1137 [Bonus chapter] Detrimental
After leaving Amiah's room, Hyson didn't go to his room to change anymore. And he didn't go downstairs to join the engagement banquet either. He went to the rooftop instead. He didn't know what he was doing there but he knew that he didn't want to go down right now. He sat on the rooftop for hours looking at the sky filled with stars.
The moon tonight was really beautiful and he felt himself entranced. When he came back to himself, it was quite late. He stood up to leave. But as he passed by the small garden on the rooftop, he found a familiar person sitting on the wooden chair enjoying the moon as he had been.
"Tree Spirit!"
Ru turned his head and looked at Hyson, "Oh, what are you doing here? Are you also homeless like me?"
Hyson walked over and sat down on the other chair as he asked, "You? Homeless? Are you sure?"
"Just a house of four walls and a roof is not considered a home," came the response. "Some of us are really homeless even with that roof above our head."
"True," agreed Hyson. "Homes are made with feelings and people. Without love, it's just a lifeless house made of bricks and cement."
"You kid, understand it well."
"So, what are you really doing here?"
"I was kicked out," replied Ru. "My uncle offered me to stay at his penthouse tonight and he forgot all about me once he came across your godmother."
Hyson raised his brows at Ru, "You mean, my Yanyan is currently with your uncle?"
"Yup!"
"Is that a good thing or a bad thing?"
"If it was a bad thing would I have left so easily? This young master isn't that easy to kick out. But I didn't want to ruin their privacy too. So, I took my leave. Now, hopefully, those two won't need any more of my help."
"You look very eager to bring them together," mentioned Hyson.
"Why shouldn't I be? At this point, everyone is a monk in my clan. Not a single person from my generation is willing to look for a partner. Everyone thinks relationships are a hassle and they have better things to do in life. This is a very serious matter. It's detrimental to the survival of our clan. How can I not be happy to have my uncle find his partner? Even if he is from the previous generation, it still means some progress, right?"
"It can't be that bad," said Hyson.
"But it is," said Ru seriously. "It is just that bad."
"Then you take the lead and make an example," suggested Hyson.
Ru gave him a look, "Thanks for your suggestion but I'm the last person who wants to find a partner. I am someone who grew up in a monastery. Do you really think this young master is looking for a partner? Why do I have to take the lead? It's unacceptable."
Hyson pursed his lips and shook his head.
"What about you, kid? What are you hiding from?" asked Ru.
"I'm not hiding. Just had something on my mind."
"What?" asked Ru. "Did someone break your heart?" Hyson frowned at that and Ru added, "Or you broke someone's heart?" Hyson's expression froze and Ru smirked knowingly. "Oh, so that's it. Feeling bad about it?"
"Kind of," answered Hyson.
Ru shook his head, "Did it for the first time?"
"Yeah."
"Relax. You'll get used to it."
"Talking from experience, I believe."
"Of course!"
Hyson sighed, "I don't even know why I'm feeling this way."
"Because you have a very good heart," said Ru. "You don't like hurting people and that's why it's hurting you now."
Hyson bit his lips when he heard that and didn't deny it. He thought he was capable of anything but deep down, he was still a little soft-hearted. He didn't like seeing a woman cried because of him. It just felt bad.
"I feel like I let my mum down," he told Ru. "She always taught me to be respectful to women. She said to never make them cry or bully them. She said that girls are fragile and delicate. I should be careful with them even with my words. Tonight, I might have been a bit harsh I think."
"How adorable!" commented Ru as he picked up a bar of chocolate from the table and unwrapped it. "Want some? Eat some chocolate. You'll feel better." Hyson didn't believe those words but still took the chocolate to eat. "You have no faith in my words but I like the fact that you're obedient."
Hyson didn't respond to that. He felt like there was nothing to respond especially since he was busy eating the chocolate. This was a delicious chocolate actually.
"Actually, you don't have to be so down thinking about this. You can't make everyone happy in life. If you want to make everyone happy, you'll first have to sacrifice your own happiness. Life is just like that. But the point is, it's okay to make sacrifice if you know that by your sacrifice, everyone will be happy. However, the truth is, someone will always be unhappy. And it's not your job to make them happy. Your responsibility in life is to make yourself happy. Are you happy to reject that girl tonight?"
Hyson nodded his head, "Even if I do it again, I'd still say no."
"That's all you need to know. You should stay true to yourself. When you know this, why think about it so much and make yourself upset? Even if your tell your mother about this, she'd also tell you that you did the right thing. It's not like you liked that girl. And if you don't like her, it's better to tell her than leaving her hanging."
Hyson put his elbow on the table in front of him with his face perched on his hand as he listened attentively and felt like it made sense. Why was he struggling for so long when it was so easy to understand?