Chapter 474: A Saint's Questions
A wealth of lessons followed Merzhin through a life spent in the churchhis home and sanctuary. And though he did not quote them to each and everyone around himas they had been uttered by the mouths of mortals and not the holy word of Uldarthat did not mean that he had not called on them often in his own private moments.
Scores of little anecdotes and phrases shared by the priests that raised him, the children he grew up alongside, and even the layfolk who kept his church home clean, dry and in good repair, were his companions throughout his young life.
Some were grand lessons, such as Father Dales telling of his journey to the church, and how folk could wash away dark years through the light of forgiveness.
Uldar forgives, true, hed said as he knelt before the sepulchre. But, you will never truly believe it if you do not also forgive yourself for your own past.
That lesson had done much to grow Merzhins empathy and his kindness toward himself. Then there were the simple day to day words of wisdom, like those imparted by Layman Yorrick one winters day.
You know, it always pays to do your hardest work at the beginning of your day, hed said, shovelling the church yard clear of snow alongside Merzhin and the other acolytes. Your mind is clearest then. Leave easy work for a tired mind and a fatigued body, I say. The afternoon you will thank yourself for the easier burden.
That lesson had taught Merzhin much about how to organise his day. And finally, there were the little expressions that would pop into his mind as echoes from the voices of his fellow acolytes.
I swear, Merzhin, Acolyte Joanna had glared at him one day after hed been in a mood. Youve got to stop stewing in your own holy brew. You look sour enough to scare off the Ravener.
And those words? Those words had not really taught him anything new, but the phrase had stuck in his mind for years to come, giving him a way to refer to people who we were caught up in simmering anger.
He always thought of them as stewing in their own holy brew.
And right now?
Merzhin was stewing in his own holy brew.
Might we get you anything, Holy Saint? A priest broke him out of his reverie.
I am sorry, my mind waselsewhere, Merzhin said, slowly looking up at the priest. No, my fellow brother in Uldars grace, I am fine. May holy Uldars glory walk with you today.
The priest bowed deeply. Of course, Holy Saint. I will leave you to your contemplation. May Uldar guide your thoughts. And may he guide the other Holy Heroes in their journey as well.
Merzhins jaw twitched, and he did not trust himself to answer as the man left him, for those same Heroes were the source of his anger. Warmed by a miracle of Uldar, the Holy Saint sat cross-legged on a boulder he had cleared of snow, considering his confrontation with the other Heroes earlier.
Im beginning to suspect these trips of yours, quite frankly, hed said to Cedric, Drestra and Hart as the three gathered belongings in their tent. I understand that your last journey to the Generasians was out of necessity for our unholy enemies had menaced them, but remember, Uldar, this land, and its people need you here.
Its gonna be quick-like, Merzhin, Cedric had said, and the Saint hadnt missed the note of tension in his voice. That tension had cloaked himand Drestrasince their return from Greymoor, and, for all of Uldars holy insight, he could not uncover why. Well take the fae roads, help our friends, get in a bit o learnin an be back before you know it.
But you are needed here, Merzhin had insisted. Every hour you spend away is an hour the enemy could be mustering.
True. Hart had been toying with a dagger which hed slid into a sheath. But you know whats going to help with that? Gathering our own strength. Maybe you should be looking at this as an opportunity the Generasians are giving us to hone our skills so we can go into battle at our strongest, right?
Holy Uldar has provided gifts to prepare us for our trials ahead, Merzhin had frowned. The rest we can learn on the battlefield while doing good for our land.
As the other three Heroes had gallivanted across Thameland alone, making deals with fae and commiserating with wizards, Merzhin had turned his attention to their staunch followers. He had ministered to them, heard their troubles, healed their wounds and steadied their spirits.
In return, they had granted him companionship and succour for his soul, healing some of the shameful loneliness that had crept into his heart. Struck by the thought, he slowed his step, pausing in the middle of the small encampment.
A shocked chuckle escaped his lips.
How could I have been so blind? He thought, chiding himself. I did not hear Uldars answer because he had already given it! Though a rift might grow between the others and myself, I have to truly ask: were we ever close? No, we were not. Nor do we have to be: we are not granted our roles to make friends with each other. We are granted our power to eliminate our enemies. And have we not been doing so admirably?
He pondered his fellow Heroes. Hart is brutish, crude, and nearly faithless, but he is a stout slayer of Ravener-spawn. Cedric struggles to please those around him and is too weak of spirit for the mantle of leadership that Uldar has placed upon his shoulders. But he is courageous, skilled and leads by example. Drestra?
He fought a small surge of displeasure, knowing well it was an unworthy emotion. She is cowardly, shrewd, faithless, cold and unapproachable. But is she not a deadly force on the battlefield? Does she not burn our enemies to ash? Even when she journeyed with the others back to her faithless swamp, she led them against cultists seeking to sully our holy land. She too has a use in Uldars plan.
The Holy Saint beamed at the surrounding knights and priests. If there is a rift, let there be a rift. It is not into the Heroes that I should be pouring my efforts, it is into the people! To Uldars people! And that is his gift, for there has always been a rift between the other Heroes and myself, but as that rift grows, I grow closer with the people. With his faithful.
He bowed his head in prayer. I thank you, holy Uldar, for your guidance. I thank you for granting me the wisdom to find the meaning in your teachings. I
A soundlike air being sucked from a cupstarted Merzhin from his prayer, drawing his attention to the fae gate at the centre of the camp. Stepping out of the circle of mushrooms were a group of strangers: warriors, wizards, and strange beasts from Generasi.
They hailed from a multitude of peoplesmore than Mezhin had ever seen in his nineteen yearsand bore weapons, staffs and armour that seemed to spark with both magic and decadence. Flanking them were a pair of massive stone giants: golems, he believed they were called.
A disciplined looking womanbearing both staff and swordstepped forward from the group, her eyes focusing on him. She bowed her head. Saint Merzhin, I presume?
The Saint gave her a peaceful smile. Holy Uldar has deemed me worthy of such a name and title, yes. Greetings and Uldars blessings be with youmadam?
Watcher Hill, the woman said, her words clipped and her tone brusque; the manner of speaking hed heard coming from more than one sergeant serving with Thamelands soldiers. He only hoped she would be as dependable and professional as they. I am in command of the University of Generasis Secondary Expeditionary Force. Might I have some room made around the fae gate? We have a large contingent coming through.
Er, you may. Merzhin turned to Uldars followers. Could we make space for our guests?
Holy Saint! An instant response from dozens of voices followed, with knights, soldiers and his flock scrambling to clear the space around the fae gate.
Merzhins gaze crept over the strange group of newcomers.
Such wonders lay in this world, he thought, his eyes lingering on the stone golems. I cannot believe there are so many
His thoughts paused.
One of the Generasians was staring at him: a young woman in plain clothes, with golden hair...
And a symbol of Uldar hanging from her neck.
Well, he thought, marvelling at Uldars ways. Perhaps my little flock has grown.