I had no idea what I was feeling at that moment. Everything was just so complicated, and I felt so cornered and helpless. There were things that I worked so hard to decide on. There were things that I wanted to tell him and things that I wanted to do but I couldn’t achieve any of those things and that made me feel so powerless and pitiful. I’m such a failure...
Somewhere along my journey with Hayden, I discovered that I had developed feelings for him. Without knowing when it started, I had fallen in love with him. It was the weirdest thing that had ever happened to me. When I first met him, I didn’t dislike him enough to make me say that I hated him, but I was clearly scared of him and what he might do to me.
From then on, everything that he did for me confused me. He was rough but he was kind. He punished me for everything just to tease me and I ended up feeding off of the pleasure that he fed to me.
Before I knew it, he became an addiction that I wouldn’t dare tell anyone about. He doesn’t say much but when he laughs or is in a good mood, he can easily light up my world. When I think about our future together and all the obstacles that will come our way, it scared me enough to keep me up all night. However, it scared me more when I thought of having a future without him in it.
I love Hayden and if he would just give me a chance, I’ll say it...properly...
The sound of fabric tearing brought me back to my senses. My body had been responding instinctively to the desire that he invoked within me. My core throbbed with my desire to have him inside of me as my pussy leaked out so much wetness that my panties were already soaked with the juices of my arousal.
Incoherent moans escaped my lips before I cried out at the sensation of Hayden ripping the front of my dress to shreds before his hands peeled away the cups of my bra to squeeze and pump my naked breasts directly.
"Hay...den..." I called his name softly.
His voice was so gentle, and it was like he had changed into a completely different person. Was it because he saw me crying? His hand stroked my hair comfortingly as he began kissing my tears away. I tried my best to stifle my sobs. I wasn’t crying because I wanted him to be nice to me or to comfort me. All I wanted was for him to listen to me and take me seriously.
I nodded in response to his question. His anger did scare me; however, that wasn’t why I was crying. I wasn’t crying because of him but I was just so mad at myself for being so useless. I had no idea how to explain this to him and there were more pressing matters that I had to discuss with him. I sucked in a deep breath as I tried to gather both myself and my thoughts.
Hayden’s large hand stroked my head as he cradled me in his arms as if I was a small young girl. It felt strange for him to handle me so gently, but this wasn’t the first time that he comforted me. The way he held me and made me feel safe reminded me of how he was there for me when my grandmother passed away. I didn’t have anyone at all back then, all I had was Hayden. He was the only one by my side.
"Hayden...please listen to me...please..." I pleaded softly.
"If that’s what you want, I’ll listen. So, stop crying now," Hayden replied before he kissed my forehead softly.
I nodded my head in agreement. It wasn’t like I wanted to cry my eyes out in front of him either. Hayden smiled a relieved smile at me before his face came very close to me. I closed my eyes tightly when I thought that he was going to kiss me again. It wasn’t like I minded his kisses, but I just didn’t think that it was the time for that right now.
The sensation of something warm and wet tracing along the side of my face told me that I was wrong. My eyes snapped opened in shock when I realized that Hayden was softly licking up my tears.
"Don’t lick me..." I muttered.
--To be continued...