Chapter 667 Empty

Chapter 667 Empty　　Shui Xian was feeling so choked up right now. He felt like crying all over again. So, he pulled her into his arms and let his tears fall freely. He didn't want to break down in front of Raelle but he couldn't help it either. 

With his face buried in her neck, he said, "Yes, we did lose our child."

He just realized that even if he didn't bring up the topic, he couldn't change the reality and he couldn't possibly hide from this reality either. It wasn't possible to do so. Raelle wasn't the kind of a person to keep it inside. She liked to put all her cards on the table. She was just that transparent about her thoughts.

Raelle let him hug her. She even could tell he was crying when his hot tears touched her skin. It was no secret to her that her husband was an emotional person. How could something like this not affect him? Raelle lifted her arm to hug him back and even patted his back softly as she told him honestly, "I'm feeling empty."

Shui Xian's breath was stuck in his throat. 

"It's like I lost something," she added in a low voice. "I don't like this feeling."

Shui Xian felt like his heart was being pricked right now. How could he not feel this way? It was the first time she used a word to describe what she was feeling but in the end, it was emptiness. His tears fell harder as his arms tightened around her. He suddenly felt like she had become frail in just one night. 

It hurt him to know that she was hurting but there was something even worse, she couldn't even word out her grief in the right way. Because she didn't know how to do it. 

Shui Xian was startled when he felt something wet on his shoulder and pulled away from her. As he looked at her face, his eyes widened in shock. 

There were tears running down Raelle's face. Yes, tears!

He almost felt like he was hallucinating but the touch of her burning hot tears on his skin was real and the way that fire burned his heart was real as well. Yes, he was once curious to know if she ever cried but he didn't want her to cry. He didn't want her to ever cry. 

Shui Xian cupped her face and wiped her tears, "Baby, I know that this feeling of emptiness is not really good. But I promise, I'll do anything and everything to fill this emptiness you're feeling. So, please don't cry. I'm always here for you and with you. That won't ever change."

"Who is crying?" she retorted. "It's your fault. It's because you're crying that my eyes started leaking."

Shui Xian's lips tugged up slightly as he repeated, "Leaking? Those are tears! Not water that is leaking."

"But doesn't the tears also leak from the eyes?" asked Raelle. "So, it's the same thing, my dumb husband."

Shui Xian's thumb pad continued to stroke against the soft skin of her cheek as he nodded, "Hmm... I'm obviously dumb. How can I be as smart as my wife?"

"It's okay. Only one smart person is enough in a marriage," said Raelle as she sniffled. "Also, who told you to call yourself dumb? Only I should do that! It's my privilege of being your wife."

Shui Xian placed his forehead against hers as he hummed, "Yes, it's your privilege." He took a pause before asking, "Did it hurt?"

"It did," she told him and Shui Xian felt like she was complaining to him. "It really hurt. So much that I teared up."

"I'm sorry," he said.

"What are you sorry for again?" she asked.

"I should have been there," was his reply. "With you."

"What could have you done if you had been there?" she asked straightforwardly. "It's not like you could take my pain."

"But I could have offered you moral support," said Shui Xian playfully.

"Who needs moral support?" asked Raelle. She opened her arms, "I want more hugs."

Shui Xian's heart melted and took her into his arms again. 

"Xian!"

"Hm?"

"How are you feeling?"

Shui Xian didn't expect that question from her. Wasn't it the time when people would ask her how she was feeling? But here she was asking him how he was feeling? It's not like he was the one who got hurt.

This wife of his was really something else.

"Tell me honestly," added Raelle.

Shui Xian took a moment before saying, "Then I'll tell you honestly. But don't call me a bad person after hearing this." He didn't lift up his head from her shoulder as he continued to hug her close to himself. "The very first feeling of mine wasn't of loss but of happiness knowing that you're fine. I've been feeling a little guilty while waiting for you to wake up but it's the truth that the happiness really overwhelmed the grief I felt for the loss of our child."

Raelle patted his head, "That doesn't make you a bad person."

"As long as you think so," he replied. He pulled away to look into her eyes seriously, "But you just keep in mind that all I need in my life is you. So, please don't get hurt again. It scares me so much. In just a few hours when I didn't know how you were doing, I felt like a headless fly. I didn't know where to go and what to do at all. So, just stay with me. Okay?"

Raelle could see how he was trying to hold back his tears but he wasn't able to hide the fear he felt. It seemed she really ended up worrying him. And that's exactly what she had been trying to avoid all this while.

"Didn't I tell you? I'm in this marriage for life," she said. "Where can I possibly go?"

"It's good to know that you aren't going anywhere," he smiled sincerely for the first time since she saw him today.

*Thud!"

Suddenly, the door of the room was pushed open loudly and someone ran in. Raelle looked at the person who came and blinked at him.