Lin Ruolan sat down on the sofa: "I don't have that much time to hurt others, even if she cries, it's her business, it has nothing to do with me!"
"You have really changed a lot. Now you make me feel strange, no, it should be said that it is very strange!"
Lin Zhaojun refused to believe that she had undergone such an earth-shaking change, the original Lin Ruolan was not like this.
"Everything will change after a long time. You will change and I will naturally change. This is normal. Have you found that I am vicious and vicious now, and I don't know what is good?"
Lin Ruolan smiled lightly, very happily: "Then what should I do, I have hurt your precious daughter now, do you want to fire me?"
Hearing this, Lin Zhaojun felt deeply depressed and helpless: "I hope you don't hurt Zhen'er."
"President, I don't have that much time and effort to hurt someone, someone who is nothing."
When Lin Ruolan was the only one left in the office, she let out a sigh of relief, lay there half dead, and murmured in a daze, "I don't know what bad things you did in your last life. Only then will he become a rat crossing the street that everyone shouts and beats."
Hurt... Just because she can't even eat enough to hurt others now?
Does she have that kind of capital?
When will he really become a wooden man, able to be indifferent to any harm?
A money-loving woman like Kelly can give up a huge fortune for Amy!
Lin Zhaojun protects her daughter from any harm, what is she?
She was nothing. In the past eight years, she was the only one who was in pain. They had long forgotten about the pain!
It was already eleven o'clock when she returned to the residence, she didn't want to sleep, she just wanted to sit quietly until dawn by herself, even if she died...
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door, Lin Ruolan pulled back her thoughts of running away and opened the door, never thinking that the person who came would be Pei Yijing.
After glancing at him twice, she turned around numbly, and Pei Yijing walked into the room.
The room is very small, and it is still with the kitchen. There is only one bed and a sofa, and the rest is the suitcase in the corner.
"I don't know what photographer Pei came here for?"
Pei Yijing sat down on the sofa: "Why don't you go to school?"
"That's my business and has nothing to do with Photographer Pei. If there's nothing else, Photographer Pei can leave!"
She unceremoniously issued the order to evict the guest, and she was a completely different person from her usual appearance.
How could he not feel the change in her: "You are only twenty years old, you actually dropped out of school, you have to go back to school!"
"Photographer Pei is not mine. He has no right or obligation to take care of me. It's getting late. Please, Photographer Pei."
She feels exhausted now, all the strength in her body has disappeared, and she can't afford anything now.
Whether it is love or family affection, it is already too extravagant for her...
"You are twenty years old, you don't even want a future now, what else do you want?"
"Future? What kind of future is there for people like me? As for what do you want?" Lin Ruolan paused slightly: "If you want to die, is that okay?"
I really want to die, if I die, it will be over, I don't have to think about anything, and I won't feel the piercing pain anymore.
She really wanted to be quiet, she really wanted to die...
Pei Yijing's warm eyes moved slightly, and they narrowed tightly in an instant: "What did you say?"
"I don't want anything, I just want to die, is that okay?" Lin Ruolan said again.
"Lin Ruolan!" Pei Yijing's usual gentle voice changed completely, with a hint of anger.
Lin Ruolan's voice was light and floating, as if she had no bottom: "Because you have avoided me for so long, and now you don't need to avoid it anymore. I will treat it as if it never happened, and from now on I will Will not pester you again, never will, so there is no need for you to hide."
By now, she doesn't want anything anymore, and she can't afford anything...
Hearing such words now, Pei Yijing's heart did not relax, but was still tense. During that time, he was not escaping, but thinking.
It was she who got sick that night, not him. His self-control is much stronger than ordinary people!
If he didn't want it, then no matter how much he tried to seduce him, it would be futile, but under her jerky and fiery temptation, his self-control fell short!
Seeing her lying beside him so peacefully and beautifully that morning, he couldn't tell what kind of feeling it was in his heart!
She is still young, only twenty years old, but he is a person with no future. To put it in a bad word, he is a person with one foot already standing in the grave...
But he wanted her for the first time, he really needs to think about it!
That's why he left, he didn't answer her phone, he didn't listen to her voice, he wanted to be serious and think carefully...
In fact, some things have already happened, he did fall in love with her, that is, she has been pestering him to learn how to prune flower branches, but he is chattering non-stop, he likes to see her lively little face, cheerful look , cheerful tone...
So much so that during the few days when she didn't come, he felt that many things disappeared in his life, but in fact, it was nothing but her that disappeared...
Sometimes love comes silently, he did fall in love with her!
But for a person with no future to speak of, love is not an easy thing...
He went to the United States, on the one hand, to take the opportunity to think about it, and on the other hand, to check his body again.
There has never been a moment when he desperately hopes that his body is intact and can bear everything.
There is a huge age gap between the two, but with the passage of time, he has figured out that love has no borders, so what is a little difference?
The answer found in the United States is not very satisfactory, it is still the same answer, his body is still in such a bad state, I don't know when it will happen...
So he became more determined not to call her. If he couldn't even give her a reliable future, how dare he provoke her?
This mood is really terrible, Pei Yijing deeply felt...
"Why do you suddenly not want to continue chasing her anymore?" Pei Yijing stared at her, narrowing his eyes slightly, and asked slowly.
"Where are there so many reasons? Some people feel bored and others feel tired, so naturally they don't want to continue chasing."
Now, she is really tired. She has insisted on her belief for so many years just to see Kailai and Lin Zhaojun regret it. Now, the only belief that supports her has fallen, what is left?
Pei Yijing stared at her without blinking: "Tired?"
"Yes, I feel very tired now, and I am very tired, so I don't have the energy to do such things again, but Photographer Pei is also happy and relaxed. This is very good and everyone is happy."
Lin Ruolan's voice at this time was weak, soft, fluttering, and she didn't know where it would go.
"Why are you tired?" Pei Yijing stared at her.
In the end is because of what tired? Lin Ruolan took a deep breath, because of something, of course because of many things...
"In short, this has nothing to do with Photographer Pei. Photographer Pei can leave now, I want to rest!"
There are some things that she doesn't want to talk about anymore, she just wants to spend it quietly and peacefully, that's all.
"You are young after all. The love of young children really can't be taken seriously. One second, the deep sea is dead, and the next second, they turn their faces and deny people..."
Pei Yijing sighed softly. If you listen carefully, you can clearly find the provocation and deliberate provocation in that voice.
He was indeed provoking her on purpose...
But how could Lin Ruolan listen to what he said at this time, she was already caught in her own thoughts and couldn't extricate herself.
"I have nothing to say, I can do whatever photographer Pei thinks, I really want to rest, you can leave!"
She once again issued the order to evict the guest, which was never done before!
Pei Yijing's gentle expression moved slightly: "The bus is running out at this time, I'm afraid I will trouble Xiao Lin tonight."
Lin Ruolan glanced at the dark night outside the window: "Then you can be the photographer as you like."
Not in the mood, and she didn't have the energy to continue entangled with him, a burst of hunger came, she walked aside and started to boil instant noodles.
From the beginning to the end, there was no expression on his face, as numb as a sculpture, he boiled water in a numbness, and then soaked noodles in a numbness.
Pei Yijing didn't make a sound either, sitting on the sofa and staring at her expression.
It was already twelve o'clock in the evening after eating instant noodles, but Lin Ruolan didn't intend to go to sleep, but walked out of the room and sat on the bench in the cold wind.
After sitting for a while, she returned to the room and sat on the sofa.
Pei Yijing's eyes fell on her: "What happened?"
"There's nothing wrong. Photographer Pei can leave early tomorrow morning."
"Which thing have you really forgotten?"
"Yes, I have forgotten it, so Photographer Pei doesn't need to keep it in mind. From now on, Photographer Pei will just treat me as a stranger and won't pester me any more!"
She repeated to him again and again, word for word.
Pei Yijing's eyes narrowed: "So what you said before were all jokes? They were all jokes when you were bored?"
"Yes, it's all a joke, so photographer Pei can forget all about it."
Lin Ruolan answered neatly, but she didn't notice why Pei Yijing brought up such a topic.
After taking a deep look at her, Pei Yijing put his bony fingers on his forehead and kneaded gently: "Okay, I will forget about it."
As time passed, Lin Ruolan seemed to be really sleepy, fell asleep on the bed, and suppressed all those deep emotions.
It's just that she didn't seem so relaxed in her deep sleep, her brows were tightly frowned, she didn't know what she dreamed of, and her whole body seemed particularly painful.
(end of this chapter)