Even if I skipped on my periods, that didn’t mean that I was pregnant, right?
It has happened to me before especially when I was extremely stressed out and because of that, I wasn’t convinced that I was pregnant.
"You can pee on a pregnancy stick. I’ll get someone to buy a few. Then we can get you checked up properly at the hospital," Hayden replied very calmly.
"You’ll do the check up for me?" I asked, curiously.
"No...we’ll get a proper gynecologist to do it. Your husband isn’t a gynecologist, you know..." Hayden quickly corrected me.
"Oh, right..." I mumbled.
"Don’t worry. You’re not sick, I’m sure that you’re just pregnant," Hayden stated with confidence.
I had no idea why Hayden seemed so sure that I was pregnant. Plus, what does he mean that I’m ’just pregnant’?
Isn’t it supposed to be a super big deal if I’m pregnant? Why doesn’t Hayden seem surprised or excited at all? Although he seems so certain that I’m pregnant.
Later that evening, the pregnancy sticks arrived, and Hayden instructed me to use them as a first check to see if I was pregnant or not. There were four of them, each one from a different brand. I glanced at Hayden and received a reassuring nod from him.
"Do I...pee on all of them?" I asked while feeling uncertain about what I was supposed to do.
Now that the time had arrived for me to take the tests, I just felt so nervous and then I realized that I was scared of knowing the result. My emotions were a mess, and I had no idea what result I was secretly hoping for.
Do I want to be pregnant with Hayden’s child right now?
After I had peed on the first test stick, I felt relieved but also very excited at the same time. When I took in a deep breath and closed my eyes, I found myself praying that the result would turn out to be positive. That was probably the moment when I truly realized that I had been hoping that I would get pregnant.
After accepting that and embracing it, I started praying so hard and so desperately for the result to be positive. I truly wanted to have a baby with Hayden.
I felt his arm around my shoulder and when I opened my eyes, Hayden was standing next to me while I still sat on the toilet seat. All that was needed was a few minutes for the result to show. Although my eyes were opened, I didn’t dare take a look at the pregnancy stick. Instead, I kept my eyes glued to Hayden’s angelic face as I tipped my face upwards and smiled at him.
"The results should be out," Hayden stated.
"Can you take a look for me?" I asked a little shyly.
I was flat out scared, but for some reason, it made me feel better when I thought that Hayden would be the one telling me the result of the test.
"It’s positive," Hayden stated emotionlessly.
"Really?" I exclaimed with widened eyes.
I just couldn’t quite believe that it was happening...
"You can see for yourself. See? I told you so," Hayden said with a small smile as he showed me the pregnancy stick.
True to his words, there were two lines on the stick which meant that I was indeed pregnant.
"Want to keep peeing on the other ones until you’re satisfied?" Hayden asked.
--To be continued...