Chapter 61

This night I toss and turn, not because Qin Mofei crowded into my small bedroom, but those overwhelming posts.

People will have a little self-esteem, even if I go wrong, but also have been careful to maintain that little poor face. Because once I tear that skin off, I'm going to get really sick.

Now, I seem to have lost all the cover up clowns, in the red, naked people around, laughing.

Qin Mofei repeatedly asked me not to worry about it. He said that people live not for others to see, but for themselves. He is standing to speak without backache, because he is the God above, and I am nothing.

In the middle of the night, there was a heavy rain outside. I got up, closed the window, and then went back to bed to sleep. I sat on the balcony, staring at the rainstorm.

I think a lot, when I was a child, I think a little bit about the year when my father was seriously ill. Dad is particularly worried about leaving. He thinks that his mother will not be taken care of after he leaves, because she is habitually dependent on him.

It was me. He said that I had been independent since I was young, so he only told me to take good care of my mother at that moment when I died. He didn't tell me how to go in the future. He would be very sad and disappointed if he knew what I had now.

I suddenly tired to the extreme, want to escape far away, no one can find me. Or just shut up in this room, waiting to die. In fact, I want to die many times. Every time I encounter a setback that I can't cross, the first thing I think about is death. I just can't let go of mom and Xiao Fan.

What should I do? It's going to be light on the sky horse. Will I become the first one in hot search tomorrow and be stripped of all history so that passers-by know that I am a pimp.

I cried quietly in the dark night, although I know that tears can not solve anything, but now I can freely squander is tears. I covered my face and cried, and I felt that I was the least welcome woman in the world.

"I thought you should be a very strong person. Why do you always cry? If it was useful, tears would have flowed into a river in the world

Behind him came Qin Mofei's cool and thin voice. I felt embarrassed and quickly sucked my nose to stop crying. I turned my head and looked at his shadow with tears in my eyes. He took a dress to put on my body and gently rubbed my hair. The temperature of palm made me feel a little bit at ease.

"In the past, when I was studying, my ambition was very high, but later my pride was destroyed. Murphy, you don't understand the feeling of falling from heaven to hell. It's boring to live at that moment. "

"Is it something that has gone through the body of Chen Jiushen

"Yes, from that moment on, I felt that my life was over. Later, when I thought I could finally leave, I was assailed again. At that time, in the hospital at that time, I had to look at the nurses and doctors with different eyes almost every day, which made me feel very ashamed

"Do you hate the man who owns you?" He held his hand for a moment and drew back.

I nodded. "Hate, hate him. Why didn't he be a little more kind? Why did he hurt me and give me a child?"

"Do you hate Xiao Fan?"

"I don't hate it. If it wasn't for Xiao Fan, I didn't dare to mention that man. Once I thought about it, I would hate that knife stabbed him. Now it's much better. Although he is a jerk, at least Xiao Fan is cute

"Happy face, have you ever thought that the person may be involuntarily? Otherwise, how could you be injured and hospitalized? "

"Maybe, I can't find out whether it's right or not. I don't know who he is."

I sighed and looked up at Qin Mofei. His face was not clear in the dark, but his cool eyes were still frightening. I can't help but cover his face, feel his face cold.

"Murphy, why is your temper so strange? Sometimes tender, sometimes cold, I suspect you have personality

This may be a bad mood, so I taboo not so much, mentioned the quirks of Qin Mofei. He didn't get angry. He just grabbed me and held me in his arms. His fingertips pierced my hair.

He was silent for a long time, sighed and said, "sleep, I'll take you somewhere tomorrow."

"Yes?"

"Then you will know."

……

I didn't expect that Qin Mofei would bring me to the Qin ancestral hall. This is an ancient Zhuangzi in the suburb of modu. Chuang Tzu is surrounded by lush green trees. It is also close to hills and lakes, which makes it feel like a mountain and a river.

Chuang Tzu is a seven in the courtyard, in which there are only two guards. Therefore, although the place was deserted, it was spotless everywhere, with a kind of awe inspiring solemnity. There are courtyards in front of Chuang Tzu, and the inner main hall is the place where the spirit tablets are placed. It has been dense for many generations.

Qin Mofei did not introduce me to these spiritual tablets, but led me to a memorial tablet named Chu ningqiu. Under the memorial tablet was written Qin Mofei, but the husband's side was blank.

I looked at him suspiciously, "is this your mother?"

"Well, I've been walking for more than ten years. I committed suicide because of depression."“…… You're sorry. "

"I was only seven years old when my mother suffered from depression, and she was usually very gentle and loving. But when she got sick, she would beat me and beat me to the hospital several times. But even in that case, I hope she will live, but every time she wakes up, she will feel sad to see me covered with black and blue, so that later she can't stand her own suicide. "

I have no words to say. I want to come to a Fei to say that he had a very dark life when he was a child. Should that be it? No wonder that he can sometimes be tender and sometimes so vicious. It may be because of Mrs. Chu.

"My mother was very sober when she left and said a lot of things to me." Qin Mofei said that he picked up a clean towel and wiped the dust on the Lingpai again and again. The star eyes were full of sadness.

I wanted to say something to comfort him, only to find that I was in the same boat with him. I stopped for a moment and said, "your family is so good. Why does Mrs. Chu get such a disease?"

"She was pregnant with a child, and when she was about to give birth, there was no accident. Later, she washed her face with tears every day, until my father found out that she was ill, it was too late."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked that."

"Huanyan, do you know what's most touching about you?"

He suddenly put down the Lingpai and looked at me with cool eyes. I shook my head because I always felt that what he felt about me was that he was interested in my body. Otherwise, it will not be good or bad.

He stopped and said, "it's because of the children. It takes a lot of courage for a woman in love to give birth to an Italian child at all costs."

"In fact, you think highly of me. I just don't dare to take it off because of my poor health." I laughed at myself and walked out of the ancestral hall.

Qin Mofei also followed me out and took me to the front yard. The two servants guarding the villa saw that he was submissive and seemed afraid of him. He took me to a wing room, which actually placed a few pots of green roses, very elegant.

"If you have bad legs, you can live here for a while. There is no network and no electrical appliances. It will be very comfortable."

"It's not very good. This place is your ancestral hall. I'm a stranger here. It's not very nice."

"It doesn't matter. I say it's OK. I'll accompany you."

“……”

I've never lived a life of sunrise and sunset. However, with Qin Mofei in the Qin family ancestral hall, but experienced such a day, really comfortable, very warm.

When life is not disturbed by modern technology, people's mood will be particularly quiet, even if they see a flower that may wither at any time in the corner of the wall will be moved.

What moved me even more was Qin Mofei's company and care. He cooked three meals a day and brought water and vegetables from the well. Every time he was busy, I would sit on the stone bench in the yard and quietly watch, and would secretly sketch these pictures down.

There are many painting tools in this yard. I started painting on the spur of the moment. But there is no one but Qin Mofei in the picture. He does the washing, he cooks, and he cleans. It is very life-oriented.

He seems to like this kind of life very much. When he is finished, he will take me to the back mountain to see the scenery, the burning clouds at sunrise, and the sunset glow at sunset. This is an indescribable pleasure.

I spent day after day without being disturbed, and had no time or opportunity to think about the gossip. Under his careful care, my legs are getting better and better, and I can walk without crutches.

He hasn't left the ancestral hall in these days. I don't know how his work is handled, or he hasn't. Because our mobile phones were turned off by him, completely in a primitive state.

During this period of time, I didn't contact my mother. Qin Mofei refused to let me. He said that a Fei and Qin Yu took care of them. He told me to relax for a while. When I got back to the magic city, there would be no such chance. He said it very well.

We returned to the city in early October. It has been more than 20 days since I left. I thought that those rumors had faded with time, but there came a wave that was more unbearable: I was picked out of the affair of Qin Mofei.

There are noses and eyes, and there are pictures of us together. Although they are all taken secretly, it seems that there is a premeditation to see the clarity of the photos.

Of course, it's not the point. The point is that I want to get married to a rich family, so many people just can't help themselves.

So as soon as I got back to the city, I was invited by Mr. Qin to attend a banquet held by him in the middle of the month. This is clearly the Hongmen banquet. However, Qin Mofei insisted that I go there, saying that there might be places where I could help and let me act according to circumstances.

I thought that he was so careful these days that I agreed, but I didn't expect that he would also excitedly find stylists and designers to tailor my hair and clothes, which made me very scared.

At the middle of the month, I dressed like a princess, wearing a light blue dress specially made for me by David, a famous designer. The point is that I also put on the big diamond ring that he gave me.