a flower-shaped silver plate with legs with her and went outside. She went down the steps and placed the plate on the stones. Her hand went up to her hair and she realized that she wasn’t wearing her peonies because she was dressed as a eunuch. She turned her palm up and held it out in front of her, and a pale pink color shimmered. Petals formed one by one, and in an instant, it became a peony. Jusetsu clamped the flower between her hands and blew on it. When she let go, small pink fragments fell onto the plate and turned into a pale flame.
The colored paper with the name written on it was burned in the fire. A feather-shaped piece of paper with no writing on it was also thrown into the fire in the same way. The paper burned quietly. Jusetsu held her hand out over it. The pale red flame rose up and coiled around her fingers. The flame wasn’t hot. It was faintly warm. She gathered the flame in her hand, squeezed it tightly, and opened her hand. A small bird flew out of her hand. A small bird that was translucent, light red, and sometimes flickered like flames.
The bird flapped its wings high and fast, crossed the woods, and eventually disappeared from sight. It would lead the soul of the dead palace lady to the other side of the sea. As long as she hadn’t become a ghost.
When she returned to the palace with the silver plate in hand, she found Jiujiu cleaning the table.
“Did you burn the silk feathers?” Jiujiu said, the colored paper in her hands. “For mourning the dead palace lady?”
People, not just the Raven Consort, burned silk feathers for mourning. The practice of turning the flame into a bird that would lead the soul was something only the Raven Consort could do, though.
“Shall I change your clothes, then, Niangniang?”
Jiujiu opened the curtains. Jusetsu pinched the robe between her fingers.
“It’s much more comfortable, though, this outfit.”
A eunuch’s uniform was very easy to walk around in. However, Jiujiu scolded her. “You mustn’t.”
“You look lovely in those clothes, dressed like a man, but I think you look best in ruqun.”
“Is that so? …I see.” Jiujiu said that with such force that Jusetsu had to obey. It was better not to go against Jiujiu in situations like these.
As she changed behind the curtains, Ishiha, holding Xingxing in his arms, came in. It seemed that he had been giving it a dust bath.
“You haven’t gone to the woods, have you?”
The beast that killed the palace lady hadn’t been found yet. “No, Niangniang,” Ishiha replied.
“I was behind the palace. Xingxing doesn’t want to go to the woods either.”
“Hmm…?”
Jusetsu gazed at Xingxing, who was faintly visible through the curtains. This mystical bird had been docile lately.
When she finished changing and stepped out from the curtains, Ishiha was kneeling and looking down.
“Is there something the matter?” she asked him. “No, Niangniang,” he responded, his face was slightly red.
“You were in the middle of changing, so he couldn’t raise his face,” Jiujiu said.
“Oh, so that’s it?” Jusetsu said, and got an exasperated face in return.
“Niangniang, you need to learn to have a little more shyness.”
Shyness, Jusetsu murmured. She had enough discretion to change behind the curtains, though.
As the people around her increased, there were more new things to learn. Rather than it being troublesome, it was interesting to learn new things.
“There’s no need to feel shy in front of us servants, but it would be a problem for His Majesty. Niangniang, you used to change clothes without hesitation even when His Majesty is present.”
“I did? I don’t remember.”
Really, Niangniang, Jiujiu grumbled. That was when Onkei entered from the kitchen. Kougyou was behind him as well.
“That was quick, Onkei.”
Onkei bowed to Jusetsu. The movements were brisk and beautiful, as one would expect from a subordinate of Ei Sei.
“As ordered, I have been investigating the people around the Magpie Consort. I am still in the process of doing so, but I want to give you a brief report.”
Mm, Jusetsu prompted him to continue.
“For the past few months, the Magpie Consort has been laid up in bed. It is said that she is depressed because her older brother died suddenly. Now, she only has a few attendants to take care of her, and no palace ladies or eunuchs are allowed to approach her. However…”
Onkei closed his mouth like he had changed his mind.
“What is it?”
“Apparently, she has taken a liking to one eunuch and only keeps him close by her side. They say she has breakdowns when he leaves her.”
“That’s…”
Even for a favorite eunuch, it was somewhat bizarre.
“He is a chi’er who has recently entered the inner palace. He is around twenty years old. I couldn’t exchange words with him, but I’ve been able to confirm his face.”
Onkei turned to Kougyou behind him. Kougyou held out the paper she was holding.
“I described his features and asked her to draw his likeness,” Onkei said and showed Jusetsu the paper. “His name is Hou Shougetsu.”
When she saw the portrait, Jusetsu felt like she had been punched in the chest.
This face.
Long black hair and a beautiful face that no one could ever forget once they saw it.
Owl.
It was the face of the young man she had seen that night when Wulian Niangniang roamed around outside. The one who made her feel a trembling fear from the bottom of her heart.
Jusetsu recalled feeling the same fear at the Jakusou Palace pond. Was that because this man was in the palace?
“Do you know this face?”
Jusetsu couldn’t respond when asked by Onkei. She barely managed a slight nod. Onkei’s eyes sharpened.
“…After the arrival of this person, the Magpie Consort began to keep the people around her at a distance more and more. And sometimes there are strange noises coming from inside her room.”
“Strange noises?”
“Like something is being slurped…and moaning sounds as well.”
Before she knew it, Jusetsu was clasping her hands together. She didn’t know what this all meant, but she had a very bad feeling about it.
“I think there is something going on with Shougetsu and the Magpie Consort. I’m going to look into them a little bit now.”
After saying only that, Onkei bowed and made to leave.
“Wait.”
She called out without thinking. She was confused at that. She didn’t know what she was about to say. She was just thinking that she had to stop him.
Onkei was waiting for Jusetsu’s words.
“No…’tis nothing. Just, don’t pursue it too far.”
“Understood.”
Just as he had done when he came to the palace, Onkei left without making a sound. Jusetsu looked again at the portrait left behind and swallowed. What was this inexpressible uneasiness?
――The sun set, but Onkei didn’t return.