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"You stop, you don't come again, if you come again, I will jump down directly."

When Zhao Xue saw me walking towards her, she immediately warned me.

I didn't dare to move, because I saw that one of her feet had begun to hang in the air. As long as the woman's center of gravity was slightly unstable, she might die at any time.

Although I know that there should be an air bed under Zhao Xue's jump, it's a floor dozens of meters high. Even if there are protective measures, she will be doomed to jump, so I can't let her have an accident.

"Well, I won't move, but you take your feet back first. You're in danger."

"Scared? Where was your courage to jump off the building just now? Zhang Shan, don't think I don't know what you're thinking. Don't you just want to save me from the roof when I don't pay attention? Do you think that's useful? If you don't promise me, I'll still jump off the building, or I'll be like this. Can you cheat me every time? "

Zhao Xue looked at me and said with a resolute face.

I did not speak, I did not expect Zhao Xue suddenly guessed my purpose, but then I felt very angry, because I was worried about things or happened.

"Zhang Shan, I don't want to argue with you so much. I just want to ask you, do you agree to stay with me?"

Zhao Xue saw my silence and asked again on the roof.

I still didn't speak, because I can't promise her. Even if I promise now, I still can't be with her. After all, I've completely given up on Zhao Xue.

But if I don't promise, I know that she is likely to do stupid things next, and I will fall into self blame all my life.

So next I stood there, very tangled in my heart.

"Zhang Shan, why don't you talk? Don't you want to promise me? It doesn't matter. I won't force you. Go down if you don't promise me. Go back and live your life well. Only when you are free on Tomb Sweeping Day, go to my grave and burn some paper. It doesn't matter if you don't have any empty words. Anyway, I'm gone, and you can be free."

Zhao Xue looks at me and laughs miserably.

With that, I saw her ready to jump.

"No!"

I hastened to stop, panic, a foot almost fell.

"Zhang Shan!"

"Brother Shan!"

Zhao Xue saw that I almost fell down, and her face changed immediately. Li Feng was also anxious and worried.

"I'm fine. I'm fine. I just slipped."

I looked at Li Feng and said with lingering fear.

Just now, if I hadn't reacted quickly, I would have gone to see the king of hell.

However, although I was afraid to die in my heart, when I thought that it would be over after I died, I was a little sorry why I didn't slide down directly just now, so I don't have to worry about it.

"Zhao Xue, although I don't know why you insist on making up with me, I don't love you now. Really, I've put you down. I'm really tired. If you want to have a rest, can't you let me go?"

Calm down for a while, I said immediately.

"You lie, if you don't love me, last time you know I cut my wrist to commit suicide, you won't go to the hospital to see me, if you don't love me, you don't come back to persuade me today, if you don't love me, you just won't come up, say to accompany me to die, why do you want to cheat yourself, why do you want to cheat me?"

Zhao Xue again emotional way.

I know what Zhao Xue says now is the truth. Although I say I don't love her, how can I forget the feelings I've paid with my heart in recent years? I say that just to make her give up. As for love, I'm really tired and can't love any more.

"Well, since you say so, I'll let you die today."

"You said I went to the hospital to see you, came here to advise you, and even died with you. Do you know why? This is because although my love for you is gone, I still have the basic conscience of being a human being, and my concern for you is still there. "

"You don't think that I care about you now is to love you. You are wrong. This is not love, because the person standing here today is not you, but someone else. As long as I know her and as long as she is my friend, I won't watch her and do nothing."

"Zhao Xue, I'm tired. I'm really tired. Looking back on those years when we had no money, but how happy we were. I've been married since I fell in love. I only think about one thing every day, which is to make money hard and then let you live a good life. Because I think you've wronged you when you married me, I'll try my best to make money so that you don't worry about firewood, rice, oil and salt."

"During the day, I work in the company. I'm very careful, and I'm even more conscientious. I don't dare to make any mistakes, because I know that this is the only income support of our family. After work, when other people go home, their wives and children heat the Kang, but I still have to run. Why do I? Isn't it just to make more money? "

"Do you know how much effort I make every day to maintain our love? Every day you make trouble out of nothing, lose your temper, even beat me and scold me, and say that I'm a loser in front of others. I'm not a man and have no seed. I don't even answer back. Do you know why? ""Because I'm a man, I want to make you happy. They can say whatever others say. As long as you recognize me and love me, it's enough. So I'd rather be a loser all my life than see you suffer a little injustice."

"But do you know what I'm switching from? What I exchange for is not your recognition and love. What I exchange for is betrayal, heartless, even murder. Do you know that the day I learned that you betrayed me, I was in despair? Do you really think I haven't thought about suicide like you? "

"If I could, I would have died long ago, and you would not have the chance to jump off a building. But I know that when I die, you will be sad. I know that we have loved each other. Even if you are merciless to me, you will be sad for me, so I dare not commit suicide, because I want you to be happy, even if we are not together in the future."

"Zhao Xue, I'm really tired, and I don't want to toss any more, because I have finished what I should do. I don't know if I have to do this to make you happy. I don't know if you will be happy only when I die, but now it doesn't matter, because my heart is dead."

After that, I found that tears had covered my face.

I don't know why I said these words today, but I know that these words have been piling up in my heart for a long time.

Now taking this opportunity to say it, I suddenly feel inexplicably relaxed.

Because I find that after I finish, I have completely put Zhao Xue down. Even if I still care about her in my heart, even if she has an accident, I will be sad and guilty, but at least I have done my utmost to her.

So, next I see Zhao Xue after listening to no response, standing on the edge of the roof abruptly laugh.

"Zhang Shan, what are you laughing at?"

After Zhao Xue was silent, she looked at me and asked.

"Nothing. I just feel a lot easier to say and make a decision."

I looked at Zhao Xue and said with a deliberate smile.

"What decision?"

Zhao Xue asked again.

"It's not your decision."

I looked at Zhao Xue and said firmly.

"As you said, as long as you are willing to die, even if I cheat you today, you will still seek death in the future. Although I don't know whether you believe in life, I believe that everyone's life is calculated in advance by the master. When should you die? Even if you hide on the moon, you can't run away, you shouldn't die, you can't commit suicide."

"So are you going to force me to jump off the stairs?"

Zhao Xue looked at me and asked in surprise.

"You're wrong. It's not that I forced you to jump from the upstairs, but your own choice. I can't make your decision or stop your behavior. I can only advise you. If you listen, everyone will be happy. If you don't listen, I can't help it, because that's all I can do for you."

I watched Zhao Xue calm down again.

But after that, I went down from the edge of the roof.

Because I just went up to prevent Zhao Xue from jumping off the building, but she has been so stubborn. Although I want to die, I know better that my life is not my own. I have parents, friends and even people who like me.

I really need to be responsible for Zhao Xue, but I also need to be responsible for them.

So I can't be so selfish.

"Zhang Shan, what are you doing? Are you leaving now? Aren't you afraid that I'll jump? "

Zhao Xue saw me go down and immediately asked me again.

"Of course I'm afraid, but I know it's useless even if I'm afraid, because I can't agree to your conditions. The past is the past. Even if you think I've changed, ruthless and indifferent now, I still have that sentence. What I can do for you has been done. I can save you once, but I can't save you forever. Do you understand?"

I stood there looking at Zhao Xue on the high ground and answered firmly.

Zhao Xue didn't speak, just looked at me in shock, because she didn't seem to believe that I became so heartless at this moment.

I don't have any expression, and I don't have any action. I just stand there and watch Zhao Xue.

Now that I have made a decision, I don't want to hesitate any more, because the more hesitant I am, the more harm it will do to Zhao Xue and me, so I don't go now, just to see her more.

So that when I think of her one day, I can know that I have not failed this woman.

"Zhang Shan, since you are so heartless and don't promise to give me a chance, I have nothing to miss. Do you really think I'm scaring you like cutting my wrist this time? You're wrong. Today I'm ready to die. I just want to make one last effort before I die. If I fail now, I have nothing to regret. "

Zhao Xue looked at me and suddenly said with a smile, but I saw her smile in my heart is very uncomfortable.

"Zhang Shan, do you think I'm beautiful today? Because I put on your favorite light make-up before going out. I know you don't like heavy make-up. You only like my pure appearance. It's a pity that this is the last time. "

"Goodbye, Zhang Shan!"With that, Zhao Xue jumped out of the building regardless of our surprise.