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"You're not married yet. If you miscarry twice, the walls of the uterus will become thinner and thinner. I'm afraid you won't even have a chance to think about it in the future." The doctor shook his head and said, "Talk to your boyfriend about it. Let's get married quickly and try not to take the risk."

When the doctor said "boyfriend," he reminded me.

Lin Yufan, how is that my boyfriend?

I had tried so hard to marry him that I could no longer "blackmail" him into marrying me, and besides, how could Eight of Willows be so despicable?

One could be poor, but one could not be shameless.

This was what my mother had repeatedly taught me. Now, even though my mother was gone, I don't think even if my mother was still alive, she would still not let me do it.

Thinking about this, I made up my mind, "I can't have this child, I want to do... Abortion. "

Even though the word "abortion" came out of my mouth with such difficulty, I still said it out loud.

"Have you decided?" The doctor looked at me, frowned, sighed, and said, "If you think it through, you can do it now. "I'll pay the entrance fee first and then come back here."

The doctor went to see the next patient.

I hesitated to hand over the operation fee, then scuttled around like a thief, hoping to miraculously see Lin Yufan's figure. Then, what would happen to me? Will the outcome of the child I have in my womb change?

I don't even know what my brain is thinking.

One doesn't do two things.

It was not the time to have children.

With that in mind, I gave the list to the doctor and followed his instructions to the operating room in the back room.

Following the doctor's instructions, I lay down on the cold surgical bed and listened to the doctor fiddling with the instruments. My heart immediately tightened.

"Separate your legs." said the doctor, expressionlessly. I feel so ashamed.

I had never been like this in front of a stranger in my life, but now I felt like a piece of meat on a chopping board.

I can't have this child.

I thought, spreading my legs.

The doctor placed my legs on either side of the rack, then stood there and put on my gloves.

My heart leaped in my throat, and I clenched my hands. I was so nervous that I pulled up two lumps of the disposable bedsheet.

"What's there to be nervous about? "The more nervous I get, the more painful it will feel." The doctor poured a trickle of liquid into my body, and I felt cold.

"What are you doing?" I asked nervously.

"Disinfection." The doctor's tone was as flat as a plank, said the doctor, and he began to shave me there.

I feel as if I'm going to pass out of nervousness.

Persist, persevere.

Eight o'clock, you can't have this child.

There are so many things in your family, Xu Ziyin vegetable, Xiaomei needs you to keep her. A child's birth will bring about many unexpected things, and right now you simply don't have the ability to raise a child. Furthermore, as an unmarried mother, you will have to bear a lot of social pressure.

I know that when a person is loved, anything they do will make the other person feel more tender towards them. And when a person is hated, everything they do is wrong.

I was too nervous to move.

When the doctor finally finished shaving, he began disinfection with cold alcohol.

Cold enters the bone marrow.

What was even colder was the human heart.

Mommy, Mommy, bless me!

In my heart, I begged my mother in heaven to protect me, because at this moment, there was no one willing to protect me.

The doctor finished detoxifying, turned around, and a moment later came back with a white plate.

She set the plate aside, and I could clearly see a pile of stainless steel utensils, clips, scissors, and so on.

Do I have to use these devices to get into my body?

What would that feel like?

As I thought about it, the doctor had already taken an instrument of some kind and was tentatively trying to prop me up.

"Don't —" I burst out.

The doctor stopped and looked at me quizzically.

In her left hand, I saw, was a large plastic instrument, and in her right a sharp, silvery stainless steel instrument.

I suddenly understood that this was what she had used to get my child out.

"No!" I suddenly felt impetuous, unable to control myself.

All I know is, I have to get out of here.

I rolled off the operating bed and pulled on my clothes.

"You … Should he still do it? "What are you doing?" the doctor called angrily behind me.

I saw that her left hand was still holding the stainless steel pliers, and her right hand was still holding the strange plastic thing.

I don't want to be here anymore.

At that moment, I felt as cold as hell.

Without saying anything further, I quickly opened the door and escaped as fast as I could.

I ran as fast as if I were afraid someone was after me.

While I was escaping like a fly, I finally made up my mind. No matter what others said about me, no matter how Lin Yufan thought of me, I must give birth to this child. I must give birth.

I thought I saw my mother's eyes in heaven.

My mother was a believer. She couldn't even bear to send me to an orphanage. How could she support my miscarriage?

She wouldn't allow me to do anything that would harm my life, not to mention right now, she's my and Lin Yufan's child, the flesh and blood in my body.

I went back to the hotel.

As usual, he tried to remain calm.

Make yourself look as if nothing had happened, and work as usual.

How I look forward to Lin Yufan suddenly knowing the truth of the matter, in my heart understood, I am only a victim, he suddenly forgave me, appeared at my side!

However, his figure only appeared in my illusions. Every time I felt that he had appeared, he actually hadn't appeared at all.

With days like this, I can only live them off by working as hard as I can.

Master Liu and I discussed the new dishes, and the head waiter, Little Jia, analyzed the customers' dining situation and considered the flaws in the management …

Even so, time was still extremely long.

I felt like an empty cocoon, my whole body empty.

On the eighth day, he finally heard the news of Lin Yufan and Gu Yifei getting married.

I couldn't hold it in any longer. My whole body collapsed in an instant.

I ran out of the hotel crying, not knowing where I was going, just running along the road …

All of a sudden, there was a loud whistle behind me, and I turned my head, and an unmarked silver Mercedes SUV came flying at me!