Chapter 798 A Home
"But they both don't like me," said Zhai Kuijun.
Yue Yue brought him to sit in the sunroom and shook his head when she heard his words. She still used Mu Chenyan's phone to let him know, 'Yin Jie never disliked you. And neither does Chenyan.'
"No, Qian Yin only thought I was blind," said Zhai Kuijun. "And she was right."
'You shouldn't take Yin Jie's words to heart.' She thought for a moment before typing, 'As for Chenyan, she is a little too protective towards people she cares about. She seems to hate tears. So, she gets agitated to see me cry.'
Zhai Kuijun looked at Yue Yue and said, "You don't have to tell me how Mu Chenyan is. I have an idea about how she is. After all, even if we weren't close, I've known her since she was kid because of my father's friendship with Uncle Yu." He took a pause and added, "Why don't you talk about yourself? Was it fun playing this hide and seek that lasted for over two decades?"
Yue Yue smiled bitterly, 'It wasn't fun. I wasn't doing it for fun.'
"Then why did you do it? Did you not think how worried I'd be?"
'Actually, I was hoping that you'd think that I'm dead,' she could only be honest with him about this. 'The intention of leaving wasn't to hide. It was to disappear for good.' Yes, her original intention was to disappear. That's why she didn't want to live. But Hyson changed things for her. She could only keep going. But the purpose didn't change. She still wanted to disappear for good so she went so far away that no one could find her.
"What?" he couldn't believe she just said that.
'That's true.' Yue Yue thought about her situation back then with a dull gaze. 'You really shouldn't have wasted so much time looking for me. I left because I wanted to. It had nothing to do with anyone.'
Zhai Kuijun was so frustrated to hear that from her. What did she mean by that? She was still not willing to speak about what she went through?
"Yue! How could you not change even after all these years?" he asked. "Don't you feel that it's unfair? You went through so much but you were never willing to tell me anything. And even now, you are telling me it had nothing to do with anyone? And a person like you wanted to leave on her own accord?"
Wronged? Yue Yue thought to herself. Was she wronged? Well, yes. She did feel wronged for a while. But she was a person who grew up feeling wronged. And maybe that's why she grew too numb to everything. The only thing that hurt was her father's words. She only had her expectation associated with him but even he didn't believe in her. That really broke her and that's when she really felt wronged.
But so what? So what if she felt wronged or complained? She never got anything after complaining. Even if she did, her sister will make her pay twice the price for that.
"Can you please tell me what happened back then? Why did you have to leave your own home?" he asked. "And why didn't you just wait for me to come back?" He took a pause and added, "You can tell me now. Even if it's too late, I'll still do everything to fight for you."
'You're not supposed to fight my battles for me.'
Zhai Kuijun was taken aback by her response. Oh, he was wrong. She did change. She no longer wanted to depend on people to fight for herself. But was she willing to fight for herself?
"Then will you fight for yourself?" he asked.
Yue Yue shook her head, 'I have nothing to fight for. I always loved peace and quiet. I'd rather distance myself from fights.' It was ironic how a person who loved peace and quiet actually befriended a violent person like Mu Chenyan. Then she looked up at him, 'I'm no longer part of the Yue Clan. I really have nothing to fight for. Brother Kuijun, I left home because I had to. But I don't regret it. In fact, I'm very happy in my life. If not for that experience, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I wouldn't have met Chenyan. And I wouldn't have learned how exciting life can be.'
She smiled to herself as she continued to type, 'I learned that some relationships are bigger than blood. Sometimes, relationships are built on sincerity. And these relationships can surprise you. Today, I can proudly tell you that I, Yue Yue have people who don't only love her but are also willing to protect her. And they don't even expect anything in return. I have a home now, Brother Kuijun. A home where I am really needed.'
The best thing about this family was that they always made her feel like she was worth it. No matter what, she was always worth the effort.
They didn't need anything from her. After all, she was a single mother but they were willing to give whatever they had. But they never crushed her self-esteem and always did whatever they could to make sure that she knew her worth. She learned how to love herself in this family.
It was strange, even Xiang Hulin whom she just met days ago was willing to protect her just because Mu Chenyan said Yue Yue is family. She never realized how heavy this single word was. Family. It sounded very simple but the Xiang family took it way too seriously.
So, seriously that in the beginning she couldn't even understand their thought process. Just how could someone attach so much importance to just family? And how was someone willing to add a person who wasn't even related by blood to the family?
She was always questioned in the Yue Clan because her mother didn't have a strong backing. Even her blood was questioned. That made her feel inferior to her sister even if she never showed it. But now, she knew that none of that really mattered.