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Although I think this is a bit selfish, but my starting point is good, so next I made a decision.

But then before I spoke, Xia Xiaofei looked at me and asked, "brother Shan, do you really want me to go?"

I didn't say anything because it was the second time she asked me today, so I had to answer it well.

"Brother Shan, in fact, if you don't tell me, I know that it's a certainty for me to go abroad. I thought it would happen at that time. He came to persuade me, but I didn't expect that you became his lobbyist."

Xia Xiaofei didn't wait for me to speak, and said to me.

"So you're actually ready to go abroad?"

I looked at her in surprise and asked.

"Yes, when he mentioned it to me, I knew that in his attitude, I had to go abroad in the end, but I hated him, so I opposed it all the time. I didn't expect to meet you later, so I didn't want to go abroad any more, because I couldn't see you after going abroad."

Xia Xiaofei nodded and replied.

"Why can't you see me? Now the network technology is more developed. As long as you like, we can video every day."

Although I was surprised, I still talked her out.

"It's different. The calls in the video are emotionless. I want to see you alive, brother Shan. Do you know why I don't want to go abroad now?"

Xia Xiaofei shook his head at me and asked again.

"Why?"

I asked, following her.

"Because I can't bear you!"

Xia Xiaofei said, two lines of tears fell from the corner of her eyes.

Seeing her cry, the determination in my heart was broken in an instant. Although Xia Xiaofei's words were only a few words, every word hit me like Taishan, which made me realize her reluctance.

Next, instead of speaking, I asked myself in my heart.

Although Xia Xiaofei's going abroad has become a fact in my heart, now I see her crying, but I don't think it's necessary to do it. After all, the main reason Xia Jun worries about Xia Xiaofei is that he's afraid that someone will retaliate against her. If I can do this, let Xia Jun relax, won't I have the best of both worlds?

Thinking of this, I can't help but feel happy.

"Xiaofei, I ask you, do you really don't want to go abroad?"

I looked at her and asked, but she shook her head at me.

"No

I was confused because I didn't expect her to answer like that.

"Why? Didn't you just say you didn't want to leave me and give up on me? "

"It's not that I don't want to go abroad. I just don't want to leave you, brother Shan. I know you treat me as a child or your sister all the time. In fact, I like this, but I don't want you to treat me like this, because I really like you so much that I can't control myself."

"Brother Shan, maybe you can't understand what I feel now, but I think you must understand, because you once loved someone, and you can understand the feeling in my heart. Now I try my best to tell me that I don't want to think about you, but I just can't do it. I'm not used to just separated from you for a few days, so I feel very uncomfortable when I think of going abroad."

Xia Xiaofei shook her head at me and replied.

The girl's voice is very light, but it falls heavily in my heart, just like her saying that she didn't give up on me. If I still hope that I can persuade the little girl to go abroad today, then now my idea begins to waver.

"In that case, I won't advise you. Since you don't want to leave me, stay with me."

I don't know how much courage it took to say this sentence, because I know that this kind of words from my mouth is undoubtedly a compromise to myself, and also a slap to myself.

Because I have said to Xia Jun and myself more than once that I can't have anything to do with Xia Xiaofei in my life.

Now I said such words, no doubt equal to I accepted this girl like me, even married me.

Although I don't know if I'm doing it right, I know that I have only one choice now, because I really don't want to hurt this little girl, so I can only do it.

"Brother Shan, is that true? Can I really not go? "

Xia Xiaofei listened to my words and asked in surprise.

"Yes, if you really don't want to go, I won't force you. Although your father insists on letting you go, I will help you persuade him, so you don't have to worry about anything, just..."

I nodded back, but at last I hesitated.

"Just what?"

Xia Xiaofei asked anxiously.

"It's just that I haven't divorced yet, and the age gap is so big, so I hope you can gradually weaken your feelings towards me in the future. After all, you still have a good life, and my life is like this."

I smile at her self mockery, and then persuade said.

In fact, I refuse Xia Xiaofei's confession in disguise. Although I feel bad in my heart, I can't have no bottom line again. After all, I really don't deserve this girl now."I don't mind. I know what brother Shan is worried about. In fact, these are not problems. The problem is that brother Shan doesn't want to accept me at all, so he pushes me away again and again, right?"

Xia Xiaofei did not accept my answer, but asked me.

I didn't answer in silence, because I didn't know how to refute her.

"Brother Shan, I know that you don't do it because you don't like me, but because you want to protect me, or that you are responsible for me. But brother Shan, you don't know that the more you do it, the more you prove that I like you. This choice is not wrong, so I decided to love you. It's a deliberate choice."

Xia Xiaofei see I don't speak, immediately said.

"Why, you have no result with me like this. You should have your own perfect life."

I replied with a sigh.

Although such scenes have appeared before, the protagonist is not Xia Xiaofei, but Zhao Xue.

At that time, I was just like this now. I couldn't bear it in my heart, and my attitude was firm, but the difference was that I really gave up my heart to Zhao Xue, and I protected Xia Xiaofei completely, or I was responsible. After all, this girl is still young, and she probably can't distinguish between love and love.

"Brother Shan, you are wrong. At my age, it is the greatest happiness to have a person I like. If you push me out, there will only be one consequence, that is, I am afraid of loving someone. So brother Shan, don't push me away, OK?"

Xia Xiaofei looked at me and analyzed calmly.

"I..."

I don't know how to answer her again, because I think what she said is very right.

"Brother Shan, you don't have to admit it. I know that you certainly don't want me to leave. You just don't want to hurt me. So as long as you promise not to push me away, I can promise you to go abroad."

Xia Xiaofei saw that I was silent again, she immediately put forward the conditions.

"Don't you want to go abroad?"

I asked in surprise and looked at the contradictory little girl.

"Although I don't want to go abroad, I know you want me to go abroad, so even if I don't want to go abroad, I will listen to you at last. I just want to let you accept me before I go out, so that I have a thought after I go out, and I won't be lonely when I go abroad."

Xia Xiaofei looked at me and said with a smile, but I can feel endless grievances from her words.

I don't think I'm a saint of love, and I didn't do anything good in my last life. But now I see that this girl likes me so obstinately. Even if I'm a stone, I should be moved now. So even though I know we have no result, I still nodded and agreed to her.

"I can promise not to refuse your feelings in the future, but I hope you don't hurt yourself."

"Don't worry, brother Shan, I won't hurt myself, because I won't go now. I have to wait until my father is arrested. Although I don't know how long it will be, I hope you can hold me and take care of me like you do today."

Xia Xiaofei nods and answers.

I don't know if I'm wrong, because according to what I just thought, this girl should be ready to leave immediately after she promised, but I didn't expect that she was ready to wait until Xia Jun was arrested, which made me a little surprised.

After all, I really don't know how to explain to Xia Jun.

Because I can imagine that after saying this, Xia Jun would doubt me, so for a moment I began to feel embarrassed again.

"Don't worry, brother Shan. I know what you are worried about. Isn't it a holiday today? I'll tell my dad about it when I get back tomorrow, and I promise I won't make you embarrassed

Xia Xiaofei saw that I was in a dilemma and explained immediately.

I didn't say anything, but I just laughed, because I suddenly found that this girl was so understanding as Xia Yu, so that when I was happy, I couldn't help kissing her face.

"Oh, brother Shan, you've made saliva all over my face. I'll have to wipe it with a tissue later."

Xia Xiaofei looked at me with a smile. Although she said this, she didn't blame me at all.

"Why do you dislike me?"

While I'm happy, I can't help pretending to be dissatisfied.

"No, it's just brother Shan. If you want to kiss me, you should kiss my mouth. How can you kiss my face all the time?"

Xia Xiaofei pointed to her thin lips and said.

"I just like to kiss your face. I can't do it. I won't kiss you in the future."

"Well, well, I'll let you kiss me."

"That's about the same. Give me the face."

"Here you are."

I continued to quarrel with her, but then the girl's words suddenly changed.

"By the way, brother Shan, will you take me to the hotel later?"

"What did you say?"I asked subconsciously, and at the same time, I looked at Xia Xiaofei with wide eyes, because I didn't expect her to turn the topic to this again.